"my mother was the sanest one in the room, but off she went" yes. yes. yes. sanity under siege. how long has Kafkaesque been the default program? doctors. courts. cops. school administrators. all maintaining the pretense that maintaining the Matrix is in everyone's best interest.
Writers will persist:)) They don't need electricity.
"AI screws up big time. Bixonomania - a fake eye condition created by a doctor by uploading a fake medical research report on the web, waiting a month, and the top AI chat bots started producing related articles about it as if it was real. So here's proof - AI cannot discern correct or incorrect on anything. Do not outsource your critical thinking. And remember, the US HHS is incorporating AI into all allopathic, for-profit medical systems that are now the #1 leading cause of death in the USA."
I hope you know that though we all hail from disparate corners of the globe, with very different POV’s and ‘levels of understanding’, we love you and so appreciate you, how your mind works, and we (speaking for myself) are happy to chime in to assist you in unraveling it all. 💓🙏🏼
Thanks, Celia. Sweet. TTB is one of the few with comments worth reading. I experienced my own crisis not long after you spoke of yours, around mid-March, mainly due to the wanton slaughter of innocents in our name, and I stopped reading everything on line until quite recently. I simply couldn’t stand the horror. I turned to acupuncture, a most-remarkable treatment, and am mostly healed. Also reading scripture has helped. In the last post I read, you quoted from the book of John Jesus’ new commandment, “to love one another as I have loved you.” This led me to days and weeks of deep thinking about the meaning of these words, and led to the conclusion which I had already arrived at: that this is the essence of “the way, the truth, and the life,” and the reason the Messiah came to us. I left the church, and formal religion, decades ago, but this truth has guided me ever since Sunday School. If there is love in it, it is good; if not, it is evil The D.H. Lawrence quote, although very different in meaning, still resonated with me. So thank you for that. And your father was wicked funny, deliciously funny. Thanks for giving us a glimpse of him. I’m going to try humming. Thanks for that, too.
I wrote my first bestseller in a 3rd grade-school class that required all the kids to read their scribbles aloud, standing in front, to the rest of the class … & I discovered traumankind —which includes, because it so often starts with, kidkind too— stories can elicit hilarity laughter.
But I also think particular engines are pre-tuned for particular fuels that may not be in the tank.
I tend toward the proposition that what’s in the tank can’t be drained & so must be burned, however inefficiently as may be, & that tunings can’t be changed much, either … but that’s just experience’s product so far …
… Peter Levine, Robert Scaer, Polyvagal theorist Porges, somatic experiencing describes a lot, but doesn’t change —oh let’s keep going & call it the fuel/air (oxygen) mix— the engine or the fuel & so doesn’t improve the combustion-burning, either … didn’t for me, anyway.
(( The TRE stuff I looked at years ago & thought about the iron chairs exercises I used to do to strengthen quads & which resulted in the trembling that is likened to the “shaking it off” that prey animals who escape, temporarily, their fates are seen to do & that Levine wrote about.
I think this idea rests on false equivalence extrapolation.
I think that it is not controversial or provocative to point out that wo/man is not prey animal, but apex predator … (with inferiority complexes & other scrapes & bruises, etc. )
ApeX-men can blow up the planet, or destroy it more slowly, & still they are afraid, incapable of growing beyond their always weaponized tools, & so are surpassed by their tools which are thus, of course, used to destroy & inflict trauma.
Social predators in prides & packs do give each other hierarchical hell —Sapolsky has done lots of stress response study-work in baboons— but lions & tigers & bears —oh, my!— do not “tremble it off” post-altercations & neither, I think, do/can people. ))
But maybe oxygen’s the wrong gas … or a wrongly monotheistically idolized gas. Cue Mason Williams (& he was backed, in the studio album version, by The Wrecking Crew … oh, my):
Everyone's heard all their livelong day that oxygen’s the key you must search for & it’s the street lamp you must search for it under too … but maybe that message has merely been keyed into the side of each jalopy’s paint & the real, or better, key to ignition (no more pushbuttons!) & to better combustion, is another gas proportionally-entirely … that has been relegated to out there in the engineered Darkness (at Noon - Arthur Koestler, right?).
Maybe it’s C02 ... for a better you.
And if so, wouldn’t that just figure?
And Celia, there’s even a Land of Volvos connection. His name is Anders Olsson. His company is Conscious Breathing.
But Olsson came to my attention by way of James Nestor’s book Breath: The New Science of a Lost Art.
Details of an extended C02 breathing experiment Nestor & Olsson worked through together are in Breath. Details about C02 that I never knew respire throughout the book.
Reading Breath prompted me also to read Nestor’s book DEEP: Freediving, Renegade Science, and What The Ocean Tells Us about Ourselves, because it preceded & led to his writing Breath.
Your desire to map first had me thinking “not the territory.”
But you also made clear that embodiment —no more dissociation— is what is sought.
Embodiment … I agree. That’s the worthy effort.
Olsson’s in Stockholm. Maybe a solution, or part of it, to the more infamous Syndrome breathes, is trying to breathe, there, too.
***
This is my unhurried appreciation for you, your work, & humankinds’ shared —& bounded functionality— predicament.
As for time, most, but not all, of the clocks at my house are set to not-even-mythical-merely-delusional “daylight savings time” —because “the world wants to be deceived, so let it be deceived” ...
... but not so, not *all* the world wants deception & some of the clocks here are dialed to the sun … more Daedalus’ sun than Icarus’.
But …that it will continue to rain Icaruses is a given.
***
PS Concussion is out of the terms of subscription service upcharge cartel-category on Netflix now, i.e., it is “free” of extra charge atop the basic subscription.
I have begun watching it again, for the second time since it originally aired.
Besides the subsequent revelation of “concussed” Will Smith’s slap (of Chris Rock) heard round the world I think it is quite possible to see, realize, apprehend, embrace, & synthesize that every character/ization in the story is occupying niches in the hierarchy of trauma-rhymes-drama.
Anyway, it is a good story, based on true in this all too human world of violent deception.
"my mother was the sanest one in the room, but off she went" yes. yes. yes. sanity under siege. how long has Kafkaesque been the default program? doctors. courts. cops. school administrators. all maintaining the pretense that maintaining the Matrix is in everyone's best interest.
Writers will persist:)) They don't need electricity.
"AI screws up big time. Bixonomania - a fake eye condition created by a doctor by uploading a fake medical research report on the web, waiting a month, and the top AI chat bots started producing related articles about it as if it was real. So here's proof - AI cannot discern correct or incorrect on anything. Do not outsource your critical thinking. And remember, the US HHS is incorporating AI into all allopathic, for-profit medical systems that are now the #1 leading cause of death in the USA."
I hope you know that though we all hail from disparate corners of the globe, with very different POV’s and ‘levels of understanding’, we love you and so appreciate you, how your mind works, and we (speaking for myself) are happy to chime in to assist you in unraveling it all. 💓🙏🏼
Bendiciones y Abrazos
C
Part 2 of my 1991 interview with Peter Duesberg.
https://mikechappelle.substack.com/p/peter-duesberg-interview-part-2
Thanks, Celia. Sweet. TTB is one of the few with comments worth reading. I experienced my own crisis not long after you spoke of yours, around mid-March, mainly due to the wanton slaughter of innocents in our name, and I stopped reading everything on line until quite recently. I simply couldn’t stand the horror. I turned to acupuncture, a most-remarkable treatment, and am mostly healed. Also reading scripture has helped. In the last post I read, you quoted from the book of John Jesus’ new commandment, “to love one another as I have loved you.” This led me to days and weeks of deep thinking about the meaning of these words, and led to the conclusion which I had already arrived at: that this is the essence of “the way, the truth, and the life,” and the reason the Messiah came to us. I left the church, and formal religion, decades ago, but this truth has guided me ever since Sunday School. If there is love in it, it is good; if not, it is evil The D.H. Lawrence quote, although very different in meaning, still resonated with me. So thank you for that. And your father was wicked funny, deliciously funny. Thanks for giving us a glimpse of him. I’m going to try humming. Thanks for that, too.
So much truth
;-)
TTB??? Do you mean Thru The Bible; with J. Vernon McGee?
I wrote my first bestseller in a 3rd grade-school class that required all the kids to read their scribbles aloud, standing in front, to the rest of the class … & I discovered traumankind —which includes, because it so often starts with, kidkind too— stories can elicit hilarity laughter.
I wonder what you think of this bit of Heat?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJd4JquFJwc
***
I think most anything can be turned into fuel.
But I also think particular engines are pre-tuned for particular fuels that may not be in the tank.
I tend toward the proposition that what’s in the tank can’t be drained & so must be burned, however inefficiently as may be, & that tunings can’t be changed much, either … but that’s just experience’s product so far …
… Peter Levine, Robert Scaer, Polyvagal theorist Porges, somatic experiencing describes a lot, but doesn’t change —oh let’s keep going & call it the fuel/air (oxygen) mix— the engine or the fuel & so doesn’t improve the combustion-burning, either … didn’t for me, anyway.
(( The TRE stuff I looked at years ago & thought about the iron chairs exercises I used to do to strengthen quads & which resulted in the trembling that is likened to the “shaking it off” that prey animals who escape, temporarily, their fates are seen to do & that Levine wrote about.
I think this idea rests on false equivalence extrapolation.
I think that it is not controversial or provocative to point out that wo/man is not prey animal, but apex predator … (with inferiority complexes & other scrapes & bruises, etc. )
ApeX-men can blow up the planet, or destroy it more slowly, & still they are afraid, incapable of growing beyond their always weaponized tools, & so are surpassed by their tools which are thus, of course, used to destroy & inflict trauma.
Social predators in prides & packs do give each other hierarchical hell —Sapolsky has done lots of stress response study-work in baboons— but lions & tigers & bears —oh, my!— do not “tremble it off” post-altercations & neither, I think, do/can people. ))
But maybe oxygen’s the wrong gas … or a wrongly monotheistically idolized gas. Cue Mason Williams (& he was backed, in the studio album version, by The Wrecking Crew … oh, my):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3NE6X4IQNA4&list=RD3NE6X4IQNA4&start_radio=1
Everyone's heard all their livelong day that oxygen’s the key you must search for & it’s the street lamp you must search for it under too … but maybe that message has merely been keyed into the side of each jalopy’s paint & the real, or better, key to ignition (no more pushbuttons!) & to better combustion, is another gas proportionally-entirely … that has been relegated to out there in the engineered Darkness (at Noon - Arthur Koestler, right?).
Maybe it’s C02 ... for a better you.
And if so, wouldn’t that just figure?
And Celia, there’s even a Land of Volvos connection. His name is Anders Olsson. His company is Conscious Breathing.
https://www.consciousbreathing.com/
But Olsson came to my attention by way of James Nestor’s book Breath: The New Science of a Lost Art.
Details of an extended C02 breathing experiment Nestor & Olsson worked through together are in Breath. Details about C02 that I never knew respire throughout the book.
Reading Breath prompted me also to read Nestor’s book DEEP: Freediving, Renegade Science, and What The Ocean Tells Us about Ourselves, because it preceded & led to his writing Breath.
Your desire to map first had me thinking “not the territory.”
But you also made clear that embodiment —no more dissociation— is what is sought.
Embodiment … I agree. That’s the worthy effort.
Olsson’s in Stockholm. Maybe a solution, or part of it, to the more infamous Syndrome breathes, is trying to breathe, there, too.
***
This is my unhurried appreciation for you, your work, & humankinds’ shared —& bounded functionality— predicament.
As for time, most, but not all, of the clocks at my house are set to not-even-mythical-merely-delusional “daylight savings time” —because “the world wants to be deceived, so let it be deceived” ...
... but not so, not *all* the world wants deception & some of the clocks here are dialed to the sun … more Daedalus’ sun than Icarus’.
But …that it will continue to rain Icaruses is a given.
***
PS Concussion is out of the terms of subscription service upcharge cartel-category on Netflix now, i.e., it is “free” of extra charge atop the basic subscription.
I have begun watching it again, for the second time since it originally aired.
Besides the subsequent revelation of “concussed” Will Smith’s slap (of Chris Rock) heard round the world I think it is quite possible to see, realize, apprehend, embrace, & synthesize that every character/ization in the story is occupying niches in the hierarchy of trauma-rhymes-drama.
Anyway, it is a good story, based on true in this all too human world of violent deception.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Io6hPdC41RM
The Barry Farber quote resonates with me.
The bittersweet melancholy of life's vicissitudes..... Kinda springs to mind.
Amazing post as always, thank you Celia. 🙏