I'm still in a state of shock and pain my eldest son passed away 4 days ago. My heart grieves for all those who lost children and loved ones. Somehow we go forward for those we love who are alive with us.
Laurie, I am so so sorry. That is absolutely the worst pain imaginable. Four days ago? I wonder how you are managing, moment to moment.
I only hope and pray you have strong and comforting people around you at this time. My heart breaks for you. I will pray for you to be carried through this, and that there will be people around you to take care of you.
Thank you Celia. I'm quite numb today. I'm not accomplishing much more than the basics. Hugging. Y little dog Mia a lot. She was a gift from my son 3 years ago. I'm so grateful 🙏 I appreciate all you share in your writing. Someday I hope to write too.
My daughter had an 8 year old little Chihuahua named Angel (she truly was an angel) who I loved for 8 more years after my daughter passed. She followed me everywhere & slept on our bed. She had a heart attack of all days on the night of my daughter’s birthday & my husband still thinks to this day that Holly (our daughter) came back to get her little Angel that night because the room got really cold when Angel passed. Who knows…
Your little Mia sounds very special. I think God brings us the best fur babies to love when we are about to experience loss, even if we don’t see it at the time. My little Angel had ears as soft as velvet & when she sat in my lap she only liked to sit straight up on her hind legs so I would rub her little velvet ears. If I stopped she would reach her front paw up ever so slowly & gently & touch my face softly as if to tell me “please don’t stop rubbing my ears.” It was the cutest thing ever & she did it until the day she died, I still miss it. Animals are God’s greatest gift to us. ❤️🐾❤️
Laurie - remember this. The love you feel never dies. Every time you are touched by little Mia, it’s a gift curated by your dear son. Always turn to gratitude. It’s all we’ve got.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Having lost my only daughter at 37, I know firsthand the pain & grief you feel right now & nothing will take that away unfortunately but time. It never goes away but it does get a bit easier to bear. Everyone else moves on but you don’t feel like you do. Be good to yourself Laurie, don’t listen to people that tell you to move on when you’re not ready. Take all the time you need. My heart hurts for you. 💔
Thank you Celia, I lost my mom on my 30th birthday 2 days after I moved to New Mexico to be closer to them because they were in ill health. It was also very unexpected. I’m so sorry you lost your mom, you will always miss her. When your heart is ready you will process her death.
I'm so terribly sorry. There cannot be anything worse than the loss of a child. My sincere prayers and thoughts are with you. Sending you love and wishing you peace, somehow.
I awaken every day determined to not cave in. Despite all that is thrown at us, all the awful tragedy, personal aches and pains, I will seek out everything that nurtures my soul and shields me from the fresh horror. And I will do my best to expose what is happening to our country, our world, our friends and neighbors, and people everywhere.
Beside my beloved husband, I have a little dog, and I have sweet houseplants as well as flocks of birds who gather at our backyard feeders, to remind me that I need to move, and connect and do the next necessary thing, even if it is 'just' water the plants....
yeah, something feels palpably different. from the geoengineering warfare to the epstein blackmail coverup, it almost feels like we're being tested how much longer until the people revolt. https://gab.com/gigihereandnow/posts/114812504210803579
It's always been this way, from the ancient bloodline death cults ruling over us, but now the weapons are modern, and our communications are instant.
What if the enemy is more scared of us than vice-versa? What is the power of prayer in this?
The enemy is scared of us and this is how a desperate enemy responds. With death and destruction. After we have prayed for the victims, families, first responders, now we declare EXPOSURE! I got this prayer directive from A Watchman's Journal: Call forth the SWIFT UNCOVERING of those who PLOTTED this evil, those who PAID for this dark scheme, and those who IMPLEMENTED it. Declare that no one will be able to HIDE from My EXPOSURE of their wickedness. DECREE that no CORRUPT LAW ENFORCEMENT or CROOKED JUDGES will be able to STOP the COMPLETE EXPOSURE, JUDGMENT, and JUSTICE that The LORD has released against them. Amen
The benzene spray house mist is refractive, easily seen, w/ low-cost surveillance kit cams; chlorophenol mist, not knowing full effects while expecting it to stop,
I like to think of what it would take, commodity-wise, in order for them to foist a massive technofeudalistic world on us. For one, electricity and other power. Where are they going to get it? I haven't seen any evidence they got the means. Solar and wind aren't for shit, and most highly populated areas of the globe have blackouts. How are they going to monitor us 24/7 without enough tech?
I guess that's where the conditioning comes in.
And yeah they are def more scared of us than vise-versa. Because at any moment we could toss out our cell phones and laptops and say "enough is enough."
Prayer is very powerful. There's a great book The Power of Eight, by Lynne McTaggart. I had someone locally try to organize a group. Only three people were present, but we prayed one person's prayer, that her brother's home would sell in Australia. The woman texted me that it sold 2 days later. I was always sorry that we didn't continue. There are way more of us than them. See the thing done and feel it with all your heart, and it will be done.
Do you remember, if you are old enough, a group that organized a worldwide prayer time? They had some method for measuring a change in a global electromagnetic field or something. Maybe this should be resurrected to group pray for the conversion of those projecting evils upon us.
I do remember that. Yes, it should be resurrected. It's similar to the Power of Eight. McTaggart's groups had crime going down in major cities for which they targeted their prayers.
In Texas and I find it reprehensible not to ask questions about the now admitted weather modification programs given this timing. The gaslighting here on this topic has been going on for years. People have Nextdoor posts arguing about the daily chem trails, modification or natural explanation. It has been as hostile a topic and divided as the covid shots. Now that they are admitting it, will enough people get fed up to the point of demanding not only answers but accountability and change? They seem fearful, hence their over-the-top unjustified outrage so this is not the time to let them scamper away. I don’t see much anymore and somehow I still know what is going on without it ruining me. Best thing I did was stop watching news or looking at SM.
I pray for peace for those lost and their loved ones, I pray for a Righteous Accounting that I'll never understand in this lifetime, and I say the Serenity Prayer.
Distraction, feed the cat. You are already a semi stoic because you speak the truth, therefore, you are surrounded by negativity, because you decided to live by the truth, I’m grateful. Your post brought me to tears because of your earlier post, I’m a father of two daughters, nuff said.
I lived my entire life without a cellphone or any wireless device. My children (teen and young adult) are cellphone-free too and so are several of their friends. It is possible. We have a wired desktop computer. When things get too much we step away and are instantly in reality.
Psychological warfare through screens is more powerful than poisonous jabs and weather warfare. Every weapon has a limit before people wake up and revolt, except psychological warfare.
You and family are a rare breed. I can say that the phone still serves me instead of vice versa. Sometimes I go all day without, even weekends. But then there's the laptop so maybe that said separation only gets half credit.
No TV here; no time, no interest. That helps too. Admirable how you guys check yourselves and recognize when enough is enough.
I don't know that the psychological warfare is more powerful but I get your point. I'd say it's more insidious but if we maintain our awareness of its relentless presence and mindful how the games are played then I believe the jabs are much worse. And over the weather warfare we have no control.
Well, they've made sure we know that even though we know, they won't do anything about it, not even acknowledge it. If they do, they know they'll be attacked and made a pariah. I don't know why Marjorie Taylor Greene is bringing this stuff up, but I applaud her for it.
They want us to fall apart and become desensitized, and also demoralized. That's the plan. They've already put us in trauma bonding mode it would appear.
I do believe the only thing we CAN do is work on ourselves, protect ourselves and do the best we can for ourselves and of course our immediate family and community. There is a massive war on us and the only tool we have that I can see is quiet resistance.
Rafa is the best! Making sure everybody gets fed, now that is important in life, real life, where you are, the rest is up to God, always has been, always will be, Saludos, Grüß Gott.
Sometimes Celia we just go through the motions in a daze when traumatic events affect us. We go buy cat food, we go grocery shopping, we wash dishes, we lose track of time, etc.. When my daughter died I wouldn’t remember driving places or I would be in a grocery store with a full basket of groceries & see something my daughter liked & burst into tears, leave the cart where it was & drive home. As you know trauma (PTSD like you & my husband have) can really impact our mental health. Step away & take time for yourself. ❤️
Yes take care of the kitties…I too have been having some serious shifts in my psyche over the past couple of weeks…it’s been emotionally wrenching, to say the least. But through it all my Kitty Bubby T Cat has stood by me every night. As I’m going to sleep he comes and lies on my chest, wanting to be petted and purring loudly. Then as I turn to fall asleep, he nestles into my tummy or the curve of my back. And stays there the whole night with me. Then at dawn crawls up next to my head and meows to be let outside. 💓😽😻
I think you know that I’ve been a “cat person” for only a few years. That my cat Bubby showed up the day I brought my Cattle Dog Roxy’s ashes home. And I so believe she sent Bubby to me. This “cat business” is a totally different deal than having a dog. I grew up with cats (a male Siamese and a female Calico), so I have been around them. But I am so in sync with my cat this time around.
He drives me crazy…he’s an indoor outdoor cat, and is a BIG hunter. I’ve had to deal with a few bunny and bird carcasses he has left by the back door over the past two weeks. Yesterday he had a baby mouse in his mouth, I chased him down, got him to let the mouse go (it ran away), then put him on a “time out” inside the house. So the mouse might have a chance to run way and hide. An hour or so later I let him back outside.
He sniffed around but the mouse had thankfully split the scene!
And it was a little mouse…I barely could tell what it was in Bubby’s mouth! But I knew he had something, cause he always tries to sneak away if he see me, when he has some prey he has captured in his mouth.I have to yell at him to stop, he drops the thing then I grab him up! 😼😹
You must keep moving forward. To move is to live. Never forget the victims. But do not let the tragedy pull you down to a point to where you are catatonic. I watched my mother before she passed away go through episodes of being catatonic. It’s not anything you want to see in someone that you love so dearly. So please go buy your cat food and keep feeding the cats. Even if it feels like you’re just going through the motions. Once you pass through that stage of numbness, the flow of life will return and you will be ready to take on what’s necessary. May God bless you.
I'm still in a state of shock and pain my eldest son passed away 4 days ago. My heart grieves for all those who lost children and loved ones. Somehow we go forward for those we love who are alive with us.
Laurie, I am so so sorry. That is absolutely the worst pain imaginable. Four days ago? I wonder how you are managing, moment to moment.
I only hope and pray you have strong and comforting people around you at this time. My heart breaks for you. I will pray for you to be carried through this, and that there will be people around you to take care of you.
Thank you Celia. I'm quite numb today. I'm not accomplishing much more than the basics. Hugging. Y little dog Mia a lot. She was a gift from my son 3 years ago. I'm so grateful 🙏 I appreciate all you share in your writing. Someday I hope to write too.
My daughter had an 8 year old little Chihuahua named Angel (she truly was an angel) who I loved for 8 more years after my daughter passed. She followed me everywhere & slept on our bed. She had a heart attack of all days on the night of my daughter’s birthday & my husband still thinks to this day that Holly (our daughter) came back to get her little Angel that night because the room got really cold when Angel passed. Who knows…
Thank you for sharing! My little Mia is like Angel, she's always by my side. Her cuddles are the best.
Your little Mia sounds very special. I think God brings us the best fur babies to love when we are about to experience loss, even if we don’t see it at the time. My little Angel had ears as soft as velvet & when she sat in my lap she only liked to sit straight up on her hind legs so I would rub her little velvet ears. If I stopped she would reach her front paw up ever so slowly & gently & touch my face softly as if to tell me “please don’t stop rubbing my ears.” It was the cutest thing ever & she did it until the day she died, I still miss it. Animals are God’s greatest gift to us. ❤️🐾❤️
Awe Angel sounds so adorable 💓
Mia has many sweet things she does and she can be very funny too. I'm grateful she makes me laugh with her pure little silliest.
Laurie - remember this. The love you feel never dies. Every time you are touched by little Mia, it’s a gift curated by your dear son. Always turn to gratitude. It’s all we’ve got.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Having lost my only daughter at 37, I know firsthand the pain & grief you feel right now & nothing will take that away unfortunately but time. It never goes away but it does get a bit easier to bear. Everyone else moves on but you don’t feel like you do. Be good to yourself Laurie, don’t listen to people that tell you to move on when you’re not ready. Take all the time you need. My heart hurts for you. 💔
MDickie I am so very sorry. You've gone through the hardest thing there is. I commend you for your strength.
I learned about grief when my mother died very unexpectedly in 1999. I still have not processed it.
Thank you Celia, I lost my mom on my 30th birthday 2 days after I moved to New Mexico to be closer to them because they were in ill health. It was also very unexpected. I’m so sorry you lost your mom, you will always miss her. When your heart is ready you will process her death.
Thank you
I'm sorry for your loss too.
Thank you.
I'm praying for you both to have comfort for your hearts during this very tender time of grieving.
Thank you for your kind words.
Love & prayers💗🙏
Thank you for your kind words.
We hold you in our hearts Laurie and MDickie
Thank you for your kindness.
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Sorry.
I’m so sorry, Laurie. Sending you so much love.
I'm so terribly sorry. There cannot be anything worse than the loss of a child. My sincere prayers and thoughts are with you. Sending you love and wishing you peace, somehow.
I am so sorry for your loss. You can never completely heal from the loss, but you can be resilient. May God give you His strength and peace.
Thank you Jeff. He is my help and is holding my ❤️ together.
I awaken every day determined to not cave in. Despite all that is thrown at us, all the awful tragedy, personal aches and pains, I will seek out everything that nurtures my soul and shields me from the fresh horror. And I will do my best to expose what is happening to our country, our world, our friends and neighbors, and people everywhere.
Beside my beloved husband, I have a little dog, and I have sweet houseplants as well as flocks of birds who gather at our backyard feeders, to remind me that I need to move, and connect and do the next necessary thing, even if it is 'just' water the plants....
Love that…self care that is SOOO necessary these days. 🥰
yeah, something feels palpably different. from the geoengineering warfare to the epstein blackmail coverup, it almost feels like we're being tested how much longer until the people revolt. https://gab.com/gigihereandnow/posts/114812504210803579
It's always been this way, from the ancient bloodline death cults ruling over us, but now the weapons are modern, and our communications are instant.
What if the enemy is more scared of us than vice-versa? What is the power of prayer in this?
The enemy is scared of us and this is how a desperate enemy responds. With death and destruction. After we have prayed for the victims, families, first responders, now we declare EXPOSURE! I got this prayer directive from A Watchman's Journal: Call forth the SWIFT UNCOVERING of those who PLOTTED this evil, those who PAID for this dark scheme, and those who IMPLEMENTED it. Declare that no one will be able to HIDE from My EXPOSURE of their wickedness. DECREE that no CORRUPT LAW ENFORCEMENT or CROOKED JUDGES will be able to STOP the COMPLETE EXPOSURE, JUDGMENT, and JUSTICE that The LORD has released against them. Amen
What a great prayer, thank you for sharing..
We've gotta come up with more than just exposure!
The benzene spray house mist is refractive, easily seen, w/ low-cost surveillance kit cams; chlorophenol mist, not knowing full effects while expecting it to stop,
I like to think of what it would take, commodity-wise, in order for them to foist a massive technofeudalistic world on us. For one, electricity and other power. Where are they going to get it? I haven't seen any evidence they got the means. Solar and wind aren't for shit, and most highly populated areas of the globe have blackouts. How are they going to monitor us 24/7 without enough tech?
I guess that's where the conditioning comes in.
And yeah they are def more scared of us than vise-versa. Because at any moment we could toss out our cell phones and laptops and say "enough is enough."
The power of prayer is always equal to the gratitude you express for the answer, as you are praying for it.
Absolutely. You must believe with all your heart that it is done and feel that feeling. Gratitude is one of the best heart opener feelings.
Many people will say that affirmations didn't work for them, but they left the feeling out of the equation. Feeling and belief are key.
Prayer is very powerful. There's a great book The Power of Eight, by Lynne McTaggart. I had someone locally try to organize a group. Only three people were present, but we prayed one person's prayer, that her brother's home would sell in Australia. The woman texted me that it sold 2 days later. I was always sorry that we didn't continue. There are way more of us than them. See the thing done and feel it with all your heart, and it will be done.
Do you remember, if you are old enough, a group that organized a worldwide prayer time? They had some method for measuring a change in a global electromagnetic field or something. Maybe this should be resurrected to group pray for the conversion of those projecting evils upon us.
I do remember that. Yes, it should be resurrected. It's similar to the Power of Eight. McTaggart's groups had crime going down in major cities for which they targeted their prayers.
ye though i walk through the valley of death i shall fear no evil for thou art with me.
Rafa is so cute, that photo brought a great laugh. Thanks for sharing Celia.
In Texas and I find it reprehensible not to ask questions about the now admitted weather modification programs given this timing. The gaslighting here on this topic has been going on for years. People have Nextdoor posts arguing about the daily chem trails, modification or natural explanation. It has been as hostile a topic and divided as the covid shots. Now that they are admitting it, will enough people get fed up to the point of demanding not only answers but accountability and change? They seem fearful, hence their over-the-top unjustified outrage so this is not the time to let them scamper away. I don’t see much anymore and somehow I still know what is going on without it ruining me. Best thing I did was stop watching news or looking at SM.
I pray for peace for those lost and their loved ones, I pray for a Righteous Accounting that I'll never understand in this lifetime, and I say the Serenity Prayer.
Our furry friends keep us grounded and sober, companions from God.
So very true. 🐾
Distraction, feed the cat. You are already a semi stoic because you speak the truth, therefore, you are surrounded by negativity, because you decided to live by the truth, I’m grateful. Your post brought me to tears because of your earlier post, I’m a father of two daughters, nuff said.
I take a break from the internet and the paralysis disappears.
Try gardening (without yur cellphone :- ). Is that even possible?
I lived my entire life without a cellphone or any wireless device. My children (teen and young adult) are cellphone-free too and so are several of their friends. It is possible. We have a wired desktop computer. When things get too much we step away and are instantly in reality.
Psychological warfare through screens is more powerful than poisonous jabs and weather warfare. Every weapon has a limit before people wake up and revolt, except psychological warfare.
You and family are a rare breed. I can say that the phone still serves me instead of vice versa. Sometimes I go all day without, even weekends. But then there's the laptop so maybe that said separation only gets half credit.
No TV here; no time, no interest. That helps too. Admirable how you guys check yourselves and recognize when enough is enough.
I don't know that the psychological warfare is more powerful but I get your point. I'd say it's more insidious but if we maintain our awareness of its relentless presence and mindful how the games are played then I believe the jabs are much worse. And over the weather warfare we have no control.
Take a bow for holding back the tide.
Well, they've made sure we know that even though we know, they won't do anything about it, not even acknowledge it. If they do, they know they'll be attacked and made a pariah. I don't know why Marjorie Taylor Greene is bringing this stuff up, but I applaud her for it.
They want us to fall apart and become desensitized, and also demoralized. That's the plan. They've already put us in trauma bonding mode it would appear.
I do believe the only thing we CAN do is work on ourselves, protect ourselves and do the best we can for ourselves and of course our immediate family and community. There is a massive war on us and the only tool we have that I can see is quiet resistance.
Rafa is the best! Making sure everybody gets fed, now that is important in life, real life, where you are, the rest is up to God, always has been, always will be, Saludos, Grüß Gott.
Sometimes Celia we just go through the motions in a daze when traumatic events affect us. We go buy cat food, we go grocery shopping, we wash dishes, we lose track of time, etc.. When my daughter died I wouldn’t remember driving places or I would be in a grocery store with a full basket of groceries & see something my daughter liked & burst into tears, leave the cart where it was & drive home. As you know trauma (PTSD like you & my husband have) can really impact our mental health. Step away & take time for yourself. ❤️
Yes take care of the kitties…I too have been having some serious shifts in my psyche over the past couple of weeks…it’s been emotionally wrenching, to say the least. But through it all my Kitty Bubby T Cat has stood by me every night. As I’m going to sleep he comes and lies on my chest, wanting to be petted and purring loudly. Then as I turn to fall asleep, he nestles into my tummy or the curve of my back. And stays there the whole night with me. Then at dawn crawls up next to my head and meows to be let outside. 💓😽😻
I was so genuinely afraid they were going to take our pets away, about 2 years ago. I know they want to. I love hearing about people's cats.
I think you know that I’ve been a “cat person” for only a few years. That my cat Bubby showed up the day I brought my Cattle Dog Roxy’s ashes home. And I so believe she sent Bubby to me. This “cat business” is a totally different deal than having a dog. I grew up with cats (a male Siamese and a female Calico), so I have been around them. But I am so in sync with my cat this time around.
He drives me crazy…he’s an indoor outdoor cat, and is a BIG hunter. I’ve had to deal with a few bunny and bird carcasses he has left by the back door over the past two weeks. Yesterday he had a baby mouse in his mouth, I chased him down, got him to let the mouse go (it ran away), then put him on a “time out” inside the house. So the mouse might have a chance to run way and hide. An hour or so later I let him back outside.
He sniffed around but the mouse had thankfully split the scene!
oh yay I'm so glad the mouse survived. Lewis once left a mouse tail only on the floor.
And it was a little mouse…I barely could tell what it was in Bubby’s mouth! But I knew he had something, cause he always tries to sneak away if he see me, when he has some prey he has captured in his mouth.I have to yell at him to stop, he drops the thing then I grab him up! 😼😹
I have heard something about taking our pets away recently but I can’t remember it. If you heard it then it’s still part of the plan.
Over my dead body will they take mine. 😡
You must keep moving forward. To move is to live. Never forget the victims. But do not let the tragedy pull you down to a point to where you are catatonic. I watched my mother before she passed away go through episodes of being catatonic. It’s not anything you want to see in someone that you love so dearly. So please go buy your cat food and keep feeding the cats. Even if it feels like you’re just going through the motions. Once you pass through that stage of numbness, the flow of life will return and you will be ready to take on what’s necessary. May God bless you.
I’ve just been in bed all day feeling very sad that people aren’t asking more questions and beginning to open up to the truth of Geo engineering.