Alice Through The Looking Glass And Alex Berenson's Refusal To Look

“Naturally I prefer somebody who feels but doesn’t write, to someone who writes but doesn’t feel.”

—Marina Tsvetaeva

I was (and am again) a paid subscriber to one of the many writers I greatly admire (a subject that will expand)—Margaret Anna, of “Alice Through The Looking Glass.”

My card was canceled, which caused the payments to stop, and just now, following my last post, she and I had a back and forth about swapping paid subscriptions. In the course of this, I asked her if she felt my interior and exterior dialogue about writing, money, gender and so forth was, resonant, appropriate—really I was asking permission to ‘go there.’

Her reply contained such an apt assessment of the Alex Berenson… Domination Syndrome that I excitedly asked her if I could publish it. She agreed. She said she has said as much publicly, in this piece.

One of the original ideas for the original (downed) The Truth Barrier, begun in 2009, was that expressions created when nobody is aware of publication have a certain aliveness to them that “writing” steadfastly dims. For this reason, I try to snatch word compositions, when appropriate, from their secret lairs.

I used to tell my son to ignore every last one of his teacher’s corrections to his very young prose.

(Another subject I will return to—the psy-op of “good writing.” aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggghhhhh.)

In any event, Margaret Anna strikes a vital chord here, third paragraph.

A match struck.

I for one, am jealous of Berenson for suing Twitter when I never could. For always winding up on top, when I never could.

What are his qualities?

(No, I am not seriously saying I covet those qualities.) Only that I am envious of what it must feel like to be somebody considered important enough to go get your teeth back from the Curia after they were knocked out.

Is this connected to being an Ivermectin trasher?

—CF

Wed, Aug 17 at 1:53 PM

Dear Celia,

That is so gracious of you, Celia. I deeply appreciate your support as I, too, am far from making this sustainable and yet am spending nearly every waking moment doing it.

I always enjoy reading your dialogues (interior and exterior :-) as it feels intimate, raw, and honest, and people connect with it on an emotional level.

I do find it inexplicable that people like Alex Berenson have tens of thousands of subscribers while you and I only have a few hundred, even as Alex repeatedly spits in their faces, doubles down on his unfounded/scientifically disproven beliefs, and shills for Pfizer on Paxlovid 😆

I know Jordan Peterson has addressed the phenomenon of men tending to make more than women, and he attributes it to the fact that women are generally more agreeable, whereas men are often more aggressive and get what they demand/ask for.

In my own career, I personally have never felt I was treated differently or compensated less because of my gender, but that could be because I felt confident in my unique set of skills and was comfortable asking for appropriate compensation accordingly.

As far as Substack goes, perhaps the Alexes are more successful because they simply ask more often than we do. I personally find his constant promotion of his book, legal fund, etc. off-putting, and many people have unsubbed from him for that and numerous other reasons. I would not be comfortable with such bombastic self-promotion, and I'm willing to endure fewer subscribers to avoid violating my conscience ;-)

Thanks again, Celia!

Margaret Anna

Margaret Anna Alice Through the Looking Glass