There’s been a consistent and very hard to describe feeling in recent years, since 2020 to be exact, that nothing is quite right, even when it looks right.
"There’s been a consistent and very hard to describe feeling in recent years, since 2020 to be exact, that nothing is quite right, even when it looks right. Even when things appear “normal—'nothing is. Only the surface is normal. Beneath, there is something way off.'
I'm making myself write things that come to me if if they could be called simplistic or not factual or whatever else. I notice this helps people not feel "crazy," and that's an under-served area in this whole "thing" we are in. Together.
Celia, watch this if you haven't seen this already. Insomnia pushed me to listen to this a second time since its release earlier this year. I consider her your sister in arms because of her blend of poignant investigative writing and depth of engagement with the human condition. For her also everything changed since 2020. https://www.blckbx.tv/binnenland/if-europe-does-not-wake-up-you-will-all-be-dead-says-naomi-wolf
Something is fundamentally wrong with the order of things. We were all being forced down a darkening path of increasing intensity for several decades, but the Covid Op pushed everything over the edge, and as much as many people have returned to a semblance of normalcy, something in our collective spirit was shattered, and it isn't being addressed or spoken of.
Something monstrous happened, and we're supposed to pretend it didn't happen at all.
I hear you. I am not being trite either. And the sentiment you express below is spot on. I also feel it deeply every day. The fact that these bastards who call themselves our "leaders" still believe they can get away with this fake left-hand/right-hand bullshit, after they all pulled what they did in 2020 (but really, since 9/11 at least), is beyond comprehensible absent supernatural evil, or as I have recently been opening to consider, something like a "Planet X" event. What else can explain why our "leaders" are dead-set on killing most of us, and lie about this clear intention to our faces daily?
"...and as much as many people have returned to a semblance of normalcy, something in our collective spirit was shattered, and it isn't being addressed or spoken of. Something monstrous happened, and we're supposed to pretend it didn't happen at all."
"supernatural evil" is so spot on Chris. Feels sometimes like the hardest part every single day is believing it. That there really are "people" such as this. It CAN'T be about the money. It must be a Satanic feeding frenzy we don't understand but they do.
Re supernatural evil: AI has been around for much longer than people realize, maybe since the 1970s, and has been perfected ever since. What the general population now has access to is just a small piece.
I don't remember where I read this, but the premise was that AI had been used to coordinate the "pandemic," lock downs, etc., in the worst possible way, to destroy humanism as much as possible. Which is why the actions had - and still have - such an alien feeling.
Indeed. Something about blood sacrifice for a feeling of "godlike" power, even though I would not have framed it that way before. Thanks for all you do. I so enjoy your incisive empathic writing.
I have to wonder if the legions of municipal, state, and federal employed may not be entirely aware of who's done what to whom, since they are de facto in that deeply cushioned "club," membership in which is contingent on their consistent, tacit, consent to whatever they're told to do. Very comfortable existence. Air time for those whose egos ripple in satisfaction. Revolting. Like Celia I rely on the tangible and the beautiful for whatever stability (ha!) I might glean from my days. Thank you Celia for your extraordinary publications and gentle fervor. So much appreciation!
I would like to quote something you said, which provided me with the idea to share something with you. But first, your words, which I enjoyed reading.
"as I have recently been opening to consider, something like a "Planet X" event. What else can explain why our "leaders" are dead-set on killing most of us, and lie about this clear intention to our faces daily?"
I believe there's something that very few have yet to consider. And, I think its worth considering, for those who are ready to take their thinking to the next level. By next level I simply mean, in considering things they may not have before or previously. Ever.
So, I present to you - Martin Vrijland. He's Dutch, and has been seeking answers like so many of us. He has authored a few inexpensive digital books and they are on his website. Martin's theory is based around simulation. As far as I can see, this man has the best idea going. His article on simulation can be found here. Good luck to you Chris.
He also has a newsletter by email which he regularly posts to. His newsletters are definitely worth reading. Dive in and see what you think, from what I read, you are primed for it! I will say, the narrative Martin lays out, is only for those willing to reconsider everything. And by everything, I mean everything.
Clicked on your link. Will read a couple of his articles. A quick scan tells me that like David Icke, he dabbles in what I would dub Gnostic Christian beliefs about our existence and current situation. As with all things destructive (in the agnostic/non-judgemental sense) postmodern, there has been an explosion of Gnosticism in western culture since the 1960s. I tend to analyze this more in cultural trends rather than something deeply truth-based. Thanks for the link. I'll check him out.
He's not like Icke, and considers Icke to be a gate keeper. But, they do both support a narrative of simulation, with differences. He hosts an article on his website on exactly how he differs from Icke - you can search it out using the search feature and 'Icke'.
Yes but--the division is clear: the set of people who consciously or unconsciously live as if it didn't happen at all, finding it useful as a way to go on with their lives; and the other set (here) who simply cannot or choose not to -pretend- to act as if it never happened, in fact to be continuing on, some of them, continually carrying not just the truth of recent history, but the heart ache *and* additional trauma of constant contact with the first set. What is the answer to -that- ??
Nope. The "Shepherd" is God. Few follow what is Good but cleave to evil offered by Satan. God is not the Author of bondage. Porn, love of money, sexual perversion, drug addiction etc are bondages, but Freedom is the portion offered by God. Sheeple follow their own sinful lustful desires that take them captive and control them. Look at the alcoholic destroyed by booze. This is common. I lost three uncles to the bottle, two of them good men, one of them a WW2 veteran. I see it happen to people I know.
Political correctness/wokism came by way of dialectic secular humanism taught in the corrupt education CYSTem from the time of Dewey. It now contaminates every government office and most apostate regions.
Woke is the recent end result of a progression...cultural marxism...dialectic secular humanism...political correctness and then woke. This happened mostly in the education CYSTem. And there is coming another progression but it as well will lead away from the source of Life as well.
Are you a reader of western philosophy at all, Edward? --Locke, Kant, Rousseau, Hegel, Heidegger, Marx, Nietzsche? I think there is potentially a less supernatural, less conspiratorial way of explaining how we have gradually, then rapidly, gotten to "peak woke." I think our road to "woke" can be explained merely by how popular culture has gradually adopted the ideas of western philosophers (some of whom (like Kant) were trying to protect Christianity from being destroyed by modernism/rationalism) after the Enlightenment. Postmodern critical theory has been pushed on Americans and westerners heavily since the 1960s. For a time, it was only the academy that dabbled in this destructive anti-everything nihilistic craptrap, but now BlackRock and State Street shove it down our throats every day through their advertising and complete takeover of America's economy and mainstream culture. Perhaps it's the Nephilim behind the scenes manipulating everything. Or perhaps it's just that Americans have been so hypnotized, traumatized and manipulated by both rationalist modernism and fashionable postmodernism (Romanticism, existentialism and nihilism) that they cannot find their way back to God, or belief in anything higher than quest for their own power. I don't know.
I do not read those but search for truth in the scriptures as taught by a Salvation Army mother and Methodist father. Your thoughts are indeed interesting...this is the reality currently coupled with the human bent to sin..they cannot find their way back to God, or belief in anything higher than quest for their own power.(you got it)
...and you should make an appointment with a board certified psychologist to deal with your obsessional imbalanced persona. I wonder if your wife is in any sort of danger by way of your mentally imbalanced state. Poet? haha You are just a delusional pippet on a parapet howling at the full moon.
I think it's the "Great Awakening" there's truth, and then there's lies, and when you realize that you have been lied to your whole life you can never look at things the same way. Many people get mad if you point out the lies, they don't want to wake up. They stop talking to anyone that disagrees with the propaganda because to them it's a convenient truth, and anyone that challenges the narrative they are being fed is the enemy.
Here is the reason everything is not right, very not right!
All life on earth is being assaulted by THE TECHNOCRATIC OMNIWAR! RESIST! DO NOT CONSENT TO ALL THINGS DIGITAL, 'SMART', AI, 5G, NO CASH - ALL OF IT! dhughes.substack.com Technocrat ruling class psychos get a sadistic thrill from their powers over life and death and hurting all who stand in their way and they need the resources worldwide to build their digital total slavery control grids (herd survivors into 15 minute city digital prisons)!
AI is designed to be anti-human/anti-life programmed by technocrat control freak psychos - garbage in = garbage out. Everyone got along just fine without all these absurd and downright satanic electronic gadgets that did not exist until recently. NOBODY NEEDS THIS AI CRAP!
How I stick my thumb in the eyes of the grotesque billionaire bastards pushing their enslavement agenda and how I embrace being fully human.
Fighting the globalist predator technocrat psychopath megalomaniac TOTAL SLAVERY AGENDA one performance at a time!
Amazing Amy: Eccentric Yoga Entertainer!
As an entertainer, I have been devastated and practically destroyed by the closure of all performance venues and then when they reopened, because MY BODY, MY CHOICE - being made a total untermenschen pariah outcast in NAZI NIGHTMARE LAWLESS 'SHOW ME YOUR PAPERS' JAB CROW APARTHEID/DISCRIMINATION/SEGREGATION HELL NYC WHERE THE MAD/DRUNK WITH POWER TYRANT POLS DOUBLE DOWN ON THEIR ILLEGAL MANDATES. I am trapped here with zero financial resources to leave or do anything else about this 'wish I were dead' endless misery life has become. The tragic irony is that my SPREAD THE YOGA LOVE performances are all about health, miraculously overcoming age (69) and injury to achieve feats of flexibility few can attain at any age. So BIG PHARMA who wants to addict every person on the planet to their toxic products hate people like me who prove that we do not need them if we eat healthy organic food and exercise daily!
Your comment "...Nazi nightmare..." has me thinking YOU watch too much USA news media. Hitler drove around in an open M.B. where he could have been shot at any time. The people adored him, even joos I have met that were in NSDAP Germany. There is another side to the "Nazi" story you have not read.
In a way they did attempt to kill our mother: the divine feminine spirit of receptivity, compassion, and nurturing ourselves and all life. But they have not succeeded!! We are rising from the ashes and we will overcome by our love, compassion, and faith. We came here to experience this, and we are rising!
Maybe but I have been around a lot less than that span of time. I noted the attack started in 1969 when PEE ERROR the senior sop legalized abortion and homosexuality. What the rad fems never said or acknowledged was that abortion is not only the torture and murder of an innocent unborn baby but also a mental, physical and spiritual desecration of a woman. Add selective gender abortion that attacked girl babies.
Thanks, Celia, for the ongoing reminders that we are all being traumatized. Just being aware of that helps. I'm trying to go easy on myself. Some things are helping me: daily meditation, prayer, comfort foods like cheese and good bread and butter, music, practicing French, wine, Bourbon.
My sense of it is that they killed our world--smashed it to smithereens--and I think it is just gone. It's a profoundly tragic loss and one I mourn whenever I see reminders of what once was, which is virtually every day since I am by nature someone who has always been drawn to the past and to what has been. I find reading Solzhenitsyn extremely comforting because he found his faith in adversity and fought long and hard in the trenches of overwhelming and abusive social oppression.
Yes, we are all still carrying on. But there was a giant theft and no one wants to talk about it.
Giant theft indeed. And it's not like politicians are not used to theft. It's just this one was very big. A lot of politicians have a shocked face even when they are not lying.
A lot of people fawn. They accept the bribes and talk not. The fawning will continue until the money stops flowing.
The funny thing is that the Big Lie looks true the more we fawn.
A theft of things one normally assumes can't be stolen. things we once relied on. Common sense, goodwill, traditions, and many other things that we took for granted. But of all that, yes, perhaps the worst thing is the pretending, the lying, the appeasement that lies right beneath all the contemptible fawning.
They can not kill the Divine, they think they can, and yes we have each other, as spiritual beings , we can not fix this world, it's not ours to fix, it's not reality, stay together in Christ..we will be ok.
This, while it has many facets, isn't hard to figure. It was during the Plandemic that the world went full blown Orwellian. The hospitals became paramilitary killing zones. The very ones who traditionally were presumed to be saving lives became accomplices in murder. Institutions defiled the sanctity of life. Individualism, a bastion of American culture, was smothered by collectivism.
I just want to mention that it's amazing to think that so many millions of people have experienced intense abuse for the first time in this 5 year war. Many of them have a good mental space to return to.
By comparison, I experienced intense abuse since I was a new born. Both of my parents were ambivalent about me. There were cycles of rejection and acknowledgment, or that's what I deduced when I did family archeology. Both of them were heavily traumatized persons. They were orphans of father. My dad lost his dad at age 9. My mom lost her dad at 8. Both of their mothers were traumatized by that loss. Other sons and daughters were also traumatized. But everyone is different, and life develops different for everyone.
So, I don't really have a good mental space to return to. I just observe and suppress. That's what I did before 2020, and that's what I do now.
I suppose what I've just described is the common 75% background to all comedians.
The future of comedy is guaranteed for the next 30 years or so, world wide. Thank you, Branch Covidians in Charge!
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I don't feel envy or resentment to the people who manage to overcome this war trauma, or to those who felt almost nothing. Good for them. I feel sad when I imagine that so many children are orphans now. People cannot understand the 40 to 80 years ramifications of losing a father or a mother too early in life. With violence.
Because this war was a huge circus of violence. We all have become numb to it. We barely see it. We accept the distractions. But there have been violent deaths of young people, who leave children behind.
Mistakes were not made!
On an optimist note, lots of orphans manage to create a good life for themselves. Historically, this is true. It takes effort, but all good things require effort. It's very important that these people have opportunities, and that they are not discouraged or distracted with nonsense like politics.
Agent Roger, I am in your boat too. I conflated the trauma video with post 2020 trauma. I'm so sorry, by the way. Imagine those who had loving, stable families, as their brains developed. To me it seems like something beyond imagining, and I love to witness it, like a spy. A spy on the streets of Granada or Almuñecar sneaking photos of happy families with happy children. Like you, I didn't have an iota of trauma free time, even at birth or after, and was developmentally "frozen" even at the age of 5. I remained calm during Covid, like a walrus sinking into the arctic, prepared with my trauma blubber for any manner of deep freeze. "I just observe and suppress." That's me too Roger. We are siblings. We're not ambivalent about you here!
The image of the walrus is very apt and funny. That was my 2020/2021 theme: sink and wait for better times to emerge. The brain knows more than its user, thank God.
It's nice to see people happy, even if it's half fictional. Flood survivors everywhere have such a tough job ahead this month. There will be much acting. I'm not one to criticize acting when it's useful and well intended.
I have a similar experience of my parents being unpresent for me, related to, probably on some level both of them losing their fathers at a young ages, and being traumatized by this loss, I believe. As a result, I share feelings of lifelong trauma with you, and not having a non-traumatic state to return to. I am still learning about my trauma, even at age 57. It's a lifelong experience, and I expect it will never end. Somehow though, I think my feelings of trauma help me escape the Branch Whatever-ian Matrix better than those who do not feel traumatized (or are not aware of) their childhood trauma. I just do not easily buy into any narrative, without a high degree of underlying skepticism. I believe this has served me well since 2020.
They say as advice "don't identify with your trauma! you are not your trauma!"
Which is true. That is just one big chunk of the biography, not of ourselves.
We change over time so all autobiographies are always ghostwritten, by definition of auto and ghost.
But we have constant reminders of trauma, even stimuli, sometimes they serve us lashinganda, or propaganda in the form of a lashing. Weird bullshit all the time!!!
I want to see what happens this 17th. The electoral college meetings. Will people definitely melt down? Will Hollywood actors form a new coven and ask the electors to vote for Hillary again? I think this weird ritual is necessary for the last remnants of resistance to fully surrender to reality, whatever reality happens to be.
I always anticipate something unexpected, for the kicks. Like a bunch of electors voting for someone no one has heard about, non-political. Like a Popstar or a political philosopher: Taylor Swift or Alexander Dugin, that's the real choice the people really wanted. That would be so hilarious. Neither would know what to do if they were given executive power! LOL!
Yes, I've felt the same way ... the world has been living under an oppressive miasma since 2020, nothing seems real. We've all been bludgeoned and traumatized in some way, and many can't even believe in joy or hope anymore. The fight is to reclaim our vitality and stay strong.
You nailed it, Celia. That first paragraph was an attention grabber for me. "Only the surface is normal. Beneath, there is something way off." Yup. I've spent 4 years wanting to turn around as everything carried on with the veneer or normality, and ask others, "Do you really not see what's happening here?" The veneer of normality itself sometimes adds to the madness.
Wrt the video: I do think that, historically, some benefit has come out of the community of counseling professionals as we knew it. But I think even that community has largely been carried along with the extant corruption. If I opened the DSM today, would I not find present blessings on all sorts of aberrance once recognized as such? I can't help thinking the counselors have incrementally joined in, wittingly or not, on the COVID abuse, the deception, and the subversion of the constitutional republic. What would we figure is the % vote for Trump-Vance-(RFK) last month? I'd guess less than 5% among mental health professionals. No, they probably voted en masse for these #(*&$#**# subversives. My respects to those who knew better.
In our frames the spirit of humanity is under assault by use of technological sophistication by the evil inclination. Terence McKenna 30 years before us drawing on Riane Eisler talks of dominator culture and the human being suggesting then it was possible to turn back from Domination and was the only choice to stop Dominator Culture. Humanity did not see the semi free rich populations of the free Western world organized around Peace and Ecology.
"There’s been a consistent and very hard to describe feeling in recent years, since 2020 to be exact, that nothing is quite right, even when it looks right. Even when things appear “normal—'nothing is. Only the surface is normal. Beneath, there is something way off.'
I feel this deeply every day.
I'm making myself write things that come to me if if they could be called simplistic or not factual or whatever else. I notice this helps people not feel "crazy," and that's an under-served area in this whole "thing" we are in. Together.
Yes, your posts make me feel that someone is there and understands. Like when you say at least we have each other.
Celia, watch this if you haven't seen this already. Insomnia pushed me to listen to this a second time since its release earlier this year. I consider her your sister in arms because of her blend of poignant investigative writing and depth of engagement with the human condition. For her also everything changed since 2020. https://www.blckbx.tv/binnenland/if-europe-does-not-wake-up-you-will-all-be-dead-says-naomi-wolf
Me too.
Me three, and I'm not being trite.
Something is fundamentally wrong with the order of things. We were all being forced down a darkening path of increasing intensity for several decades, but the Covid Op pushed everything over the edge, and as much as many people have returned to a semblance of normalcy, something in our collective spirit was shattered, and it isn't being addressed or spoken of.
Something monstrous happened, and we're supposed to pretend it didn't happen at all.
I hear you. I am not being trite either. And the sentiment you express below is spot on. I also feel it deeply every day. The fact that these bastards who call themselves our "leaders" still believe they can get away with this fake left-hand/right-hand bullshit, after they all pulled what they did in 2020 (but really, since 9/11 at least), is beyond comprehensible absent supernatural evil, or as I have recently been opening to consider, something like a "Planet X" event. What else can explain why our "leaders" are dead-set on killing most of us, and lie about this clear intention to our faces daily?
"...and as much as many people have returned to a semblance of normalcy, something in our collective spirit was shattered, and it isn't being addressed or spoken of. Something monstrous happened, and we're supposed to pretend it didn't happen at all."
"supernatural evil" is so spot on Chris. Feels sometimes like the hardest part every single day is believing it. That there really are "people" such as this. It CAN'T be about the money. It must be a Satanic feeding frenzy we don't understand but they do.
Re supernatural evil: AI has been around for much longer than people realize, maybe since the 1970s, and has been perfected ever since. What the general population now has access to is just a small piece.
I don't remember where I read this, but the premise was that AI had been used to coordinate the "pandemic," lock downs, etc., in the worst possible way, to destroy humanism as much as possible. Which is why the actions had - and still have - such an alien feeling.
Indeed. Something about blood sacrifice for a feeling of "godlike" power, even though I would not have framed it that way before. Thanks for all you do. I so enjoy your incisive empathic writing.
I have to wonder if the legions of municipal, state, and federal employed may not be entirely aware of who's done what to whom, since they are de facto in that deeply cushioned "club," membership in which is contingent on their consistent, tacit, consent to whatever they're told to do. Very comfortable existence. Air time for those whose egos ripple in satisfaction. Revolting. Like Celia I rely on the tangible and the beautiful for whatever stability (ha!) I might glean from my days. Thank you Celia for your extraordinary publications and gentle fervor. So much appreciation!
Hello Chris!
I would like to quote something you said, which provided me with the idea to share something with you. But first, your words, which I enjoyed reading.
"as I have recently been opening to consider, something like a "Planet X" event. What else can explain why our "leaders" are dead-set on killing most of us, and lie about this clear intention to our faces daily?"
I believe there's something that very few have yet to consider. And, I think its worth considering, for those who are ready to take their thinking to the next level. By next level I simply mean, in considering things they may not have before or previously. Ever.
So, I present to you - Martin Vrijland. He's Dutch, and has been seeking answers like so many of us. He has authored a few inexpensive digital books and they are on his website. Martin's theory is based around simulation. As far as I can see, this man has the best idea going. His article on simulation can be found here. Good luck to you Chris.
https://www.martinvrijland.nl/en/category/de-simulatie/
He also has a newsletter by email which he regularly posts to. His newsletters are definitely worth reading. Dive in and see what you think, from what I read, you are primed for it! I will say, the narrative Martin lays out, is only for those willing to reconsider everything. And by everything, I mean everything.
Clicked on your link. Will read a couple of his articles. A quick scan tells me that like David Icke, he dabbles in what I would dub Gnostic Christian beliefs about our existence and current situation. As with all things destructive (in the agnostic/non-judgemental sense) postmodern, there has been an explosion of Gnosticism in western culture since the 1960s. I tend to analyze this more in cultural trends rather than something deeply truth-based. Thanks for the link. I'll check him out.
Here's the link to the article I mentioned; a comparison with Icke.
https://www.martinvrijland.nl/en/news-analyses/wat-is-het-verschil-tussen-de-simulatietheorie-van-david-icke-en-die-van-martin-vrijland/
He's not like Icke, and considers Icke to be a gate keeper. But, they do both support a narrative of simulation, with differences. He hosts an article on his website on exactly how he differs from Icke - you can search it out using the search feature and 'Icke'.
Yes but--the division is clear: the set of people who consciously or unconsciously live as if it didn't happen at all, finding it useful as a way to go on with their lives; and the other set (here) who simply cannot or choose not to -pretend- to act as if it never happened, in fact to be continuing on, some of them, continually carrying not just the truth of recent history, but the heart ache *and* additional trauma of constant contact with the first set. What is the answer to -that- ??
Nope. The "Shepherd" is God. Few follow what is Good but cleave to evil offered by Satan. God is not the Author of bondage. Porn, love of money, sexual perversion, drug addiction etc are bondages, but Freedom is the portion offered by God. Sheeple follow their own sinful lustful desires that take them captive and control them. Look at the alcoholic destroyed by booze. This is common. I lost three uncles to the bottle, two of them good men, one of them a WW2 veteran. I see it happen to people I know.
Political correctness/wokism came by way of dialectic secular humanism taught in the corrupt education CYSTem from the time of Dewey. It now contaminates every government office and most apostate regions.
yes to true yes so true!
Edward, do you think "woke" diminishes or is it perpetual? Bruce Charlton took a dim view.
Woke is the recent end result of a progression...cultural marxism...dialectic secular humanism...political correctness and then woke. This happened mostly in the education CYSTem. And there is coming another progression but it as well will lead away from the source of Life as well.
Are you a reader of western philosophy at all, Edward? --Locke, Kant, Rousseau, Hegel, Heidegger, Marx, Nietzsche? I think there is potentially a less supernatural, less conspiratorial way of explaining how we have gradually, then rapidly, gotten to "peak woke." I think our road to "woke" can be explained merely by how popular culture has gradually adopted the ideas of western philosophers (some of whom (like Kant) were trying to protect Christianity from being destroyed by modernism/rationalism) after the Enlightenment. Postmodern critical theory has been pushed on Americans and westerners heavily since the 1960s. For a time, it was only the academy that dabbled in this destructive anti-everything nihilistic craptrap, but now BlackRock and State Street shove it down our throats every day through their advertising and complete takeover of America's economy and mainstream culture. Perhaps it's the Nephilim behind the scenes manipulating everything. Or perhaps it's just that Americans have been so hypnotized, traumatized and manipulated by both rationalist modernism and fashionable postmodernism (Romanticism, existentialism and nihilism) that they cannot find their way back to God, or belief in anything higher than quest for their own power. I don't know.
I do not read those but search for truth in the scriptures as taught by a Salvation Army mother and Methodist father. Your thoughts are indeed interesting...this is the reality currently coupled with the human bent to sin..they cannot find their way back to God, or belief in anything higher than quest for their own power.(you got it)
"Good Shepherd" , Jefferson Airplane https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOWX2-l788A
;-)
...and you should make an appointment with a board certified psychologist to deal with your obsessional imbalanced persona. I wonder if your wife is in any sort of danger by way of your mentally imbalanced state. Poet? haha You are just a delusional pippet on a parapet howling at the full moon.
Me too.
Many of us are still at stage one...denial.
I think it's the "Great Awakening" there's truth, and then there's lies, and when you realize that you have been lied to your whole life you can never look at things the same way. Many people get mad if you point out the lies, they don't want to wake up. They stop talking to anyone that disagrees with the propaganda because to them it's a convenient truth, and anyone that challenges the narrative they are being fed is the enemy.
Well said Jen! This is exactly how I feel! Nothing will ever be the same. And, that’s probably a good thing…it was time (Universe time)!
Perhaps these monsters overplayed their hand. If all were awake, they never would have gotten this far.
...and another.
Smart gal you are!
Here is the reason everything is not right, very not right!
All life on earth is being assaulted by THE TECHNOCRATIC OMNIWAR! RESIST! DO NOT CONSENT TO ALL THINGS DIGITAL, 'SMART', AI, 5G, NO CASH - ALL OF IT! dhughes.substack.com Technocrat ruling class psychos get a sadistic thrill from their powers over life and death and hurting all who stand in their way and they need the resources worldwide to build their digital total slavery control grids (herd survivors into 15 minute city digital prisons)!
AI is designed to be anti-human/anti-life programmed by technocrat control freak psychos - garbage in = garbage out. Everyone got along just fine without all these absurd and downright satanic electronic gadgets that did not exist until recently. NOBODY NEEDS THIS AI CRAP!
How I stick my thumb in the eyes of the grotesque billionaire bastards pushing their enslavement agenda and how I embrace being fully human.
Fighting the globalist predator technocrat psychopath megalomaniac TOTAL SLAVERY AGENDA one performance at a time!
Amazing Amy: Eccentric Yoga Entertainer!
As an entertainer, I have been devastated and practically destroyed by the closure of all performance venues and then when they reopened, because MY BODY, MY CHOICE - being made a total untermenschen pariah outcast in NAZI NIGHTMARE LAWLESS 'SHOW ME YOUR PAPERS' JAB CROW APARTHEID/DISCRIMINATION/SEGREGATION HELL NYC WHERE THE MAD/DRUNK WITH POWER TYRANT POLS DOUBLE DOWN ON THEIR ILLEGAL MANDATES. I am trapped here with zero financial resources to leave or do anything else about this 'wish I were dead' endless misery life has become. The tragic irony is that my SPREAD THE YOGA LOVE performances are all about health, miraculously overcoming age (69) and injury to achieve feats of flexibility few can attain at any age. So BIG PHARMA who wants to addict every person on the planet to their toxic products hate people like me who prove that we do not need them if we eat healthy organic food and exercise daily!
https://www.reverbnation.com/artist/amazingamycontortionistuniqueyogadancer
https://www.instagram.com/amyharlib/
I try and live and embody the creative performing artistic world and life I so fervently want existence to be about.
Your comment "...Nazi nightmare..." has me thinking YOU watch too much USA news media. Hitler drove around in an open M.B. where he could have been shot at any time. The people adored him, even joos I have met that were in NSDAP Germany. There is another side to the "Nazi" story you have not read.
Poet: All your comments are untrue.
Yup. For sure David. A link is but alone weak and unreliable. You spoke the truth before I got to him.
This link has nothing to do with the topic at hand. You are deflecting. Again. That seems to be your problem.
Yup
In a way they did attempt to kill our mother: the divine feminine spirit of receptivity, compassion, and nurturing ourselves and all life. But they have not succeeded!! We are rising from the ashes and we will overcome by our love, compassion, and faith. We came here to experience this, and we are rising!
Amen Susan!
Susan, woman has been under attack since 1969. Woman was God's most beautiful and precious creation inside and out.
I'd say they've waged a war on the female principle for thousands of years.
Maybe but I have been around a lot less than that span of time. I noted the attack started in 1969 when PEE ERROR the senior sop legalized abortion and homosexuality. What the rad fems never said or acknowledged was that abortion is not only the torture and murder of an innocent unborn baby but also a mental, physical and spiritual desecration of a woman. Add selective gender abortion that attacked girl babies.
Amen Susan! 🙏🏻
I think the lack of real empathy is huge. Also, maybe a disappearance of humility.
Thanks, Celia, for the ongoing reminders that we are all being traumatized. Just being aware of that helps. I'm trying to go easy on myself. Some things are helping me: daily meditation, prayer, comfort foods like cheese and good bread and butter, music, practicing French, wine, Bourbon.
Do not be discouraged Celia. All shall be well again. Have faith.
A Canadian Grandma
My sense of it is that they killed our world--smashed it to smithereens--and I think it is just gone. It's a profoundly tragic loss and one I mourn whenever I see reminders of what once was, which is virtually every day since I am by nature someone who has always been drawn to the past and to what has been. I find reading Solzhenitsyn extremely comforting because he found his faith in adversity and fought long and hard in the trenches of overwhelming and abusive social oppression.
Yes, we are all still carrying on. But there was a giant theft and no one wants to talk about it.
right. there was. We can't talk about it. It's inside us and without us. We can't live as aspiring people it seems. Only fight to survive.
Giant theft indeed. And it's not like politicians are not used to theft. It's just this one was very big. A lot of politicians have a shocked face even when they are not lying.
A lot of people fawn. They accept the bribes and talk not. The fawning will continue until the money stops flowing.
The funny thing is that the Big Lie looks true the more we fawn.
A theft of things one normally assumes can't be stolen. things we once relied on. Common sense, goodwill, traditions, and many other things that we took for granted. But of all that, yes, perhaps the worst thing is the pretending, the lying, the appeasement that lies right beneath all the contemptible fawning.
They can not kill the Divine, they think they can, and yes we have each other, as spiritual beings , we can not fix this world, it's not ours to fix, it's not reality, stay together in Christ..we will be ok.
This, while it has many facets, isn't hard to figure. It was during the Plandemic that the world went full blown Orwellian. The hospitals became paramilitary killing zones. The very ones who traditionally were presumed to be saving lives became accomplices in murder. Institutions defiled the sanctity of life. Individualism, a bastion of American culture, was smothered by collectivism.
That's a nice video summary.
I just want to mention that it's amazing to think that so many millions of people have experienced intense abuse for the first time in this 5 year war. Many of them have a good mental space to return to.
By comparison, I experienced intense abuse since I was a new born. Both of my parents were ambivalent about me. There were cycles of rejection and acknowledgment, or that's what I deduced when I did family archeology. Both of them were heavily traumatized persons. They were orphans of father. My dad lost his dad at age 9. My mom lost her dad at 8. Both of their mothers were traumatized by that loss. Other sons and daughters were also traumatized. But everyone is different, and life develops different for everyone.
So, I don't really have a good mental space to return to. I just observe and suppress. That's what I did before 2020, and that's what I do now.
I suppose what I've just described is the common 75% background to all comedians.
The future of comedy is guaranteed for the next 30 years or so, world wide. Thank you, Branch Covidians in Charge!
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I don't feel envy or resentment to the people who manage to overcome this war trauma, or to those who felt almost nothing. Good for them. I feel sad when I imagine that so many children are orphans now. People cannot understand the 40 to 80 years ramifications of losing a father or a mother too early in life. With violence.
Because this war was a huge circus of violence. We all have become numb to it. We barely see it. We accept the distractions. But there have been violent deaths of young people, who leave children behind.
Mistakes were not made!
On an optimist note, lots of orphans manage to create a good life for themselves. Historically, this is true. It takes effort, but all good things require effort. It's very important that these people have opportunities, and that they are not discouraged or distracted with nonsense like politics.
Agent Roger, I am in your boat too. I conflated the trauma video with post 2020 trauma. I'm so sorry, by the way. Imagine those who had loving, stable families, as their brains developed. To me it seems like something beyond imagining, and I love to witness it, like a spy. A spy on the streets of Granada or Almuñecar sneaking photos of happy families with happy children. Like you, I didn't have an iota of trauma free time, even at birth or after, and was developmentally "frozen" even at the age of 5. I remained calm during Covid, like a walrus sinking into the arctic, prepared with my trauma blubber for any manner of deep freeze. "I just observe and suppress." That's me too Roger. We are siblings. We're not ambivalent about you here!
Thank you! Thank you very much!
The image of the walrus is very apt and funny. That was my 2020/2021 theme: sink and wait for better times to emerge. The brain knows more than its user, thank God.
It's nice to see people happy, even if it's half fictional. Flood survivors everywhere have such a tough job ahead this month. There will be much acting. I'm not one to criticize acting when it's useful and well intended.
I know from "trauma blubber"...What a gorgeous, gorgeous simile....context notwithstanding.
This is an astounding thought. Both my parents lost their fathers around the age of 9. One died, the other just left, using WW2 as a vehicle.
I am only just realizing, now that I'm a grandmother myself, just how wounded my nuclear family was.
I, too, saw through the operation that was Covid, almost immediately.
Like you, I am realizing that my childhood wasn't what I'd been led to believe. At. All. I had a bit part in a much larger drama
I feel adrift. My faith is weakened, and I am realizing the damage MY childhood has inflicted on my marriage and children.
Thank you for helping bring this into focus
I have a similar experience of my parents being unpresent for me, related to, probably on some level both of them losing their fathers at a young ages, and being traumatized by this loss, I believe. As a result, I share feelings of lifelong trauma with you, and not having a non-traumatic state to return to. I am still learning about my trauma, even at age 57. It's a lifelong experience, and I expect it will never end. Somehow though, I think my feelings of trauma help me escape the Branch Whatever-ian Matrix better than those who do not feel traumatized (or are not aware of) their childhood trauma. I just do not easily buy into any narrative, without a high degree of underlying skepticism. I believe this has served me well since 2020.
They say as advice "don't identify with your trauma! you are not your trauma!"
Which is true. That is just one big chunk of the biography, not of ourselves.
We change over time so all autobiographies are always ghostwritten, by definition of auto and ghost.
But we have constant reminders of trauma, even stimuli, sometimes they serve us lashinganda, or propaganda in the form of a lashing. Weird bullshit all the time!!!
I want to see what happens this 17th. The electoral college meetings. Will people definitely melt down? Will Hollywood actors form a new coven and ask the electors to vote for Hillary again? I think this weird ritual is necessary for the last remnants of resistance to fully surrender to reality, whatever reality happens to be.
I always anticipate something unexpected, for the kicks. Like a bunch of electors voting for someone no one has heard about, non-political. Like a Popstar or a political philosopher: Taylor Swift or Alexander Dugin, that's the real choice the people really wanted. That would be so hilarious. Neither would know what to do if they were given executive power! LOL!
Yes, I've felt the same way ... the world has been living under an oppressive miasma since 2020, nothing seems real. We've all been bludgeoned and traumatized in some way, and many can't even believe in joy or hope anymore. The fight is to reclaim our vitality and stay strong.
You nailed it, Celia. That first paragraph was an attention grabber for me. "Only the surface is normal. Beneath, there is something way off." Yup. I've spent 4 years wanting to turn around as everything carried on with the veneer or normality, and ask others, "Do you really not see what's happening here?" The veneer of normality itself sometimes adds to the madness.
Wrt the video: I do think that, historically, some benefit has come out of the community of counseling professionals as we knew it. But I think even that community has largely been carried along with the extant corruption. If I opened the DSM today, would I not find present blessings on all sorts of aberrance once recognized as such? I can't help thinking the counselors have incrementally joined in, wittingly or not, on the COVID abuse, the deception, and the subversion of the constitutional republic. What would we figure is the % vote for Trump-Vance-(RFK) last month? I'd guess less than 5% among mental health professionals. No, they probably voted en masse for these #(*&$#**# subversives. My respects to those who knew better.
Celia Farber, you are great. Please Do not have a blue blue Christmas.
In our frames the spirit of humanity is under assault by use of technological sophistication by the evil inclination. Terence McKenna 30 years before us drawing on Riane Eisler talks of dominator culture and the human being suggesting then it was possible to turn back from Domination and was the only choice to stop Dominator Culture. Humanity did not see the semi free rich populations of the free Western world organized around Peace and Ecology.
In the waiting room, waiting for this long funeral of the spirit to be over.
Yes...so apropos. Feels exactly like that.