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I was Benjamin’s mom, the only mom he knew from age 2-32. Benjamin’s bio mom was completely checked out and gone. And then he refused to listen to us. The only intact loving family he knew. A mom , dad and 2 siblings living and loving one another. He wasn’t in a cult before the Covid scam. They killed him. We did everything we could to save him, but in the end he took the shot that killed him. It’s like living a daily nightmare when I have known since Aids what is going on. He wouldn’t even believe his younger siblings who were only 18-20 at the time. They begged him, we begged him not to inject any of these things. It’s all so much, but I’m not going to stop talking about this stuff and more.

Thank you Celia, Pamela ❤️

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Pamela. I am so amazed to see you here, thank you for sharing your story with us. Are you in touch with Children's Health Defense at all?

Polly Tommey, Mary Holland, or Robert F. Kennedy Jr? May I forward your words to them? I too would like to ask if I could interview you. I don't have a podcast but I would start one, to speak with you. I'm speechless over what you have been through and very moved by your courage in the face of such a shattering loss. Please tell me, and us, what we can do to support you.

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Celia, Alex Berenson called me 3 days after Ben died . He saw my post on Facebook about what happened. He wanted me to go on the record with him, Del called me and wanted my husband and I to go on the show. I’ve known del for awhile. We were in so much grief that we decided to stay with independent doctors and different groups because we didn’t know who/what/where the medical freedom groups were going.

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I understand. Everything becomes "content" but it's actually tragedy. I would like to help you expose those guilty of abusing you after you lost Ben, if I can, and if you think I can be of help. It's part of this whole thing. The abuse is like the dark hidden secret even beyond the murder. It gets even worse, for parents like you. Because your child didn't die the way they needed to to be "angels" etc. Like the Sandy Hook kids. It's blood boiling how far this has gone. How much as "Sandy Hook Promise" raised since 2012? Have they stopped a single school shooting?

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My husband and I do want to expose this now. More people are speaking out and waking up, so it’s time. We trust people who believe in terrain theory and know about Aids and even stuff before then the most. I trust you Celia. We just didn’t want to go on a show for a “ segment “ because we want to expose the inside of the entertainment industry

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If writing it would work, I invite you warmly to write it for me, (us) here, to publish. I would ask for no editing of any kind.

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YES. "We want to expose the inside of the entertainment industry." I suggest you start recording spontaneous spoken word memories, with no host or anybody guiding it. Just document it all raw from your own memories. Get it out. It does not need to be polished and shouldn't be. What is the matter with them? I think they are essentially somehow Luciferians but I still can't quite work it out.

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Which is very dangerous but must be done.

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I’ve done a few podcasts mainly with HFFH and with my friend Clifton Duncan

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Pamela, you’re not alone in the sheer agony, frustration, and devastation of having tried (and sadly failed) to convince a loved one not to take the clot shot injection. Your son will be remembered and we will never give up on proving the intentional killings and harms done by our “leaders and experts” via medical tyranny. I’m so sorry for you and Benjamin.

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I will never forget the devastatingly tragic story of your son which you told so beautifully on the Health Freedom for Humanity podcast. I've been haunted by how you said that the doctors told you his heart exploded like it was attacked with a weapon of war...and how horribly your family was treated after the ordeal. You remain in my thoughts and have my deepest condolences.

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We recorded the conversation with the pathologist. His exact words were “ Benjamin’s heart was so inflamed and it looked like a bullet had shredded the fibers of his heart “

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God Bless You, Pamela. And my condolences for your loss 🙏

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It would hard for any mother or family member to go up against the likes of Stephen Colbert or the crew at SNL. There will be a special layer of hell for such people, who aid and abet genocide under a cloak of coolness, comedy, and virtue signalling.

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My husband Jeff, Benjamin’s father, worked at NBC SNL for 25 years. My husband and I raised Ben in the theatrical world. Benjamin also worked with my husband on Wicked at the Gershwin theater for 4 years. 6 months after ben died my husband was fired and they wouldn’t even let him into the theater to clean out his and Benjamin’s locker. They threw everything into a plastic bag and put on the curb at the stage door. NBC put all of Benjamin’s tools on the loading dock and wouldn’t let my husband in the building

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What?? Was this because you were both open and clear about what killed Benjamin? Have you documented everything? Might you file a lawsuit? For TRAUMA, like they did to Alex Jones? I am outraged. But not surprised. These people are the lowest of the low.

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I’m realizing now that we could sue for trauma like AJ did. But we would need help and guidance.

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It’s also bizarre because we have a death certificate that states the shot killed him. Along with all the tox and detailed reports. Apparently , Leslie said there’s very few death certificates in the USA. But yet that wasn’t enough

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Yes I saw that. Maybe you should sue NBC for discrimination and trauma/abuse following death of child. I'm so angry. I can't imagine how you can stand it. Are all parents abused like this? I think the answer is yes.

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Leslie Manookian and I are friends and she explained to Jeff and I that no one would take our case because they were focusing on Phizer and because Benjamin had a successful heart surgery ( valve ) in 2016. We sent all of Benjamin’s medical records and detailed everything to her team and after 5 months they said they couldn’t help us. We don’t know who to sue or how.

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All because he wouldn't poison himself with what killed his son. Disgusting beyond words..

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Is Aaron Siri an option, or Harmeet Dillon?

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Pamela - My heart goes out to you and to all who are part of Benjamin’s world. I lost a dear friend to CJD last year, a prion disease that several doctors I’ve spoken with are totally certain came from a double dose of Pfizer poison. I approached his family and other friends who all either ignored me or attacked me for being so insensitive. This is how they get away with murder in the 21st Century.

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I’m so very sorry. The loss of your son was truly heartbreaking for us to just read about, so I can’t even fathom the pain you’ve experienced. Heartfelt condolences and prayers for you and your family. ❤️🙏🏻

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A traditional mainstream pathologist looked at everything and told the truth. I have been sharing this on Twitter and Facebook, the actual death certificate since September 2021. I spoke out the day after he died because I needed to warn people. I feel like I’m screaming into a void

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I'm so very sorry, Ms. Goodman. I only pray that time (and love) will help you recover from this tragedy. Know that we here believe you and understand.

Stephen Colbert has helped spread a lot of darkness in this world.

God bless.

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Your words are most definitely NOT in vain Pamela. I visit RealNNotRare.com frequently where those harmed by the shot convey their stories. Every time we put it out there, people oftentimes quietly see it and it touches their hearts. That’s the best we can do. For the ones who refuse to look, their burden is something out of our control. Their minds are imprisoned; their hearts locked out. But we are now moving in a new direction where love and kindness reign. I’d like to invite to join this wonderful Clubhouse group that was created for us to come together and learn from each other. We meet every Wed and Thursday https://www.clubhouse.com/club/covid-special-events?utm_medium=ch_club&utm_campaign=JaLfCzZHmJAJXtdCzjVYTw-413432

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Hi Jeff. Thank you. I just joined. I’ll need to find the specific groups because I’m not familiar with club house.

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You’ll need to install the App for Clubhouse on your phone (IPhone or Android). Once you’ve done that just hit the above link again or search the app for Covid Special Events. You can let me know if you are set up and want to attend the Thursday call and I’ll notify the moderators to help you learn how Clubhouse works. It takes a few minutes to figure it out. It’s a live audio only meeting place where a lot of good things happen.

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BTW I live in NJ not too far from the city

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As I sit here typing and crying for you and all those who are screaming I can promise you I will NEVER shut up or stop listening. My deepest, deepest condolences to you and your beautiful family. You did the best you could. God Bless ❤️

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There were many inconsistencies about Sandy Hook. Not sure about the trial, but there are lots of False Flags, like 9/11. We should be able to ask questions and not sued for billions of dollars.

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Robby (laughing man) Parker anyone??

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I'll see your Parker and raise you a Gene Rosen!!

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I fold.

Don't listen to this after food:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCkvFV2_7GQ (Gene Rosen song!)

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omg

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Very deep programming, eh?

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Many inconsistencies? Understatement of the century! How about plain old impossibilities.

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Lots of info on uncensored.tube.

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I knew, while I was standing in the emergency room at mount Sinai on 59 th street that the shot had killed him. Benjamin sent us a screenshot with his card and lot number at 4 pm on 03/13/21. He said he had a terrible headache. We were calling and calling him to go to the ER and he refused. He said it was normal. I was screaming into the phone that it wasn’t. He suffered horribly. It wasn’t like he just went to bed and didn’t wake up. We were on the phone with 911 while they were doing CPR in his apt and we were on the road into the city. The doctors didn’t even know what VAERS was. We had to beg for the autopsy and the results for 6 months.

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Ms Goodman, I'm so sorry for the loss of Benjamin. Words really don't help now, but he will be remembered.

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I am willing to be subjected to the most foul speech imaginable, if that is the price of freedom and liberty. I am absolutely unwilling to allow the government, whether it be through legislation, the courts, or whatever mechanism, to impinge on the free exercise of speech. This kangaroo court ruling is nothing, but a firm warning against unapproved speech. FWIW, I am sympathetic to parents of a murdered child, but I will never support their attempts to silence anyone...Period!

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Absolutely agree,

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It’s not in vain… I promise you, it’s not in vain.

You’re not screaming into the void…

You’re screaming into the ears of millions of pissed off people around the fucking planet, and we hear you, loud and clear.

It will never be in vain.

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Swimmin' in this land'o lakes an' sham trials where folks can't defend themselves (Jones wasn't allowed to even speak up on his own behalf at this dog n' pony show...) the one eyed man is king, so this man of good intentions (given numerous limitations on his field of vision, including those blinders set up by our own shadow got shafted big time (yup, made an example of him). If ya ask me, he had to walk it back (apology-wise) as for many of us-curious folks Sandy Hook has more fishy goin' on than Dead Horse Bay! (pee-eu!). M.I.A. was spot-on, phooey to the naysayers. Is all the carrion peckin' at Twitter real or AI? Horrible. Shameful really...

Ms Goodman, such a sad story and I'm so sorry for your profound loss. Of all the bribed celebrity shills, Mr. Colbert seems to have been one of the very meanest in directing hose-fuls of full-strength non-stop bile at those of us who resisted the jabs---at least from all I've seen goin' by the content of clips I saw. The pressure was horrible--we have a family friend father-of-3 that lost a 30+ year job here on another network tv show for refusing the jab--they made no exceptions, nobody was "grandfathered." Sad to see the horrific comments you got--too many folks have just lost their humanity. You are brave to speak out! Blessings to ya!

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🙏🏻 nothing anyone says on Twitter offends me. In fact nothing ever really offended me during my career as a film,tv, Bway, Rockette, circus performer, nothing except cruel human injustice. I was always speaking out against Bway dancers, ( I’m now retired but still dancing) anyone who was discriminating against people during my career. I was considered the rebel who always stood up for others.

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Good on ya and glad you can get past the meanies and stand up to 'em! Yup, it wasn't just folks workin' in production, I know what they did to the dancers was dee-spicable. We saw Heather Berman speak at the rallies (the other former Rockettes we know retired way back--we are big fans of the Rockettes!); my own daughter has been banned from dancin' for the last 3 years from her studios (includin' Steps, Bway Dance) all had absurd jab n' mask mandates--I'm nearly sure Steps still has 'em, B'way quietly lifted them over the summer but we didn't notice 'til mid August. It was all bunk as you know. But to me the upsetting part is the idea they allowed no choice, "comply or bye bye"...and many of us have been sorely affected--and you've had a deep loss in your own family because of it.

Anyway, you likely experienced all this and much more so again, it's good you were not silenced. I'm frankly ashamed at how horribly many fellow theater folks treated us the unjabbed--something that prompted me to start "substackin' in fact, another story.

In any event, sendin' condolences to you and your family and props for your courage.

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Saw both those situations today. Really need to get the hell off twitt. Time to stream some M.I.A. Thanks for the recap.

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Alex fell for the bait. I think there is a unit who's job it is to dscredit "conspiracy theorists". They respond rapidly when a crisis or major event like Sandy Hook happens. They throw out all kinds of crazy stuff like crisis acters and assorted false info. Some who don't trust the government are gullable and believe the lies. A few weeks to a month later MSM debunks the stuff and paints wirh a broad brush, lumping everything from questioning the official Sept 11 story and questioning the JFK thing in with the debunked Sandy crisis acters etc.

It's effective.

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I think Alex did fall under the influence of people like Steve Pieczenik and some other discredited "sources," but it was only for a short period of time, and and in many cases Alex said this "looks like" a staged event. But he did correct himself very quickly.

As a journalist, I have a lot of tolerance for mistakes made in the initial stages of a breaking story, as long as they are corrected. (which Alex did an NONE of these parents ever contacted him for an interview)

But what I seriously despise is the lying mainstream media that NEVER admits their outrageous lies, that cost the lives of millions of people. and create things like wars, illnesses, and a slew of other misguided reactions. The entire Covid scam is one of these, complete with toxic and fatal jabs. But look at the LONG LIST of things that are covered up and progressed on massive scale sizes of Public endangerment. JFK, MLK, RFK, Vietnam, The Federal Reserve, OKC, 911, HIV, H1N1, Las Vegas, WMDs. the Biden/Hillary/Obama acts of treason, W. Bush /Cheney etc.

It is just utter hypocrisy to try and make a "moral cause" out of one talk show host and his questions about a major event.

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You should do some more research into SH. Look into Jim Fetzer's work. And there are docs on Bitchute.

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I know. Thank you.

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There are (to my best of what I remember) still questions about many things concerning SH. In the long run, I think some of these questions will continue to emerge. I remember seeing the helicopter footage of a chase going on up in the woods, and later witnesses said a man wearing camo outfit fitting the description was seen appearing to be handcuffed in the back of one of the police cars. Who was this?

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And more info about "inconsistencies" are on uncensored.tube. There's one titled "Who did Sandy Hook?" And "The Un-dead of Sandy Hook".

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Yes, there's that, but that seemed to be a red herring.

Go to Bitchute and watch "We Need To Talk About Sandy Hook." (No link since I want it to remain) The whole "event" is riddled with "these questions."

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I agree. MSM is part of the vast criminal enterprise.

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When will people do historical research and find out that anytime you inject anything into your body, you’re on a highway to hell.

Never in the history of mankind has injecting poisons into your body gave you better health.

Quite the opposite. They’ve maimed and killed. Read and learn:

The Poisoned Needle: Suppressed Facts About Vaccinations https://a.co/d/cfvx9Q6

Dissolving Illusions: Disease, Vaccines, and The Forgotten History https://a.co/d/coVuit4

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I first discovered M.I.A. thru this interview with her at an Oxford Union interview event on youtube

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZHxzKwwgaY

I was impressed with her thoughtfulness and intelligence, and rather flummoxed that I had overlooked such an important talent until then. The more I learned about her and listened to her music, the more I appreciated her.

I thought she had "gone underground" permanently, but then the tweet in question suddenly popped up on my twitter timeline last night.

Well, so anyway, I guess I just wanted to say that 1) I'm happy she's still in the mix, and 2) thank you for bringing her to your readers' attention.

Check out the interview if you have time. "Borders" is a great song and message. Sadly, there are very few artists left with the courage to take a stand nowadays. We need more M.I.A.s in the world.

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In the fairly recent past (less than 500 years), we used to think with our astral or more divinely-linked of our multi-layered bodies. We wouldn't dare "think" outside of this grounded connection. We have evolved into more intellectual, which manifests in thinking more independently. Now we think with the physical (or etheric), ego-body. We have grown up. But the wisest know that this way of thinking depends on a continual interface with the Real––Spirit. We think without this incorruptible connection at our peril.

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Grown UP? Or rather--been Ground DOWN?

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Standing on our own two feet? Freedom, basically, versus living through intermediaries (including the way we think). But man do we need more practice...

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Most have not even begun, brother.

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Messsge to truthers:

If you don’t lie, we will make you cry.

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I’m sure suing Alex Jones for one billion dollars is going to stop individuals from harassing them. Lol.

Going from poor victims to evil enemies in the blink of a lawsuit, is all this court case is going to do in the eyes of Alex Jones fans.

I’m not an Alex James fan, I just know him as the guy who was actually somehow right about an island in the ocean where global pedos operated freely. I actually used to make fun of him for saying that.

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I guess the same clueless people twitting were also on Jones’s jury. We have juries precisely to prevent judicial excesses, but that only works if people can still think for themselves. Without this capacity you might as well have a panel of corrupt judges instead of jury.

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Celia- Thank you for reaching out to Ms Goodman in this manner. These stories must be told as many times as it takes to wake people up. I know of a dad on another substack who is trying to get the word out about his son who died 7 days after his jab. The first death cert listed the cv vax as cause of death, then was "corrected". The family wanted an autopsy, but they "accidently" cremated the body before one was done. It's just atrocious how this family has been treated by the "authorities". May I invite him to contact you?

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Yes! Thank you.

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She’s not wrong.

Biden’s HHS and CDC Paid Screen Writers and Comedians To Mock the Unvaccinated

“The Department of Health and Human Services (HHS) and the Centers For Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) have been exposed running the most disturbing and elaborate propaganda campaign in living memory. Screen writers, comedians, influencers and church leaders, among others, were recruited and paid to promote Covid-19 vaccines to the masses, while ridiculing and shaming those who refuse the jab.”

https://newspunch.com/bidens-hhs-and-cdc-paid-screen-writers-and-comedians-to-mock-the-unvaccinated/

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It’s all true. I watched it in real time. My daughter is/was a film/tv actress. She refused to go along with the game. Her agents can’t fire her, but she also cannot be submitted for anything. But yet the unions want her to pay dues in November. Thankfully she started farming full time. 2 weeks to slow the spread and she was like no freaking way.

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Sean Penn has a tremendous amount to answer for.

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I remember readinging about the CDC hiring a PR company to recruit celebs to push their agenda, about covid and the vax. When trying to find that link, I discovered that this seems to be a common theme, as I found another article dating from 2016.

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