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A.M.'s avatar

I love the quote from Matthew. Also, love your clarifying remarks about the ironic gift of Covid. Although, just this morning I made comments on HB 1531 in WA state which just passed to the Senate, allowing for even more sweeping mandates and lockdowns in our state. I wrote a comment--not the best comment either--but this: "The State does not have the right to make my healthcare decisions. They do not have the authority to determine whether or not I can leave my house. I am not a prisoner, I am not a disease vector, I do not grant you the authority over my health, my body, my livelihood and my psychological well being. You may advise, you may not mandate. We are autonomous adults, we are not yours to do with as you please. You have no jurisdiction over my personal decisions. Stop. This is a step too far."

The daily assault still feels eminent in my state. Just last week I had to do battle with the board I sit on--because I disagree with them and they are wrong. I spent an hour feeling like I was literally being slapped. I received anger, disdain, mortification and a lecture from a 20-year-old. Nevertheless I remained calm, and I prevailed because by yes is a yes and my no is a no.

I consider that I live a quiet life. I can only imagine the battles that others endure who are far more in the mix than I.

God Bless. I am truly pleased for your breakthrough.

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Michael Framson's avatar

A.M., Thank you. Your words express you are somebody, and the state should leave your body to you.

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Jake Beale's avatar

What a great comment this is. It made me feel peaceful just to read it. Nice job, don't lose your principles - that's what they're really after.

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JJ's avatar

I think that your comment is great! My family lives in Washington state. They really do not think for themselves. And fall into ALL the false narratives.

For myself. I am loyal to the truth! And contrary to popular belief one cannot have their “own truth”! Truth is not subjective! But you know that because you are a critical thinker.

Thank you for standing up. It is very exhausting at times because we should not have to defend common sense like this.

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I am not your Other's avatar

I know a few 20 somethings like that.

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Laurie's avatar

Thank you for sharing this is an incredibly written explanation of my life too.

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Desert Jewel's avatar

Hi - I'm new here. I would like to say "tactical survival" is what we all practice to heal from our various star-studded families. "Nothing is all that serious, and we betray ourselves when we play roles" could be the summary of every human life. Provided I remember to engage with kindness, at a certain age, authenticity is just SO much more satisfying and fun. And sometimes I have learned to just smile while the silence (of non-agreement) lies there like a big grey turbulent ocean. So much space between us, and yet, we stand side by side. Your words resonate. Thank you!

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nymusicdaily's avatar

https://meredithmiller.substack.com/p/as-above-so-below

people are processing the trauma of post 2020 the same way they process childhood trauma

the plandemic was modeled on dynamics of child abuse

and this last eclipse was intense, i got up and watched it and slept as long as you did Celia

like adrienne elise always says, we have to stop carrying other peoples' karma for them

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The Real Mary Rose's avatar

Great point! This rings a bell with me!

No wonder I've felt like I've been regressing for 5 years. The MKULtra tactics are indeed mostly infantilizing mixed with the kinds of punishments administered by narcissists and sociopaths.

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Very close, it was modeled on Biderman’s chart of coercion, which at it’s core achieved submission through fear and abuse. Quite a few who grew up in childhood trauma situations were able to immediately recognize the narcissist abuse patterns perpetrated by politicians and world ‘leaders’.

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https://www.listennotes.com/podcasts/chronicles-of-the/beautiful-day-to-have-your-Co9RcSBEmv3/

Beautiful Day to Have Your Rights Taken Away

April 6, 2020

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

Are you bored, tired, stressed or afraid? They have you exactly where they want you. In this episode I discuss Corona conspiracies , as well as the use of trauma based systems to control the masses & take their rights away. fight , flight , freeze , fawn . Which one are you?

The Biderman Chart of Coercion : A Roadmap for Govt Coercion During the #CV19 Pandemic

Dec. 31, 2020

In this episode I go over 8 Communist coercive methods for eliciting individual compliance & how these very methods from 1956! Are being played out before our very eyes. READING & commentary via viable opposition blog

https://www.listennotes.com/podcasts/chronicles-of-the/the-biderman-chart-of-bzLKcMS4m6v/

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nymusicdaily's avatar

april 2020, you really were on to this early! thanks!

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Chris Pfohl's avatar

The world is a wonderful place with you in it. I envy your ability to hold the tension of destructive things while you expose then place them succinctly into the grand tapestry of the infinite. Keep giving yourself permission to turn away that which scrubs the light from your being. You have more tha earned that privilege.

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Hans Peder From's avatar

I think it must now be about six years ago my life crashed completely. I had been going, as I still am, through spiritual transformation which was also physically very demanding, and I was difficult to be around because of all the tics and shudders. And I had become a conspiracy theorist, a tin foil hat. In the same week I got fired, my wife told me she wanted a divorce. My children didn’t want contact because I had become way too weird. I ended up with retirement for medical reasons with a diagnosis of schizophrenia. In the process I had two suicide attempts, but both times I myself climbed down the tree again, and I had many months at a psychiatric ward. I gave up completely, and I had a couple of years on the couch feeling sorry for myself. Then I reached a stage in my spiritual transformation, where I could make the decision to stop feeling sorry for myself, and start enjoying the complete freedom I had been given. I had already lost everything, I had no career, no family. I was nothing, no position no status. I decided I would not let that define me. I made a decision to be the funny, intelligent, caring, charming guy that I know I am. Now I live a life that is in many ways privileged. I sing in two choirs. I go to a lot of great concerts. I am a long way in finding my conspiracy theorists/ tin foil hats/spiritual tribes, and I have established good relations with one of my children. The other has problems of his own, and still keep his distance. David Icke talks about all the mocking and ridicule he experienced when he said he he was a son of God. But it toughened him, and it set him free. He could speak his mind, because he didn’t care one bit what people thought of him. I had already lost everything, so what did I care. I was free.

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Celia Farber's avatar

What an inspiring story Hans. You made it. All on your own instincts too. Bravo.

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RAY FALCIOLA's avatar

Sounds like that song

“.. freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose..”

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TriTorch's avatar

That was beautiful, thank you Celia and brought a couple of things to mind.

About Honor and Holding Onto Yourself in a Conversation

A promise made is a debt (guilt) unpaid. When we speak we're giving a promise of our words. These debts are paid with integrity which is among our most precious resources.

As for other promises (debts), to learn to prevent from promising things you cannot pay always consider that you will have to pay them no matter what. This will help the looking before the leaping:

"Son, in life, love, or business, always remember, you dance with the person you brought. This is a basic point of honor - you keep the commitments you made.

More difficult than you thought it would be?

Tough, honor it.

More expensive than you estimated?

Tough, honor it.

See something else that's better?

Tough, honor it." -Unknown

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Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow. –Mary Anne Radmacher

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The NEXT LEVEL of the narrative matrix.

Purpose of DOGE: Dismantle Existing System of Governance & Build Back Spiderweb AI Infrastructure: https://old.bitchute.com/video/EUer0GMfzKvl [7:03mins]

Time code: 4:30 Vance: "Accept that This entire thing is going to fall in on itself. And so the task of conservatives right now is to preserve as much as can be conserved and so when the inevitable collapse of the country comes ensure that conservatives can help --> build back <-- the country."

-->I did not write the following <--

Elon Musk co-opted and Peter Thiel founded a company that became PayPal.

Other executives at PayPal went on to found or lead other huge tech companies including YouTube, LinkedIn, Reddit, Affirm, and many VC firms.

This group became known as the PayPal mafia because they basically controlled Silicon Valley.

Peter Thiel mentored a young JD Vance and helped him get set up in his first VC firm.

Peter Thiel and the PayPal mafia funded JD Vance's successful Senate run. Amazing because he had absolutely zero political experience.

Thiel and Musk all but forced Trump to choose JD Vance as VP in exchange for funding his presidential campaign.

The three of them, plus a lot of other tech billionaires subscribe to an ideology called the Dark Enlightenment espoused by this super weird, creepy dude: Curtis Yarvin aka Mencius Moldbug.

Yarvin preaches that the media and academia represent "The Cathedral" that secretly controls power and must be dismantled.

He advocates for a corporate run, monarchy, led by a CEO-Dictator. If Trump is gone from office, perhaps by Vance organizing a 25th Amendment removal due to claims about Trump’s cognitive decline, Vance moves in and that process begins.

Remember, it was just a couple of years ago when Musk said Trump was too old to even be a CEO, let alone the president.

Yarvin says that Democracy is an "outdated software" and openly opposes it and that:

- Government agencies should be dismantled and The U.S. should be broken up into "patchworks" controlled by tech oligarchs.

- That the elite tech billionaires should rule because they have the intelligence to "fix" society

- That the "masses are asses" too dumb to govern themselves.

The strategy is to gut the government via R.A.G.E - Retire All Govt Employees to make government incapable of operating.

Then to replace government with private corporations.

To eliminate elections because they are "obsolete"

To use distraction and chaos to prevent public resistance.

Trump is their useful tool to be disposed of as soon as they can wrest control.

This is why Elon wears a black MAGA hat. They are not Trump supporters, they are "Dark MAGA"

This isn't a hypothetical. The plan is already in motion:

- Musk, Thiel, and their network are actively dismantling democratic institutions.

- JD Vance, the “MAGA heir,” is being positioned to help implement this transition.

- The public is too distracted to realize what’s happening.

- If successful, democracy in America will be permanently replaced by a corporate-run authoritarian state.

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Did you by chance have a moment to read the Elon One Ring Article? https://archive.is/QH1wt

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Celia Farber's avatar

I would like to publish this. Does it need annotations? Holy cow.

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TriTorch's avatar

Here's a speech from Yarvin where he talks about American's needing to get used to the idea of a dictator:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZluMysK2B1E [18:16mins]

He is quite the character, and the Vance, Thiel, Musk takeover is quite a rabbit hole. But it all leads to the same place it has always led: the rich enslaving the poor. Now they have the technology to do it and are speaking openly about eradicating us. Here is Noah Yuval Harari, the second in command of the WEF:

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Mr. Harari, thinking about all this, puts it this way: “Utopia and dystopia depends on your values.” … The useless class he describes is uniquely vulnerable. “If a century ago you mounted a revolution against exploitation, you knew that when bad comes to worse, they can’t shoot all of us because they need us,” he said, citing army service and factory work.

Now it is becoming less clear why the ruling elite would not just kill the new useless class. “You’re totally expendable,” he told the audience. … “We don’t need you. But we are nice, so we’ll take care of you.” —Source (worth reading in full): https://archive.is/rWLoO

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Sharks are circling. Feel free to publish any of the above.

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TriTorch's avatar

More information:

How Billionaires Plan to Destroy America: https://youtu.be/R6KaBe7zPqY [20:25mins]

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Frances Leader's avatar

Who financed the training of the Paypal Mafia?

Edge Foundation!

Who financed the Edge Foundation?

Jeffrey Epstein.

https://newspaste.com/2024/10/31/musk-epstein-the-third-culture-dossier/

Oh, and one other major thing!

DOGE is little to do with crypto currency. Oh no. It is a clue about who is really running this world, but if you are not aware of how the old Venetian Empire runs the City of London and the Vatican this will only leave you confused:

https://francesleader.substack.com/p/doge-coin-has-some-interesting-history

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tRuth's avatar

Brilliant! Epic! Thanks for this, I’ve not been able to explain any of this, but you’ve nailed it. Wow!

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Ted's avatar

The value to others of such sharing, is more than simply one of conveyance, the gift of communicating that "you're not alone in undergoing internal conflict."

Each person is different, but there's a theme, a pattern, and sharing provides insight for pattern recognition.

We can read Emerson's essay on "Self Reliance" until we can recite it from memory, but the actual mechanics of the thing are a different matter entirely.

Your discovery of the power within hand-eye coordination (the writing and erasure procedure) was profound; not for it's uniqueness, because it isn't new. It is profound because of the associating internalization, the literal reification of it.

One needn't be a stone-cold Junginan to understand; there's neuroscience behind it. Exaggerated trait expression (in this case, of Agreeableness,) is a function of nurture, which manifests as reinforcement. Reinforcement is not purely cognitive, it involves a feedback loop that is reflected in physical response patterns. Reversing defective conditioning also involves physical processes.

Thank you for sharing, Ms. Farber; as you help yourself, so also do you help others.

May God bless you and help you along your path.

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The Real Mary Rose's avatar

Just lovely, Celia, thanks for writing and sharing. I'm around your age, and experiencing so much of the same. And, in fact, the past week has been a monumental one for me as well vis-a-vis catharsis and realizations (and chasing away demons who lived rent-free in my noggin).

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Rick Kean's avatar

I've always liked "Under promise, over deliver."

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Older and Wiser's avatar

Very well done Ms. Farber. whoever you are :) Much appreciated. I will need to re-read and reflect a few times in search of the possible nuanced kernels of wisdom not obvious to me - an Everyman.

And let's not forget the perspective of the world renowned psychiatrist (I am not a fan of psychiatry but am of...) Dr. Morgan Scott Peck. "At the root of all mental illness IS the denial of the truth" (by oneself or others). IN his day, Dr. Peck was referred to as "The Conscience of Humanity". I learned later in life that his seminal book "The Road Less Traveled" outsold the bible worldwide one year (around 1980 or so) - turning more to Peck's book than to the Bible for wisdom and guidance - that one year. Peck wrote that the road less traveled "is a journey dedicated to the pursuit of the truth in all matters."

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agnt RogerW, on Holy Night's avatar

Dear Celia, thank you for sharing all that. I don't understand much of what you wrote about. Sorry. I think I'm a bit frozen at the moment. I will try to understand more of it in a few days.

The shame in Spain stays mainly in the plain.

(Hehehehehe.)

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Celia Farber's avatar

I just wondered if they shame people in Spain? Seem not, to me.

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Marla's avatar

Having worked with Spanish men - beware the passive aggressive.

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agnt RogerW, on Holy Night's avatar

Yes, they shame people in Spain.

Perhaps Granada is a special place. Maybe it's my perception that is distorted. It can be, because I understand less and less everyday.

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Gloria S's avatar

Great article…we can relate. “Nonviolent communication,” (a great book) is most effective when both parties use the technique, which is often not the case as the other person is often unhinged.

Take for example what’s happening at Tesla dealerships and charging stations. Some folks are willing to vilify, demonize, destroy, and terrorize teslas and charging stations because they disagree with the implementation of making our government more efficient. Ironically, many of these same individuals embrace the green agenda, yet their hatred and anger has overridden legality, common sense, and their sustainability beliefs.

That’s when I say the 5-word-mantra that pulls me out of the downward spiral, “Lord, bless them, change me.” Much of the stuff happening today is out of our hands and we can’t reason with these people, so it’s best to "do onto others as we’d have them do unto us" by sending a blessing and letting God take over. Give it a try, can’t hurt, might help. Works for me. Peace!

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Sophia's avatar

Yippee on the cosmic breakthroughs, Celia! I am thrilled that you are stepping into loving yourself as much as the rest of us love YOU, brilliant, stellar, glorious YOU! You don't have to do anything to be brilliant, stellar, and glorious because you were born that way. Everything else that you have done and do throughout your precious life is just icing on the cake. Thank you for being authentic and for taking good care of yourself, for loving yourself. You deserve the very best of everything. I hope you are receiving all the love coming to you in these comments and from me! Let love in! 💞💞💞

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Rick Kean's avatar

I'd guess that 1st Lady Jill operated the autopen.

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I am not your Other's avatar

Lindy Li is an odd one but most of this seems probable to me.

https://youtu.be/ZHXVeLVHWuY?si=eFUn8yCDqFOjXOcW

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Lee Kelley's avatar

Thank you for hope. Thank you for you. I needed that embrace. I needed those words.

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