I’ve followed you for quite a while... in the last four years my life as I know it has been shredded...I’ve quit the Truth Social fear angst, the Facebook clueless happy and landed here where I have found the last semblance of politeness and sanity I’m sure is left on this planet... I started following you when both my daughters were talking to me, life was fairly good in my eyes and before I realized I was living clueless in my own life not knowing terrors, fears, unforgiveness and wokeness was sneaking up behind me to rob me of what I know feel was never a solid family- ever. I’ve lived deluded in a matrix of my own making. Words spoken you can’t I hear, betrayal and judgement, and yes- culminating into a life I don’t recognize nor want. But I still pray every day, try to be thankful every day, sit and cry in a pew every Sunday, read other voices hear that make me feel less alone in a home where no one sees anything the way I do and topics are verboten because it’s easier to stay married that way, and seems to be only way to maybe have a family unit again one day. Who one votes for, whether or not one wears a mask or takes a vaccine are now goalposts of whether or not you get access to people- a litmus of whether you deserve love. I’m appalled I raised children who think that’s right.
So I read your words and feel anxious. I know some of these thoughts. Like a well read book, or sing stuck in my head- I recognize the place your sitting in.
Funnily enough- I don’t know you, and may not agree with you on something- who knows- but I read your words and I value your thoughts and your honesty and your willingness to be raw. I search out the people I think are broken, raw and real. That way- I don’t feel quite so alone in a world where I am.
Another powerful and honest contribution. I feel the same about substack. If you’ll forgive me offering a point of view, I think the right way to understand the inexplicable behaviours is that a condition of mass psychosis has descended on the world. It is a shattering time of revelations for those who will learn from it. God bless you.
Some in the psyche field (not me, but I have so much experience--being in need of those...) have suggested that "mass psychosis" cannot account with sufficient precision to the 'mass,' and that the widespread submission to orthodoxy intensified into unhinged aggression, could also be characterized as an understandable response to being terrorized--using that word in its literal sense, not hyperbole, or to the justifiable fear of losing employment, fear of dying, fear of loss of social acceptance, fear of illness, or any number of other spectres with which we were blanketed around the clock not for weeks or months but for YEARS. (Not calling out, rather just moved to interject.)
Thanks Mandy, I'm glad you were moved to interject. The suggestion of mass psychosis has caused some controversy in certain quarters – its a fairly multi-dimensional and complex phenomenon. I think you are absolutely right that long-term terrorisation of people is what is making them 'unhinged'. But in fact that is considered to be one of the main CAUSES of mass psychosis. I have written of this a little on my own Substack. There's an introduction to it here:
Thanks again for responding – I think that above all what we need in order to overcome the madness is to engage with each other. For that I love this platform.
Me too. It feels like my old life wasn't real or something. My daughter hasn't talked to me in almost two years. Where is the sweet girl I raised and loved? So much has changed, you are not alone.
I know several people experiencing loss of their relationship with a child, me too . It overflows to my grandson, terribly painful, yet so many are experiencing this, my heart is with you, it's much more , unraveling, than we realize,, so much is breaking apart, yet it should, we know this at some level., I firmly see it as necessary, all these deceptions, and when we get shredded, we'll, you know..love
Well, one friend of mine says having a relationship w/ (grown) kids doesn't work; GRANDKIDS are who you have relationships with. But she's fortunate enough to have some....
Well, yes, I'm pretty sure that "The Nuclear Family" was a CIA construct. But I'm less sure that relationships w/ grandkids aren't better than relationships with kids. (Get back to me in about 20 years.)
Oh I'm not denying such, and very much looking forward to grandkids also.
The engineering part I'm getting at is not so much about the "nuclear family" idea.
I think the current structure of society has been deliberately set up to separate us from our past and traditions, to enable the constant rewriting and updating of our (supposed) societal beliefs, mores, etc.
Our oldest son livees 1& a half hours away. He has 2 sons in their 20's, one married, the other not. We have a good relationship with our son and his wife and we get together once a month. Our 2nd son died when he was 20, unmarried. Then we had a daughter who has a teenaged son whom we haven't seen for over 3 years because we are not jabbed and because I listened to Rush Limbaugh too much and, oh yeah we are too religious. We seem to have the best relationship with our youngest son and his wife whenever we arre together which is usually twice a year, two weeks at a time, because they are living in Europe with our youngest grandson and child due at the end of June. The pain of being estranged from our daughter and her family is sometimes almost unbearable, but we have a hope and that gets us through it. As much as our daughter has rejected us, we love her and hope for reconciliation. That makes me think of our Father in Heaven. All the people living on the Earth are His children and I believe that He wants ALL His chidren reconciled to Him.
Exactly, this gives me much more insight into what our Heavenly Father must be feeling about most of us. Of course mine pales in comparison, I can't even imagine how He must feel with so many of His children turning their backs on Him and choosing to live in sin.
I think it can work, it just depends on the love and maturity involved. My relationship with my mother got much stronger when I had my daughter. Being a mother makes you appreciate what your own mother went through.
Just as Celia's thoughts, into words, find their place in my own heart, you also echo the same from your experience. We recognize each other. Keep in mind you are not the only influence that your children mime. I thought I knew my biological sisters and brothers --we were very close, even when we disagreed about something-- until "covid".
We are in a time where we have a good chance to peel away the false reality and see ourselves as the Creator wants us to. Full of more lovefullnes and recognize when we feel loveless. God bless you too.
I would say one of your best posts ever and I read every one. Your ability to articulate this vague, uncertain yet pervasive atmosphere, inside us and in others, is remarkable. Like poetry. This is not the first time you’ve been able to unearth what has become of us in a very deep and relatable way. I think I commented before something along the lines of it’s not happy stuff but comforting in its reality- someone being able to say it out loud.
To hear is one thing, to understand is another, to avoid the perils of the nay sayers against the Truth is a constancy for they exist in an ocean of ignorance and a world of insanity. After all, who and what would ever vote for a slime ministerial proven by reality to be a bigot, liar, fool, hater, incompetent, petty minded idiot who was the spawn of a commie father and a hippie mother, Ya just gotta know by the ASSministration he appointed, that he has the IQ of a sunburnt carrot and the appeal of an overflowing plugged public toilet that biDUMB fell into. His name is Trudope and he is the Epitome of flawed, criminal leaders as were and are ovomit and biDUMB. Lord have mercy.
You’re speaking to my experience in a major way. It’s not pleasant to admit, but shining the light of awareness on what’s true for us is the only way to move forward. I appreciate your vulnerability and you’ve inspired me to share some of my own.
I’ve recently been saying to myself that it’s like my heart has turned to stone. I rarely feel love except in the presence of animals, and I lost my two 😻😻 in the last two years - Freddie in March 22 (17.5) and Muka in August 23 who almost made it to 19. Thankfully, I have two kittens coming next month.
As for people, I have a difficult time especially with those who have and or continue to buy into the lies. My sweet 84 year old Dad (who has been open all along but falling in line) was saying the other day, “It’s over. Nobody cares about vaccination status etc. any longer.” I don’t entirely agree and I find the whole thing incredibly odd on so many levels. I don’t think people who are bought in have ANY idea what it’s been like for people like us.
It’s like there is a GIGANTIC elephant in the room, and we can be superficially civil with one another provided WE DON’T TALK ABOUT ANYTHING OF SUBSTANCE. It’s like so many subjects are off limits.
The other day I watched an incredible documentary called The War Against Children. It was so well done - zero conspiracy about any of it and I believe it should be required viewing for all especially parents and those who want to be in the future.
Yet, I am 99.999999@% certain sharing it with any “normie” would be met with the same BRICK WALL as say, Pfizer own data showing 1300 deaths in the first 3 months.
How is one supposed to feel love or any sense of connection with the masses of people who consciously or unconsciously, choose remain willfully ignorant?
Adyashanti is one of my favorite spiritual teachers. I couldn’t more highly recommend his material. One of his “basic” teachings is “allow everything to be as it is.” As he shares, simple on the surface but not in practice, especially because it includes allowing OTHERS to be as they are.
The ego in me still gets triggered by “masked morons.” They aren’t bothering me - if I’m honest, I’m bothering myself about it with endless rationale for why it’s ok to complain. It’s all BS - and me believing it is what keeps my heart closed.
I suppose my task, our task, as Adya
recommends, is to allow. We don’t have to like , but I think the only true Peace and Love only arise when we get out of the way.
My Mom died nearly six years ago. I’ll never forget a moment I had 6 hours after she passed. I never felt worse in my entire life, but at the same time, I felt good (totally at peace) that I was feeling that bad. I was allowing. There was no denying of anything. I grieved the loss well though it wasn’t easy.
Celia, thanks for helping me realize the time has come to practice that in a more global way.
Your comment about being civil provided we don’t talk about anything of substance—THAT is the whole of it! We can no longer be open and fully truthful, so we have all become hesitant with each other. Everything is superficial. We’re all walking around talking about the weather, and I hate it.
Thank you for writing. Your post reminded me of the poem, “Allow,” by Dana Fauds. Even it does not quite offer the comfort or provide the revelation it once did for me. Maybe it can be of some solace still.
Hey Dan, you fight your fight and I will fight mine. It is not the problem we have but what we do about it that matters. Insanity in a society run amok is a given. If I ever find the place where I can resign from the human sub race, I will let you know, but only you because if everyone knew, there would be lineup several times long around the world. Currently I am taking on corrupt police, two corrupt bureauCRAPS, a defective detective, two inept and criminally compromised JP's, and a biomass of mental midgets in the peanut gallery.
The central figure in it all I am sure was salivating at thoughts of my destruction but for his troubles suddenly, and unexpectedly deceased. That was called a coincidence until the dweeb defective detective who had upset my mother, a 99 year old WW2 veteran and disrespected her, watched his own mother, much younger, decease. Hmmm. I know a man who at the mention of the death of a corrupt union leader shouted out, "There is a God." That man who said it like it was had much Scottish genetical substance.
I say all that to say this. We either go with the sewage flow of lies or stand with our faces turned to the storm. And there are but three ways of thinking and doing things up here, the RIGHT way, the WRONG way and the CANADIAN way and it seems all do and think the latter two ways. Hang on, it is a wild ride, but enlist the Truth and set Him free in the midst of the battle, and watch Him raise hell with the enemies of all that is good. Works for me and my publicization of the facts will create a national scandal. After all, why would one such as I condemn and seek for the OPP, and all police forces to be defunded to be replaced by the RCMP nationally? All is corrupt but the police up here are wasted.
Dan, I also watched that documentary and sent it to my brothers who have very young grandchildren. Urged them to talk with their children about protecting the little ones. Don't know what they will do with the information, or even watch it. I leave it up to heaven to get through. Nothing more I can do.
Good for you for making the attempt. Perhaps I should send it to my siblings who have young adult children despite feeling it would almost certainly fall on deaf ears and or be “received” (ie NOT in the same way as vaccine info. So sad that people literally love their beliefs and being right more than their own children.
Dale, you yourself are an enormously accomplished writer. You've mastered something that Rowan Atkinson never got the hang of—the use of the phrase "with whom."
I rarely listen to any 'podcasts' or seek 'information.' I listen to the Bible as spoken word. Most of my connections are gone, and who I was is gone. I was viciously torched by my friends and neighbours for being unvaccinated to the point of violence in one case. They are out of my life, and oddly, they do not understand why. They have forgotten. I eke out an existance at work but everyone feels like a cardboard cut-out. Everything is flat and fake.
I am in a grey limbo, waiting for something. For me to emerge? Not sure. It's unbelievably disturbing.
That's part of what I find so weird now, as I see so many around me struggling with health issues, etc.
They all seem to have forgotten they even went and got poked, it's been memory holed, and they've just accepted without question this "new normal" of sickness and death and life by injection.
And right you are. But up here there are lawsuits against armed forces generals, univerSHITty deans, health officials and even the trudope sop all for illegally mandating the fake jab experimental guinea pig dangerous injection. Proof? Search "React19" for more proof than ever. I had Covid caught at Kearney Nebraska in 2020 but was down for only four days exhausted. Was like the flu. Then I was on my feet again raising h*ll. The Truth is coming out, there need to be fake leaders arrested, tried and executed for sedition.
Tedros is not a doctor and has the IQ of a soiled table napkin and the appeal of a green snot rocket hanging off a cold brass door knob.
That's terrible! But I doubt they have forgotten, they are just pretending--though I don't say that's better, it might be worse. I'm advice prone, so apologies, but I can only say build on your own inner strength and anything which can bring you joy. Countermeasures are necessary.
Thank you for this post. I am continually drawn to your writings. My step son called today to tell me he loves me (he's 54, I'm 80) and ask how I am. We live across a great divide in terms of how we view the world, he with trust is powers that be and me suspicious of them, more so, it seems, every rabbit hole I go down, so we spend less time together than before 'covid' and yet he keeps calling to say he loves me. Whaat more could I ask. He's also not trying to change me. I'm wishing he would change his views enough to not take the jabs but I need to offer him the same freedom he unquestionably offers me. Thank you for talking about love and lovelessness and the vacuity of being right. I needed to hear that. PS I followed the Duesberg disaster when it started, in SF. Thank you for your steadfastness in shedding light HIV does not cause AIDS and Peter's defense at great cost to yourself. The value you hold for integrity helps me hold to that a bit more.
Therein is reply to the sentiment of the substack??
Could Celia’s reaction and reflections be in part due to her current sphere of influences?
In my sphere of influence I have observed that in the midst of vid division and distrust it may be in some of those with whom we have long history that those cords of connection can keep the embers glowing. Yes, in spite of all that has befallen us, it is the tentacles of raw love and shared long history that may hold. Will it ever be the same? Likely not, but there is enough there to keep the salvage operation going until something new might be forged. We have travelled long together with some people: “I don’t think that I can take it / ‘Cause it took too long to bake it / And I’ll never have that recipe again…” (MacArthur’s Park-Richard Harris). Hence we have phone calls where a stepson insists he loves his stepmother.
What did we discover in the last four years? We learned the true nature of our relationships and how many had been cobbled together because of convenience, habit, necessity, insecurity. We learned how much we had accommodated in our relationships. That true connectivity is infrequent and to be cherished. And, suddenly we found connectivity in surprising places and people. And it is more real.
And amidst this four years of shiznit, we continue to be victims of those who lead us: the insecure, the vacuous, shallow, entitled, enclaved, often inept, unable to understand and to connect in a meaningful way with the people they claim to serve. Once they are subsumed into the tribe of governing leaders they don a gnostic sense of having ascended to deeper knowledge of the workings of the universe: Haha! People be damned; we are the overlords; these ignorant peasants are but pawns in our real-time game of Risk: Wars, greed, manipulation.
And once they are part of this tribe could it be they cannot leave? They forget - if they ever knew - that it is God who has permitted them this power, and it is to God they will answer for this deep privilege. That they had a chance to make a difference in the lives of God’s people.
But, thanks be to God, hope is one of the three theological virtues: “All shall be well / And all shall be well / All manner of things shall be well” (Julian, Anchorite of Norwich).
Was thinking just recently, trying to remember how I saw and interacted with the world prior to early 2020, and realized I can hardly recall. I know I've (been) changed, but can't really even articulate how exactly. The need to seek out and (try to) spread information, to change minds and patterns of thinking, became so imperative and existential in many ways, that it became all consuming, as did my disgust for and distrust of most of the rest of society.
This article def touched on some of it, we as humans need to somehow find a way to remember, and get back to, the way we were, not that it was perfect, but there is definitely something different now that just feels wrong at all levels.
You are spending way too much time attempting to unravel the Gordian knot. You are in the dark, have lost your glasses, instead of lighting a candle, your'e cursing the dark. You're in a deep, dark hole, hand me the shovel and let me pull you out for a while. ........ oh yeah, back to the Gordian knot: my offensive mixing of metaphors notwithstanding do what Alexander the great did, pull out your sword and whack the damn thing. There is no matrix that is sci-fi and a movie. In spite of what the weasels like Uval Noah Harari and the other AI ass clowns may tell you you are beautifully and wonderfully made. God made us all that way. And we have free will. You are beautiful and kind and loving and sweet and have a good heart. Do not let the bastards grind you down. Illegitimi non-Carborundum. 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️
And as the late Johnny Cash sang, "I can hear the voice of youth asking what is truth? But liars, cons, enemies of Freedom and Justice and other felonious verbal fools talk lies, sprinkled with deceptions and puke slime, ya know, the slime that lubricates the throat to enable a smooth oral "defecation?"
For me personally the forerunner of the Covid hoax in the UK was the Novichok hoax. That was when I started to become disconnected from my peers. I'd argue about the nonsense being repeated across the media for hours, yet was unable to make myself heard. That was when I began to build a network of people online, who I felt I could talk to. Turns out they UK Government were just getting warmed up. Covid hit and it became far worse, and for the first time in my life I felt truly alone. Surrounded by frightened people; singled out as a loony by my whole family for not rolling up my sleeve; isolated and ostracized. Not much fun at all, and even though people appear to have moved on I still feel the same sense of being alone.
You captured it very well, Celia. I will add that I became aware of the AIDS scam in the early 90s when I read an interview with Peter D, which I'm pretty sure you authored. It made so much sense of everything, and to discover that Fauci was the man behind the politicization of AIDS and later Covid is simply stunning. He must be one of the most evil homunculii to ever walk the planet and certainly one of America's biggest mass-murderers. I take my hat off to you for living through this debacle and being prepared to put your career on the line to tell the truth. Your words are much appreciated. Always.
You are crazy, there I wrote it, so now I can go back to being normal. Being normal is the norm so that must be good and being is good as being good is the only thing you are allowed or allow yourself to be, why? Be angry, go ahead, use the force wisely though, to create, to write, to paint, to laugh, to clean house, inside and out. Lovelessness is an interesting word, I'd say it was total awe at the detructive force unleashed, an attack, and a certain feeling of shock, call it lovelessness if you like, however you definitely had to use that feeling to defend yourself, your life, your beingness, your being love, you are love. The system abhors love, all things loving, loving bonding, loving relationships big and small, loving interractions, the system makes liars out of all of us due to it being a lying system and as we are truth by nature we 'have to' corrupt ourselves to 'fit in' to the lying system, then the lie corrodes us, our humanity as we are part and parcel of the creator, the system does not like that hence it's destruction is called for. Keep your discernment as high as you can and write from the heart, your authentic heart, your inspirational heart, inspirare, breathe, breathe, breathe, dare to breathe life into yourself no matter what the naysayers say. Love is a force, not always kind though, use it wisely, do not throw pearls in fornt of swine either, love, yes it is a powerful force and it has been debased to only mean lust, sex, food, shopping, meeting me, me, me little needs in the now, now, now, as in instant gratitude, yes love, t'is what is missing in the mix, So what happened? Well 'they' want us in their insane world, they want us to condone it, to live it, to propagate it, and saying 'no thanks' may sound unloving however it is the discernement given to you which made you see it and act upon it, ah yes maybe too forceful at times, that's possible, but if you are amongst real friends you can always say sorry and then humans are very capable of forgviing as they can see and saw your heart's intentions, Thanks for the post, mine became a bit too long, so you inspired me to write, thanks for that, Gracias, kind regards, I wish you a lovely day.
I thank you for this powerful and heart-felt post. It gets directly to an urgent point that we should all be working hard to stay in touch with. I offer in response this quote from Rudolf Steiner:
‘The sixth Root Race will have the task of drawing evil back into the continuing stream of evolution through kindness. Then a spiritual current will have been born which does not oppose evil, even though it manifests in the world in its demonic form. The consciousness will have been established in the successors to the ‘Sons of the Widow’ that evil must be included again in evolution and be overcome, not by strife, but only through charitableness. It is the task of the Manichean spiritual stream forcefully to prepare for this. This spiritual stream will not die out, it will make its appearance in many forms. It appears in forms which many can call to mind but which need not be mentioned today. If it were to function merely in the cultivation of an inner mood of soul, this current would not achieve what it should do. It must express itself in the founding of communities which, above all, will look upon peace, love and passive resistance to evil as their standard of behaviour and will seek to spread this view. For they must create a receptacle, a form, for the life which will continue to exist even without their presence.’
Thank you, Michael, for sharing Steiner's wisdom. And thank you, Celia, for speaking of that very strange 'space' we find ourselves in....so true, your words. Blessings.🙏
You made me think about how in the Old Testament, Satan is called “the accuser”, so literally all of these dynamics pulling people apart are central to a satanic agenda as well, and so much easier to fall into than the overtly, obviously “evil” stuff that gets rubbed in our faces all the time.
I learned from "the wisest woman in San Francisco" (in the '50s - '80s ) that one of our most serious misunderstandings of ourselves is in thinking we identify with what we love: If only that were true, but we don't, we identify with what we fear.
Normally we should identify with what is right. I only hate what is wrong, what I fear does not matter but more often than not what I would fear in essence fears me and others like me. A woman I adore who was abused and hurt from age four told me that "you are a terrible man"...but then probing my eyes added, "but I still cherish you" and added again, "There is no one like you" to which I said, "yeah but is that good or bad." She laughed, and was and is the most beautiful girl in the world inner and outer..her inner beauty flows out and over her and then over and into me. My best friend for over 27 years and I am the ONLY man she trusts. I broke hearing her story but the anger soon came out at the injustices she had suffered. She is one of many and her history created a hatred of cruel people so deep I sought the counsel of my minister. Note that in scriptures it says among other places, "God hates the workers of iniquity." I am told to not hate and derided by fools that God is love. That is a heresy. Tell me why then why did He slay over ten thousand Israelites in the desert for being ingrates and whiners. We live in a world of opposites, good and bad, up and down, hot and cold, GOD AND SATAN, etc I am not a Christian, I am a Believer and take that word because many Christians including family members who will go to church tomorrow and sing, "Jesus Loves Me" but will cheat, lie, defraud, defame, falsely judge etc the rest of the week. Many Christians are NOT real. I have estranged eight relatives because this is what they are, idolators who have sold their souls for a gain of thirty pieces of silver. Yes, religion is corrupted and coopted by "commandments of men," that is, false doctrines. Scriptures include a double reference prophesy that staes over 90% of all religions are apostate. Proof? There are over a billion moslems in the world and they believe in a false God. That is but a start and more than enough to prove my point. Most religions are man made and thus prone to errancy. Note that many religions are evil, just lately the pontiff approved blessings for homosexuals. I do not hate homosexuals BUT scriptures condemn that "deathstyle."
What we are going through now is a necessary part of our evolution. We cannot think our way through this. Thinking has become problematic. it is the ultra intellectual thinkers who have amassed power and fortunes who are leading mankind into a new, uncharted, anti-nature form of existence.
They are the end-goal and end-game of our 10,000 year patriarchal experiment. They are totally deranged, demonstrating the limits and the dangers inherent in “rational“ thinking.
We don’t need to get rid of thinking, but we can learn to use it instead of being used by it.
The people who are blind to what is going on, are still human beings deserving to be treated as human beings. Every person, no matter how deranged, still would rather not be deranged. You never know when one of them might wake up, might let some light penetrate.
Christ himself said: we don’t have to wait for the kingdom to come, it’s here now within each of us. Let’s not wait to celebrate! After all, the main difference between us and them is that we are still fully human beings, capable of joy, laughter, and dance. They do not know that. They might find that attractive, intriguing.
And it certainly a lot more fun, enjoying life, enjoying each, other than it is trying to convince or change others.
I feel where we're at, yes, is the result of too much thinking, but specifically by those who are separated from nature and the world by their immense wealth.
Something along the lines of "idle hands do the devils work", these "elites" are able to not just ponder, but put into motion all kinds of ridiculous ideas, simply because they can, and their time is not taken up with just living as it is for most of us. When one does not NEED to work, cook, directly raise one's kids, etc, the door is open for all kinds of crazy ideas to enter.
Then add the layer of idolization of these people that's been engineered into our society, is it any wonder they think they're gods of some sort?
Thinking, when done by those rooted in reality and nature does not result in the wacky ideas we see being forced upon the world these days
I can't read or process much but you untangle it in a way that I have been as well.
I feel trust is a choice. But I'm not referring to the larger players. If we welcome each other in, choose to trust, that is a loving choice. Then there is beauty and depth.
There is a lot of trauma here. Terror, fear. New trauma coupling up with old. How can there not be.
Celia, I'll say swimming with monsters again.
Scanning the room to feel safe. Trying to understand to feel safe, when there is no safety to be had.
There's a gentle balance here. It's challenging to touch to feel.
Elizabeth, what I mean are that women have a greater capacity to the nobler character traits than males. Yes women can be cold and cruel, but generally they are God's most beautiful and precious creation. I have a best friend who has been so over 27 years. She was hurt terribly and in meeting her I told her beauty started on the inside, flowed out and over her, onto and into me, in a way that I knew she was the most beautiful girl in the world. That is where beauty must start in a woman, on the inside in her soul and spirit, and she herself sealed up the sum in that application.
Elizabeth, men are meant as well as women to show emotions fully in their existence. One of those I am close to told me of her abuse and it was so bad it broke me emotionally. Watching me, she knew I had felt it more than I had heard it and that drew her close to me and me to her. We grew together as friend amd friend made strong by the component of vanquishing loneliness from her life because of her validation I understood completely. There is nothing worse that being misunderstood and feeling alone. As to trauma, men have feelings to on the other end of the scale and for me, my hurt at what I felt at seeing her pain morphed into anger on my part that anyone would hurt such a precious woman. At one point in our travels I mauled a fool who I will say "interfered in her best interests" and triggered me to react in her defense. I have no criminal record, one thing she had determined before becoming friends with me. This act on my part did NOT scare her because she already knew who and what I was and am. I had sent her my CPIC that still shows a clean record.
The end result was her not being intimidated but becoming more trusting towards me and drawing us parallel in mind, soul and spirit to each the other. It is what I would call a "watershed moment." Being the witty smartass she was and is, she told me, "you are a terrible man.' I looked devastated and wanting to be an ass, pretended to be hurt. She looked at me with misty eyes and then said, ".....but I still love you." At that we both laughed. To be clear, what she meant was that she still cherished me. When one mentions love, most think of lust which is a non existent element in our closeness. Instead exists a far deeper symbiotic relationship.
THe trauma I suffered was not my own, but was hers and my fears that she would be emotionally hurt again. Instead she embraced what she had seen as more proof I cared deeply about her well being. To be honest, the mutual feelings have doubled and tripled by way of the continuing proofs of same. You also know that women judge by actions and I also know that had I not protected her, the friendship would have died and ended as it would properly have done. in any reluctance on my part to look after her best interests.
We have lost so much since the hippie era by way of the cheap fake sex that is but a failed misrepresentation of what embodies and builds proper, strong,, dedicated and deeply loving relationships that are genuine.
To be blunt, everything on me works, but the strongest elements that trigger affection are trust, respect, and the dynamics of emotional intimacy. Only a greenhorn would not realize that having a woman's trust is but being a short hop away from having her love. Or so I have found.
Be careful Jerry. There are only three categories of people identified in scriptures, NOT by race, gender, etc and those are the saved, the unsaved and the workers of iniquity. We are to treat each group in a different way. Jesus said, "He who is not for me is against me." That is, no sitting on the fence. Either for or against. Lukewarmness is condemned. And if you look at Revelation Chapter 21 verse 8 you will see that cowards are damned along with a list of vile sinners including murderers, idolators, liars, etc. Having said that, my best and most generous client is a medical specialist who is atheist. She has treated me better than any other over three decades. One of my strongest allies fighting for justice is an agnostic. I do not condemn or preach to them. I witness by actions and lest you missed it, WOMEN JUDGE BY ACTIONS AND NOT WORDS.
let's flip this 180 degrees. there's our adversaries who are guilty of lovelessness, pretending to be the opposite of us. credulity is how they cloak their antihuman agenda.
in keeping with that, let's rephrase your paragraph:
"they themselves have “murdered” old friends [i.e. us] since 2020 because we got behind Covid reality, and they felt the need to condemn us, and now they can’t take it back. See what we made them do? They don’t feel right, or good, or pure. Do we?"
In the first years of Covid, there was a feverish drive to mint heroes left and right. When the MFM was a ragtag first-year team, we needed a couple of overpriced free agent sluggers to put bodies in the seats. even if instead of hitting home runs, they mostly just struck out or popped up some flyballs that died on the warning track.
we're four years into this. we've seen who has muscle to hit the ball a million miles and Celia nobody has more power than you. we have no need for anyone whose motives are not pure. after all these years you are my #1 draft pick. write what you want, it's all relevant.
The Globalists try to divide us into a million factions. But, they have only succeeded into dividing us into the Awake and the Indoctrinated. The Indoctrinated have lost their ability for critical thinking and to question the illogical. They have accepted that 2 plus 2 = 5.
I’ve followed you for quite a while... in the last four years my life as I know it has been shredded...I’ve quit the Truth Social fear angst, the Facebook clueless happy and landed here where I have found the last semblance of politeness and sanity I’m sure is left on this planet... I started following you when both my daughters were talking to me, life was fairly good in my eyes and before I realized I was living clueless in my own life not knowing terrors, fears, unforgiveness and wokeness was sneaking up behind me to rob me of what I know feel was never a solid family- ever. I’ve lived deluded in a matrix of my own making. Words spoken you can’t I hear, betrayal and judgement, and yes- culminating into a life I don’t recognize nor want. But I still pray every day, try to be thankful every day, sit and cry in a pew every Sunday, read other voices hear that make me feel less alone in a home where no one sees anything the way I do and topics are verboten because it’s easier to stay married that way, and seems to be only way to maybe have a family unit again one day. Who one votes for, whether or not one wears a mask or takes a vaccine are now goalposts of whether or not you get access to people- a litmus of whether you deserve love. I’m appalled I raised children who think that’s right.
So I read your words and feel anxious. I know some of these thoughts. Like a well read book, or sing stuck in my head- I recognize the place your sitting in.
Funnily enough- I don’t know you, and may not agree with you on something- who knows- but I read your words and I value your thoughts and your honesty and your willingness to be raw. I search out the people I think are broken, raw and real. That way- I don’t feel quite so alone in a world where I am.
God bless you Celia. ❤️🙏🏻
Another powerful and honest contribution. I feel the same about substack. If you’ll forgive me offering a point of view, I think the right way to understand the inexplicable behaviours is that a condition of mass psychosis has descended on the world. It is a shattering time of revelations for those who will learn from it. God bless you.
Some in the psyche field (not me, but I have so much experience--being in need of those...) have suggested that "mass psychosis" cannot account with sufficient precision to the 'mass,' and that the widespread submission to orthodoxy intensified into unhinged aggression, could also be characterized as an understandable response to being terrorized--using that word in its literal sense, not hyperbole, or to the justifiable fear of losing employment, fear of dying, fear of loss of social acceptance, fear of illness, or any number of other spectres with which we were blanketed around the clock not for weeks or months but for YEARS. (Not calling out, rather just moved to interject.)
Thanks Mandy, I'm glad you were moved to interject. The suggestion of mass psychosis has caused some controversy in certain quarters – its a fairly multi-dimensional and complex phenomenon. I think you are absolutely right that long-term terrorisation of people is what is making them 'unhinged'. But in fact that is considered to be one of the main CAUSES of mass psychosis. I have written of this a little on my own Substack. There's an introduction to it here:
https://michaelwarden.substack.com/p/the-problem-of-mass-psychosis
And a slightly more detailed investigation here:
https://michaelwarden.substack.com/p/the-witch-the-war-and-the-virus-part
Thanks again for responding – I think that above all what we need in order to overcome the madness is to engage with each other. For that I love this platform.
The mental midgets on the left cannot learn save to believe in a lie.
Yes, alone. That's what I feel too. Disconnected, living in a weird dream I can't wake up from.
Forgive my typos. I had something in my eye as I was typing
Me too. It feels like my old life wasn't real or something. My daughter hasn't talked to me in almost two years. Where is the sweet girl I raised and loved? So much has changed, you are not alone.
I know several people experiencing loss of their relationship with a child, me too . It overflows to my grandson, terribly painful, yet so many are experiencing this, my heart is with you, it's much more , unraveling, than we realize,, so much is breaking apart, yet it should, we know this at some level., I firmly see it as necessary, all these deceptions, and when we get shredded, we'll, you know..love
Well, one friend of mine says having a relationship w/ (grown) kids doesn't work; GRANDKIDS are who you have relationships with. But she's fortunate enough to have some....
This alone illustrates just how messed up our current society is.
All by design I say, fragmented generations and families are easily controlled and manipulated.
Well, yes, I'm pretty sure that "The Nuclear Family" was a CIA construct. But I'm less sure that relationships w/ grandkids aren't better than relationships with kids. (Get back to me in about 20 years.)
Oh I'm not denying such, and very much looking forward to grandkids also.
The engineering part I'm getting at is not so much about the "nuclear family" idea.
I think the current structure of society has been deliberately set up to separate us from our past and traditions, to enable the constant rewriting and updating of our (supposed) societal beliefs, mores, etc.
...& I'm saying that that was what The Nuclear Family was all about.
Our oldest son livees 1& a half hours away. He has 2 sons in their 20's, one married, the other not. We have a good relationship with our son and his wife and we get together once a month. Our 2nd son died when he was 20, unmarried. Then we had a daughter who has a teenaged son whom we haven't seen for over 3 years because we are not jabbed and because I listened to Rush Limbaugh too much and, oh yeah we are too religious. We seem to have the best relationship with our youngest son and his wife whenever we arre together which is usually twice a year, two weeks at a time, because they are living in Europe with our youngest grandson and child due at the end of June. The pain of being estranged from our daughter and her family is sometimes almost unbearable, but we have a hope and that gets us through it. As much as our daughter has rejected us, we love her and hope for reconciliation. That makes me think of our Father in Heaven. All the people living on the Earth are His children and I believe that He wants ALL His chidren reconciled to Him.
Exactly, this gives me much more insight into what our Heavenly Father must be feeling about most of us. Of course mine pales in comparison, I can't even imagine how He must feel with so many of His children turning their backs on Him and choosing to live in sin.
I think it can work, it just depends on the love and maturity involved. My relationship with my mother got much stronger when I had my daughter. Being a mother makes you appreciate what your own mother went through.
Just as Celia's thoughts, into words, find their place in my own heart, you also echo the same from your experience. We recognize each other. Keep in mind you are not the only influence that your children mime. I thought I knew my biological sisters and brothers --we were very close, even when we disagreed about something-- until "covid".
We are in a time where we have a good chance to peel away the false reality and see ourselves as the Creator wants us to. Full of more lovefullnes and recognize when we feel loveless. God bless you too.
Do not fear, you are not alone.
I would say one of your best posts ever and I read every one. Your ability to articulate this vague, uncertain yet pervasive atmosphere, inside us and in others, is remarkable. Like poetry. This is not the first time you’ve been able to unearth what has become of us in a very deep and relatable way. I think I commented before something along the lines of it’s not happy stuff but comforting in its reality- someone being able to say it out loud.
To hear is one thing, to understand is another, to avoid the perils of the nay sayers against the Truth is a constancy for they exist in an ocean of ignorance and a world of insanity. After all, who and what would ever vote for a slime ministerial proven by reality to be a bigot, liar, fool, hater, incompetent, petty minded idiot who was the spawn of a commie father and a hippie mother, Ya just gotta know by the ASSministration he appointed, that he has the IQ of a sunburnt carrot and the appeal of an overflowing plugged public toilet that biDUMB fell into. His name is Trudope and he is the Epitome of flawed, criminal leaders as were and are ovomit and biDUMB. Lord have mercy.
Yes
You’re speaking to my experience in a major way. It’s not pleasant to admit, but shining the light of awareness on what’s true for us is the only way to move forward. I appreciate your vulnerability and you’ve inspired me to share some of my own.
I’ve recently been saying to myself that it’s like my heart has turned to stone. I rarely feel love except in the presence of animals, and I lost my two 😻😻 in the last two years - Freddie in March 22 (17.5) and Muka in August 23 who almost made it to 19. Thankfully, I have two kittens coming next month.
As for people, I have a difficult time especially with those who have and or continue to buy into the lies. My sweet 84 year old Dad (who has been open all along but falling in line) was saying the other day, “It’s over. Nobody cares about vaccination status etc. any longer.” I don’t entirely agree and I find the whole thing incredibly odd on so many levels. I don’t think people who are bought in have ANY idea what it’s been like for people like us.
It’s like there is a GIGANTIC elephant in the room, and we can be superficially civil with one another provided WE DON’T TALK ABOUT ANYTHING OF SUBSTANCE. It’s like so many subjects are off limits.
The other day I watched an incredible documentary called The War Against Children. It was so well done - zero conspiracy about any of it and I believe it should be required viewing for all especially parents and those who want to be in the future.
Yet, I am 99.999999@% certain sharing it with any “normie” would be met with the same BRICK WALL as say, Pfizer own data showing 1300 deaths in the first 3 months.
How is one supposed to feel love or any sense of connection with the masses of people who consciously or unconsciously, choose remain willfully ignorant?
Adyashanti is one of my favorite spiritual teachers. I couldn’t more highly recommend his material. One of his “basic” teachings is “allow everything to be as it is.” As he shares, simple on the surface but not in practice, especially because it includes allowing OTHERS to be as they are.
The ego in me still gets triggered by “masked morons.” They aren’t bothering me - if I’m honest, I’m bothering myself about it with endless rationale for why it’s ok to complain. It’s all BS - and me believing it is what keeps my heart closed.
I suppose my task, our task, as Adya
recommends, is to allow. We don’t have to like , but I think the only true Peace and Love only arise when we get out of the way.
My Mom died nearly six years ago. I’ll never forget a moment I had 6 hours after she passed. I never felt worse in my entire life, but at the same time, I felt good (totally at peace) that I was feeling that bad. I was allowing. There was no denying of anything. I grieved the loss well though it wasn’t easy.
Celia, thanks for helping me realize the time has come to practice that in a more global way.
Your comment about being civil provided we don’t talk about anything of substance—THAT is the whole of it! We can no longer be open and fully truthful, so we have all become hesitant with each other. Everything is superficial. We’re all walking around talking about the weather, and I hate it.
can't even talk about that cos of chemtrails!!!
Exactly - well stated.
Thank you for writing. Your post reminded me of the poem, “Allow,” by Dana Fauds. Even it does not quite offer the comfort or provide the revelation it once did for me. Maybe it can be of some solace still.
Allow
There is no controlling life.
Try corralling a lightning bolt,
containing a tornado. Dam a
stream and it will create a new
channel. Resist, and the tide
will sweep you off your feet.
Allow, and grace will carry
you to higher ground. The only
safety lies in letting it all in –
the wild and the weak; fear,
fantasies, failures and success.
When loss rips off the doors of
the heart, or sadness veils your
vision with despair, practice
becomes simply bearing the truth.
In the choice to let go of your
known way of being, the whole
world is revealed to your new eyes.
Thank you - that is great 🙏
Hey Dan, you fight your fight and I will fight mine. It is not the problem we have but what we do about it that matters. Insanity in a society run amok is a given. If I ever find the place where I can resign from the human sub race, I will let you know, but only you because if everyone knew, there would be lineup several times long around the world. Currently I am taking on corrupt police, two corrupt bureauCRAPS, a defective detective, two inept and criminally compromised JP's, and a biomass of mental midgets in the peanut gallery.
The central figure in it all I am sure was salivating at thoughts of my destruction but for his troubles suddenly, and unexpectedly deceased. That was called a coincidence until the dweeb defective detective who had upset my mother, a 99 year old WW2 veteran and disrespected her, watched his own mother, much younger, decease. Hmmm. I know a man who at the mention of the death of a corrupt union leader shouted out, "There is a God." That man who said it like it was had much Scottish genetical substance.
I say all that to say this. We either go with the sewage flow of lies or stand with our faces turned to the storm. And there are but three ways of thinking and doing things up here, the RIGHT way, the WRONG way and the CANADIAN way and it seems all do and think the latter two ways. Hang on, it is a wild ride, but enlist the Truth and set Him free in the midst of the battle, and watch Him raise hell with the enemies of all that is good. Works for me and my publicization of the facts will create a national scandal. After all, why would one such as I condemn and seek for the OPP, and all police forces to be defunded to be replaced by the RCMP nationally? All is corrupt but the police up here are wasted.
Dan, I also watched that documentary and sent it to my brothers who have very young grandchildren. Urged them to talk with their children about protecting the little ones. Don't know what they will do with the information, or even watch it. I leave it up to heaven to get through. Nothing more I can do.
Good for you for making the attempt. Perhaps I should send it to my siblings who have young adult children despite feeling it would almost certainly fall on deaf ears and or be “received” (ie NOT in the same way as vaccine info. So sad that people literally love their beliefs and being right more than their own children.
I may have said this a time or two before, but you are one of the best writers of whom I am aware!
Dale, you yourself are an enormously accomplished writer. You've mastered something that Rowan Atkinson never got the hang of—the use of the phrase "with whom."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYJ5_wqlQPg
Thank you. I often refer to my beloved wife, whom I married.
I’m so glad you decided to publish. Just write. If you lead, I’ll follow.
All of this hits absolutely true.
I rarely listen to any 'podcasts' or seek 'information.' I listen to the Bible as spoken word. Most of my connections are gone, and who I was is gone. I was viciously torched by my friends and neighbours for being unvaccinated to the point of violence in one case. They are out of my life, and oddly, they do not understand why. They have forgotten. I eke out an existance at work but everyone feels like a cardboard cut-out. Everything is flat and fake.
I am in a grey limbo, waiting for something. For me to emerge? Not sure. It's unbelievably disturbing.
That's part of what I find so weird now, as I see so many around me struggling with health issues, etc.
They all seem to have forgotten they even went and got poked, it's been memory holed, and they've just accepted without question this "new normal" of sickness and death and life by injection.
Prayers my friend. It’s funny how many of us are not alone but we are. 🙏🏻
NEVER GIVE UP
Good description of what some people I thought I knew are like to me now. Cardboard cut-outs
I feel like this too—the grey limbo is a great way to describe it.
And right you are. But up here there are lawsuits against armed forces generals, univerSHITty deans, health officials and even the trudope sop all for illegally mandating the fake jab experimental guinea pig dangerous injection. Proof? Search "React19" for more proof than ever. I had Covid caught at Kearney Nebraska in 2020 but was down for only four days exhausted. Was like the flu. Then I was on my feet again raising h*ll. The Truth is coming out, there need to be fake leaders arrested, tried and executed for sedition.
Tedros is not a doctor and has the IQ of a soiled table napkin and the appeal of a green snot rocket hanging off a cold brass door knob.
That's terrible! But I doubt they have forgotten, they are just pretending--though I don't say that's better, it might be worse. I'm advice prone, so apologies, but I can only say build on your own inner strength and anything which can bring you joy. Countermeasures are necessary.
Thank you for this post. I am continually drawn to your writings. My step son called today to tell me he loves me (he's 54, I'm 80) and ask how I am. We live across a great divide in terms of how we view the world, he with trust is powers that be and me suspicious of them, more so, it seems, every rabbit hole I go down, so we spend less time together than before 'covid' and yet he keeps calling to say he loves me. Whaat more could I ask. He's also not trying to change me. I'm wishing he would change his views enough to not take the jabs but I need to offer him the same freedom he unquestionably offers me. Thank you for talking about love and lovelessness and the vacuity of being right. I needed to hear that. PS I followed the Duesberg disaster when it started, in SF. Thank you for your steadfastness in shedding light HIV does not cause AIDS and Peter's defense at great cost to yourself. The value you hold for integrity helps me hold to that a bit more.
“he keeps calling to say he loves me.”
Therein is reply to the sentiment of the substack??
Could Celia’s reaction and reflections be in part due to her current sphere of influences?
In my sphere of influence I have observed that in the midst of vid division and distrust it may be in some of those with whom we have long history that those cords of connection can keep the embers glowing. Yes, in spite of all that has befallen us, it is the tentacles of raw love and shared long history that may hold. Will it ever be the same? Likely not, but there is enough there to keep the salvage operation going until something new might be forged. We have travelled long together with some people: “I don’t think that I can take it / ‘Cause it took too long to bake it / And I’ll never have that recipe again…” (MacArthur’s Park-Richard Harris). Hence we have phone calls where a stepson insists he loves his stepmother.
What did we discover in the last four years? We learned the true nature of our relationships and how many had been cobbled together because of convenience, habit, necessity, insecurity. We learned how much we had accommodated in our relationships. That true connectivity is infrequent and to be cherished. And, suddenly we found connectivity in surprising places and people. And it is more real.
And amidst this four years of shiznit, we continue to be victims of those who lead us: the insecure, the vacuous, shallow, entitled, enclaved, often inept, unable to understand and to connect in a meaningful way with the people they claim to serve. Once they are subsumed into the tribe of governing leaders they don a gnostic sense of having ascended to deeper knowledge of the workings of the universe: Haha! People be damned; we are the overlords; these ignorant peasants are but pawns in our real-time game of Risk: Wars, greed, manipulation.
And once they are part of this tribe could it be they cannot leave? They forget - if they ever knew - that it is God who has permitted them this power, and it is to God they will answer for this deep privilege. That they had a chance to make a difference in the lives of God’s people.
But, thanks be to God, hope is one of the three theological virtues: “All shall be well / And all shall be well / All manner of things shall be well” (Julian, Anchorite of Norwich).
Was thinking just recently, trying to remember how I saw and interacted with the world prior to early 2020, and realized I can hardly recall. I know I've (been) changed, but can't really even articulate how exactly. The need to seek out and (try to) spread information, to change minds and patterns of thinking, became so imperative and existential in many ways, that it became all consuming, as did my disgust for and distrust of most of the rest of society.
This article def touched on some of it, we as humans need to somehow find a way to remember, and get back to, the way we were, not that it was perfect, but there is definitely something different now that just feels wrong at all levels.
yup!!!
I know exactly how you feel.
Me too BUT FIGHT!!!
I remember. I had hope.
You are spending way too much time attempting to unravel the Gordian knot. You are in the dark, have lost your glasses, instead of lighting a candle, your'e cursing the dark. You're in a deep, dark hole, hand me the shovel and let me pull you out for a while. ........ oh yeah, back to the Gordian knot: my offensive mixing of metaphors notwithstanding do what Alexander the great did, pull out your sword and whack the damn thing. There is no matrix that is sci-fi and a movie. In spite of what the weasels like Uval Noah Harari and the other AI ass clowns may tell you you are beautifully and wonderfully made. God made us all that way. And we have free will. You are beautiful and kind and loving and sweet and have a good heart. Do not let the bastards grind you down. Illegitimi non-Carborundum. 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️
And as the late Johnny Cash sang, "I can hear the voice of youth asking what is truth? But liars, cons, enemies of Freedom and Justice and other felonious verbal fools talk lies, sprinkled with deceptions and puke slime, ya know, the slime that lubricates the throat to enable a smooth oral "defecation?"
For me personally the forerunner of the Covid hoax in the UK was the Novichok hoax. That was when I started to become disconnected from my peers. I'd argue about the nonsense being repeated across the media for hours, yet was unable to make myself heard. That was when I began to build a network of people online, who I felt I could talk to. Turns out they UK Government were just getting warmed up. Covid hit and it became far worse, and for the first time in my life I felt truly alone. Surrounded by frightened people; singled out as a loony by my whole family for not rolling up my sleeve; isolated and ostracized. Not much fun at all, and even though people appear to have moved on I still feel the same sense of being alone.
You captured it very well, Celia. I will add that I became aware of the AIDS scam in the early 90s when I read an interview with Peter D, which I'm pretty sure you authored. It made so much sense of everything, and to discover that Fauci was the man behind the politicization of AIDS and later Covid is simply stunning. He must be one of the most evil homunculii to ever walk the planet and certainly one of America's biggest mass-murderers. I take my hat off to you for living through this debacle and being prepared to put your career on the line to tell the truth. Your words are much appreciated. Always.
The Skripal poisoning--I followed that closely. Interesting connection to Covid, yes.
You are crazy, there I wrote it, so now I can go back to being normal. Being normal is the norm so that must be good and being is good as being good is the only thing you are allowed or allow yourself to be, why? Be angry, go ahead, use the force wisely though, to create, to write, to paint, to laugh, to clean house, inside and out. Lovelessness is an interesting word, I'd say it was total awe at the detructive force unleashed, an attack, and a certain feeling of shock, call it lovelessness if you like, however you definitely had to use that feeling to defend yourself, your life, your beingness, your being love, you are love. The system abhors love, all things loving, loving bonding, loving relationships big and small, loving interractions, the system makes liars out of all of us due to it being a lying system and as we are truth by nature we 'have to' corrupt ourselves to 'fit in' to the lying system, then the lie corrodes us, our humanity as we are part and parcel of the creator, the system does not like that hence it's destruction is called for. Keep your discernment as high as you can and write from the heart, your authentic heart, your inspirational heart, inspirare, breathe, breathe, breathe, dare to breathe life into yourself no matter what the naysayers say. Love is a force, not always kind though, use it wisely, do not throw pearls in fornt of swine either, love, yes it is a powerful force and it has been debased to only mean lust, sex, food, shopping, meeting me, me, me little needs in the now, now, now, as in instant gratitude, yes love, t'is what is missing in the mix, So what happened? Well 'they' want us in their insane world, they want us to condone it, to live it, to propagate it, and saying 'no thanks' may sound unloving however it is the discernement given to you which made you see it and act upon it, ah yes maybe too forceful at times, that's possible, but if you are amongst real friends you can always say sorry and then humans are very capable of forgviing as they can see and saw your heart's intentions, Thanks for the post, mine became a bit too long, so you inspired me to write, thanks for that, Gracias, kind regards, I wish you a lovely day.
Delete or publish? Does it matter? Yes!!
I thank you for this powerful and heart-felt post. It gets directly to an urgent point that we should all be working hard to stay in touch with. I offer in response this quote from Rudolf Steiner:
‘The sixth Root Race will have the task of drawing evil back into the continuing stream of evolution through kindness. Then a spiritual current will have been born which does not oppose evil, even though it manifests in the world in its demonic form. The consciousness will have been established in the successors to the ‘Sons of the Widow’ that evil must be included again in evolution and be overcome, not by strife, but only through charitableness. It is the task of the Manichean spiritual stream forcefully to prepare for this. This spiritual stream will not die out, it will make its appearance in many forms. It appears in forms which many can call to mind but which need not be mentioned today. If it were to function merely in the cultivation of an inner mood of soul, this current would not achieve what it should do. It must express itself in the founding of communities which, above all, will look upon peace, love and passive resistance to evil as their standard of behaviour and will seek to spread this view. For they must create a receptacle, a form, for the life which will continue to exist even without their presence.’
Thank you, Michael, for sharing Steiner's wisdom. And thank you, Celia, for speaking of that very strange 'space' we find ourselves in....so true, your words. Blessings.🙏
You made me think about how in the Old Testament, Satan is called “the accuser”, so literally all of these dynamics pulling people apart are central to a satanic agenda as well, and so much easier to fall into than the overtly, obviously “evil” stuff that gets rubbed in our faces all the time.
I learned from "the wisest woman in San Francisco" (in the '50s - '80s ) that one of our most serious misunderstandings of ourselves is in thinking we identify with what we love: If only that were true, but we don't, we identify with what we fear.
Normally we should identify with what is right. I only hate what is wrong, what I fear does not matter but more often than not what I would fear in essence fears me and others like me. A woman I adore who was abused and hurt from age four told me that "you are a terrible man"...but then probing my eyes added, "but I still cherish you" and added again, "There is no one like you" to which I said, "yeah but is that good or bad." She laughed, and was and is the most beautiful girl in the world inner and outer..her inner beauty flows out and over her and then over and into me. My best friend for over 27 years and I am the ONLY man she trusts. I broke hearing her story but the anger soon came out at the injustices she had suffered. She is one of many and her history created a hatred of cruel people so deep I sought the counsel of my minister. Note that in scriptures it says among other places, "God hates the workers of iniquity." I am told to not hate and derided by fools that God is love. That is a heresy. Tell me why then why did He slay over ten thousand Israelites in the desert for being ingrates and whiners. We live in a world of opposites, good and bad, up and down, hot and cold, GOD AND SATAN, etc I am not a Christian, I am a Believer and take that word because many Christians including family members who will go to church tomorrow and sing, "Jesus Loves Me" but will cheat, lie, defraud, defame, falsely judge etc the rest of the week. Many Christians are NOT real. I have estranged eight relatives because this is what they are, idolators who have sold their souls for a gain of thirty pieces of silver. Yes, religion is corrupted and coopted by "commandments of men," that is, false doctrines. Scriptures include a double reference prophesy that staes over 90% of all religions are apostate. Proof? There are over a billion moslems in the world and they believe in a false God. That is but a start and more than enough to prove my point. Most religions are man made and thus prone to errancy. Note that many religions are evil, just lately the pontiff approved blessings for homosexuals. I do not hate homosexuals BUT scriptures condemn that "deathstyle."
What we are going through now is a necessary part of our evolution. We cannot think our way through this. Thinking has become problematic. it is the ultra intellectual thinkers who have amassed power and fortunes who are leading mankind into a new, uncharted, anti-nature form of existence.
They are the end-goal and end-game of our 10,000 year patriarchal experiment. They are totally deranged, demonstrating the limits and the dangers inherent in “rational“ thinking.
We don’t need to get rid of thinking, but we can learn to use it instead of being used by it.
The people who are blind to what is going on, are still human beings deserving to be treated as human beings. Every person, no matter how deranged, still would rather not be deranged. You never know when one of them might wake up, might let some light penetrate.
Christ himself said: we don’t have to wait for the kingdom to come, it’s here now within each of us. Let’s not wait to celebrate! After all, the main difference between us and them is that we are still fully human beings, capable of joy, laughter, and dance. They do not know that. They might find that attractive, intriguing.
And it certainly a lot more fun, enjoying life, enjoying each, other than it is trying to convince or change others.
Regarding thinking...
I feel where we're at, yes, is the result of too much thinking, but specifically by those who are separated from nature and the world by their immense wealth.
Something along the lines of "idle hands do the devils work", these "elites" are able to not just ponder, but put into motion all kinds of ridiculous ideas, simply because they can, and their time is not taken up with just living as it is for most of us. When one does not NEED to work, cook, directly raise one's kids, etc, the door is open for all kinds of crazy ideas to enter.
Then add the layer of idolization of these people that's been engineered into our society, is it any wonder they think they're gods of some sort?
Thinking, when done by those rooted in reality and nature does not result in the wacky ideas we see being forced upon the world these days
Yup.
Thank you for this. ❤️
I can't read or process much but you untangle it in a way that I have been as well.
I feel trust is a choice. But I'm not referring to the larger players. If we welcome each other in, choose to trust, that is a loving choice. Then there is beauty and depth.
There is a lot of trauma here. Terror, fear. New trauma coupling up with old. How can there not be.
Celia, I'll say swimming with monsters again.
Scanning the room to feel safe. Trying to understand to feel safe, when there is no safety to be had.
There's a gentle balance here. It's challenging to touch to feel.
Making simple choices, letting go, digging deep, loving deep. Tiny baby steps.
Letting all of it flow.
A balance of feeling.
If I make the choice to love myself deeply, lean in and learn what that means. Listen... learn what listening means.
Let myself grieve, rage, be quiet and still. Sing, dance (maybe with just my hands).
Feel whatever I feel without editing.
Be nonsensical, a beautiful insanity... play....
We are so much more than this. So much deeper and more beautiful.
(nonsensical...)
Especially women. (We are so much more than this.)
I'm not sure what you mean.
Elizabeth, what I mean are that women have a greater capacity to the nobler character traits than males. Yes women can be cold and cruel, but generally they are God's most beautiful and precious creation. I have a best friend who has been so over 27 years. She was hurt terribly and in meeting her I told her beauty started on the inside, flowed out and over her, onto and into me, in a way that I knew she was the most beautiful girl in the world. That is where beauty must start in a woman, on the inside in her soul and spirit, and she herself sealed up the sum in that application.
That's beautiful, thank you.
From my tiny experience I wonder if men are more sensitive, more easily splintered and fragmented by trauma.
Some of the men I have know have been beautiful but very destructive. (traumatized?)
Thank you for answering me.
Elizabeth, men are meant as well as women to show emotions fully in their existence. One of those I am close to told me of her abuse and it was so bad it broke me emotionally. Watching me, she knew I had felt it more than I had heard it and that drew her close to me and me to her. We grew together as friend amd friend made strong by the component of vanquishing loneliness from her life because of her validation I understood completely. There is nothing worse that being misunderstood and feeling alone. As to trauma, men have feelings to on the other end of the scale and for me, my hurt at what I felt at seeing her pain morphed into anger on my part that anyone would hurt such a precious woman. At one point in our travels I mauled a fool who I will say "interfered in her best interests" and triggered me to react in her defense. I have no criminal record, one thing she had determined before becoming friends with me. This act on my part did NOT scare her because she already knew who and what I was and am. I had sent her my CPIC that still shows a clean record.
The end result was her not being intimidated but becoming more trusting towards me and drawing us parallel in mind, soul and spirit to each the other. It is what I would call a "watershed moment." Being the witty smartass she was and is, she told me, "you are a terrible man.' I looked devastated and wanting to be an ass, pretended to be hurt. She looked at me with misty eyes and then said, ".....but I still love you." At that we both laughed. To be clear, what she meant was that she still cherished me. When one mentions love, most think of lust which is a non existent element in our closeness. Instead exists a far deeper symbiotic relationship.
THe trauma I suffered was not my own, but was hers and my fears that she would be emotionally hurt again. Instead she embraced what she had seen as more proof I cared deeply about her well being. To be honest, the mutual feelings have doubled and tripled by way of the continuing proofs of same. You also know that women judge by actions and I also know that had I not protected her, the friendship would have died and ended as it would properly have done. in any reluctance on my part to look after her best interests.
We have lost so much since the hippie era by way of the cheap fake sex that is but a failed misrepresentation of what embodies and builds proper, strong,, dedicated and deeply loving relationships that are genuine.
To be blunt, everything on me works, but the strongest elements that trigger affection are trust, respect, and the dynamics of emotional intimacy. Only a greenhorn would not realize that having a woman's trust is but being a short hop away from having her love. Or so I have found.
Be careful Jerry. There are only three categories of people identified in scriptures, NOT by race, gender, etc and those are the saved, the unsaved and the workers of iniquity. We are to treat each group in a different way. Jesus said, "He who is not for me is against me." That is, no sitting on the fence. Either for or against. Lukewarmness is condemned. And if you look at Revelation Chapter 21 verse 8 you will see that cowards are damned along with a list of vile sinners including murderers, idolators, liars, etc. Having said that, my best and most generous client is a medical specialist who is atheist. She has treated me better than any other over three decades. One of my strongest allies fighting for justice is an agnostic. I do not condemn or preach to them. I witness by actions and lest you missed it, WOMEN JUDGE BY ACTIONS AND NOT WORDS.
Thank you for your message. My first wife was agnostic, and my second was an atheist, and they were both very good women.
let's flip this 180 degrees. there's our adversaries who are guilty of lovelessness, pretending to be the opposite of us. credulity is how they cloak their antihuman agenda.
in keeping with that, let's rephrase your paragraph:
"they themselves have “murdered” old friends [i.e. us] since 2020 because we got behind Covid reality, and they felt the need to condemn us, and now they can’t take it back. See what we made them do? They don’t feel right, or good, or pure. Do we?"
In the first years of Covid, there was a feverish drive to mint heroes left and right. When the MFM was a ragtag first-year team, we needed a couple of overpriced free agent sluggers to put bodies in the seats. even if instead of hitting home runs, they mostly just struck out or popped up some flyballs that died on the warning track.
we're four years into this. we've seen who has muscle to hit the ball a million miles and Celia nobody has more power than you. we have no need for anyone whose motives are not pure. after all these years you are my #1 draft pick. write what you want, it's all relevant.
Yes write what you want, Celia. It's your journey.
But let's look to ourselves and not raise others to such heights. It isn't healthy for any of us.
Yes.
For sure she is a dynamic...Russian woman have that.
The Globalists try to divide us into a million factions. But, they have only succeeded into dividing us into the Awake and the Indoctrinated. The Indoctrinated have lost their ability for critical thinking and to question the illogical. They have accepted that 2 plus 2 = 5.
Yup.