The Old Map Was, Inevitably, Drawn By Neuro-Normals; How To Heal Even Without Relying On The Experts, Because YOU ARE The Expert, And They Should INTERVIEW You, But Granularly This Time
When I did the infowars.com liver cleanse for 7 days, I had ZERO procrastination. I was on my high flying disc and getting shit done at a rapid pace. When I took that Microsomal EDTA for the first time, I worked for 22 hours without stopping. It still helps me.
I think this procrastination thing for me is low blood oxygen and toxins. I used to think it was my lack of discipline... but now, not so much.
Oh, I just purchased a book called Expressive Writing -Words that Heal by James Pennebaker. It is about "using expressive writing to overcome trauma and emotional upheavals, resolve issues, improve health, and build resilience"
They did studies/research regarding the writing about the trauma. I wanted to read it all the way through before starting the exercises. That's just me. You can just jump in and do the 4 day writing exercise. Anyway, I'm hoping it helps me deal with my own childhood trauma, which at 59, still has not been resolved. I get it.
I hadn't realized that I had at least a touch of procrastination until our daughter spoke the phrase, "If not now when?". (We had been discussing when we might get together, and I was expressing reasons why doing so didn't seem logical. ( ie: too expensive, not enough time, illness, etc. )
Her comment, "If not now when?" was like a smack up the back of the head I needed to adjust my thinking. That verbal revelation flipped my script as it were..... Yes, we did make a way to celebrate our special life events though it was only for what was a brief, but fabulous evening. (money, scheduling, health & logic took a back seat to the huge value of sharing even a short time together.)
Since that occasion when faced with a 'project' ( yes even for. say. simply doing dishes), I find myself asking "If not now when, If not me who?" Suddenly that mental voice saying 'you can delay the dishes until morning' gets overruled. I just do it ! Not having the dirty dishes facing me in the morning is a bravo moment.
And yes, "showing up on time" is not only a sign of respect for others, but is also a sign of respect for yourself because you have thought through the event, and have responsibly taken control and scheduled the fulfilment of the event so your own time is not squandered in delay, distractions, & panic. You actually can end up being the one relaxing with a drink awaiting the arrival of the other party. A delicious reward your mind never forgets.
Last of all I'll say, none of us can stand alone. We need each other whether that be in the form of friend, spouse, church family, associates, etc. Having a sounding board is paramount even if it comes to the point of needing medical/psychiatric help.
I do hope that maybe my little thoughts & experiences can be of help to you Celia.
Your mother was doing the maternal 'feathering the nest'. I always knew when my friends were about to 'drop', because they went on cleaning fits.
Psychologist Jessica Taylor who is an expert on trauma said "Women and girls don’t benefit from this system of pathologising them, but everyone else does. Everyone. Systems. Families. The abuser. Governments. Professionals. Employers. Partners." I'll send you her handwritten note on X, in DM's. She's written a book, or books, and she is awesome.
The best info I have found on procrastination is by Zen Cryar Debrucke and Inner Guidance System (IGS). She says there are four (and only four reasons we procrastinate):
1. It does not need to happen at all.
2. It is someone else's to do.
3. The timing is not right for you to take action.
4. Your mind is making it more complicated than it needs to be [and maybe you need to chunk it down to a MUCH smaller task].
Best $5 I ever spent! And I'm someone who reads A LOT OF SELF-DEVELOPMENT BOOKS AND ACTUALLY APPLIES THE INFO IN REAL LIFE! And my whole family now has language to talk about procrastination and our managing of trauma, triggers, etc.
Poetry is the discovery that thawing is continuous and perennial.
On lost continents, brain maps and writing writers:
1. Plato, in his book titled "Critias," refers to Atlantis. The semi-divine people there become corrupt because they have too much contact with mere humans, and then their Nation is lost. The search for political perfection is a trauma symptom, and it seems to consist in freezing people in place, with threats, symbols, impossible projects, dates, and strange coincidences, all made up. Same thing happened to John Calvin.
2. Daniel Defoe sought in writing the lost island of Atlantis. There he sent Crusoe, after many disasters like being enslaved by Moors.
3. Gracián, who tried and failed to leave the Jesuit order, staged his big book on the very isolated island of Saint Helena. There Critilo finds Andrenio, who grew up in a cave in that island, and knows nothing about the world. The castaway philosopher Critilo starts criticizing the world for the naïve Andrenio.
4. Robert Burton in his Anatomy of Melancholy writes about melancholy to escape melancholy. He often invents quotations of classical authors. To forge a citation of Aristotle or Plutarch is like fabricating an entire island in the middle of the ocean.
5. Borges invented a lot of real things, like maps of imaginary countries, published in scale 1:1.
6. Tolkien was also a map maker. His stories are nothing but a pretext for drawing maps.
7. Virginia Woolf didn't like war. She didn't like a lot of things, poor woman. I don't know why, but every time I think about maps, I think about Borges, and when I think about Borges I think about Virginia. Weird! Anyway, the story goes that two older brothers, George and Gerald, abused repeatedly Virginia and Vanessa, her sister, and perhaps the older sister Stella, who died young in 1897, of "influenza" or something, right after her honeymoon. Always a virus, never the narcs in power. George died in 1934 and Gerald died in 1937, and only when these two narcissistic abusers died was Virginia able to write about their deeds. I suspect the mother, Julia, died in 1895 of shame and furious silence. Obviously Virginia was not an anti-semite, but an anti-narcissist. Her husband, Leonard, was a jew and probably a narcissist. Fabian Socialism is nothing but the protection of malignant narcissists by their chronic victims.
8. Marina Tsvetaeva: “To the atheist, there is nothing except the earth and its organization.”
---
Back to the present. What a privilege for some people to not have much memory, nor the ability to connect dots. For that multitude of dummies out there, every time they do the dishes is an exciting new adventure full of possibilities. Those blessed fools, the poor in spirit, they are always efficient and reliable and know nothing about freezing.
I see the comedy and the tragedy in almost everything, every story. Laughter is misinterpreted as not taking the stories of other people seriously. Horror is misinterpreted as taking the stories of other people too seriously.
Due to all that, I always miss by just little, which is a lot. I like that my conclusion is not unique, but quite common.
Don't get paranoid, or add to the paranoia if you're already there. Honest...I just happened to be scrolling by, noticed your handle de-jour and thought I'd say hello.
Celia, i get the sense that all things hyper or hypo (hyper-punctuality as well as procrastination, which is basically its polar opposite) are trauma responses.
as just one mundane example, i learned the hard way, young, how utterly ridiculous it was to expect the nyc subway to run on time
became a dealbreaker in relationships (her: "we're not leaving an hour and a half early just to get to brooklyn." me: "oh yes we are")
likewise, chronic lateness might just be a cry for help
is procrastination a symptom of powerlessness? if whatever one does is ineffectual, then why do anything? if kindness and courage and empathy are irrelevant, as they most often are, then why be kind or brave or empathetic? my personal retort is: because that's how I define myself. if in the process I'm defying the strangulating zeitgeist, if indeed that's what it takes to remain sane in an insane world, then so be it. hurrah!
psychedelics may be the best treatment option for PTSD because, carefully administered, they can restore the default program we were blessed with at birth. Graham Hancock holds that there was at least one advanced ancient civilization that was a byproduct of shamanism and it was psychedelics which paved the way. maybe he's right, but I think there's plenty of evidence to support the notion that ETs intervened in the distant past, probably more than once. and when they departed, it seemed to our ancient ancestors that verily the gods had abandoned them.
by the way, there is persuasive evidence that the legendary Oracle at Delphi was under the influence:
Gemini: there is a highly prominent scientific theory that attributes the trance states of the Pythia (the high priestess at Delphi) to the inhalation of psychoactive substances—specifically, naturally occurring geological gases rather than traditional botanicals or fungi. For nearly a century, mainstream classical scholars dismissed the ancient accounts of toxic, prophetic vapors as mere myth or priestly fraud. However, a major interdisciplinary study vindicated those ancient descriptions, demonstrating a precise geological mechanism for the Oracle's altered states.
procrastination is mind mulling plans of action as good or bad, helpful or harmful. do no harm - if in doubt, do not do it. procrastination is wise hesitation mixed with tangled blobs of stale guilt.
Please keep going on these ideas, Celia. I welcome every idea to get out of freeze. Funny not funny how we can be so close with someone and they can cut so deeply. How many times can we learn that judging others is not helpful? And yet.
The simple truth of the cause of procrastination has to do with the dirty word "overwhelmed." Being overwhelmed and thence to disorganization thence to panic thence to confusion and loss of control tends to drive one to the desire to hide and leave it all behind. This can happen and does in the case of financial duress when one discovers they have not the capacity to make ends meet. One can be buried under confusion of forgetfulness for example by one who runs a business and is in control by his/her written reminders that list the sequential process for the next day to meet with others for work estimates, all listed on a pad. Imagine the misplacement and loss of that crucial reminder and the panic thereof that one cannot recall the half dozen agreements previously made but are now vague and lost.
Such a scenario can and does happen leaving the person lost in a feeling of desperation. Many have found themselves in that situation at one point or other.
There are those who understand but there are others with a knot in their face who will criticize, and have no ability to place themselves in the position of the panicked "victim."
I have been there myself and it creates huge angst as one wonders if clients will call back when and if the pre arranged meeting is/was scheduled. Therein lies the drama and angst.
I've scratched my head with anxiety many, many times wondering the true reason I procrastinate. I'm reading "Fawning" and finding out. All the stories of Ingrid's patients unearthed some trauma from childhood and pretty much came out the other side. I don't think there is a total healing, but a lot really helps. You might not be able to peg every single thing about yourself you find that is a head scratcher, but from reading this book I feel it is giving me a door to choose to go through. I'm not getting mad at myself anymore. Thank you AGAIN Celia for your relentless search for the truth of whatever the issue; this time you introduced another way to see ourselves.
Celia …serious question…what and who is/are neuro-normal? Are the 80% of those who took the jab neuro-normal and the 20% who didn’t are not? Maybe I have lived in a warped world but I don’t know a soul who doesn’t have a strain of procrastination of one form or another except my mother who was insufferable, there was NEVER so much as a dirty glass in the sink or did a single minute elapse between the last bite of food swallowed and the water running in the kitchen sink. My father NEVER made travel plans, even to Europe, until the very last minute. He was way more fun, so procrastination was much more interesting than being commanded to get up from the table before digestion had begun. Is procrastination really a divergent trait?
What causes procrastination? The same thing that causes any moral defect, i.e. our fallen human nature. It is a species of sloth, one of the "seven deadly sins": pride, envy, hatred, anger, avarice, gluttony, sloth.
I know of no better, more profoud or more eloquent reflection on this than from the great Oxford scholar John Henry Newman (1801-1890):
...The sight of the world is nothing else than the prophet's scroll, full of "lamentations, and mourning, and woe."
To consider the world in its length and breadth, its various history, the many races of man, their starts, their fortunes, their mutual alienation, their conflicts; and then their ways, habits, governments, forms of worship; their enterprises, their aimless courses, their random achievements and acquirements, the impotent conclusion of long-standing facts, the tokens so faint and broken of a superintending design, the blind evolution of what turn out to be great powers or truths, the progress of things, as if from unreasoning elements, not towards final causes, the greatness and littleness of man, his far-reaching aims, his short duration, the curtain hung over his futurity, the disappointments of life, the defeat of good, the success of evil, physical pain, mental anguish, the prevalence and intensity of sin, the pervading idolatries, the corruptions, the dreary hopeless irreligion, that condition of the whole race, so fearfully yet exactly described in the Apostle's words, "having no hope and without God in the world," —all this is a vision to dizzy and appal; and inflicts upon the mind the sense of a profound mystery, which is absolutely beyond human solution.
What shall be said to this heart-piercing, reason-bewildering fact? I can only answer, that either there is no Creator, or this living society of men is in a true sense discarded from His presence....And so I argue about the world;—if there be a God, since there is a God, the human race is implicated in some terrible aboriginal calamity. It is out of joint with the purposes of its Creator. This is a fact, a fact as true as the fact of its existence; and thus the doctrine of what is theologically called Original Sin becomes to me almost as certain as that the world exists, and as the existence of God.
And now, supposing it were the blessed and loving will of the Creator to interfere in this anarchical condition of things, what are we to suppose would be the methods which might be necessarily or naturally involved in His object of mercy? Since the world is in so abnormal a state, surely it would be no surprise to me, if the interposition were of necessity equally extraordinary—or what is called miraculous... what must be the face-to-face antagonist, by which to withstand and baffle the fierce energy of passion and the all-corroding, all-dissolving scepticism of the intellect in religious inquiries? .... I am not speaking here of right reason, but of reason as it acts in fact and concretely in fallen man. I know that even the unaided reason, when correctly exercised, leads to a belief in God, in the immortality of the soul, and in a future retribution; but I am considering it actually and historically; and in this point of view, I do not think I am wrong in saying that its tendency is towards a simple unbelief in matters of religion. No truth, however sacred, can stand against it, in the long run; and hence it is that in the pagan world, when our Lord came, the last traces of the religious knowledge of former times were all but disappearing from those portions of the world in which the intellect had been active and had had a career....
Supposing then it to be the Will of the Creator to interfere in human affairs, and to make provisions for retaining in the world a knowledge of Himself, so definite and distinct as to be proof against the energy of human scepticism, in such a case,—I am far from saying that there was no other way,—but there is nothing to surprise the mind, if He should think fit to introduce a power into the world, invested with the prerogative of infallibility in religious matters. Such a provision would be a direct, immediate, active, and prompt means of withstanding the difficulty; it would be an instrument suited to the need; and, when I find that this is the very claim of the Catholic Church*, not only do I feel no difficulty in admitting the idea, but there is a fitness in it, which recommends it to my mind. And thus I am brought to speak of the Church's infallibility, as a provision, adapted by the mercy of the Creator, to preserve religion in the world, and to restrain that freedom of thought, which of course in itself is one of the greatest of our natural gifts, and to rescue it from its own suicidal excesses.... I say, that a power, possessed of infallibility in religious teaching, is happily adapted to be a working instrument, in the course of human affairs, for smiting hard and throwing back the immense energy of the aggressive, capricious, untrustworthy intellect....John Henry Newman, Apologia Pro Vita Sua, Chapter 8: "General Answer to Mr Kingsley": newmanreader.org/works/apologia/part7.html
* What he says does not apply to the present Judeo-Masonic controlled Vatican & the "Vatican II" church, created after the overthrow of a rightly elected pope in 1958.
1) When you wrote "...all we trauma moths flock in.", did you check to see if using "all of us" instead of "all we" would fit cleanly and not leave "in" as a "following-line widow"?
2) Did you wind up keeping the $200/250?
P.S. "The forest's fossil record" was remarkably good. Don't undersell your audience or yourself.
I am likely to be too anxious to read comments, as I am convinced nobody knows what I mean, when I write about lost flora, continents, brain maps…
It's super intense and "important" but it leads inevitably to a period of disassociation. This is why I want answers. Now.
We all need answers that are simple, and workable. How can I get better?
I don't want to hear the word "healing!"
Also: Writing is a trauma symptom. A glorified trauma symptom.
I resemble all that you have written. Thank you for your willingness to write about the conundrums of the effects of traumas. I can so relate!
I resemble it too!
When I did the infowars.com liver cleanse for 7 days, I had ZERO procrastination. I was on my high flying disc and getting shit done at a rapid pace. When I took that Microsomal EDTA for the first time, I worked for 22 hours without stopping. It still helps me.
I think this procrastination thing for me is low blood oxygen and toxins. I used to think it was my lack of discipline... but now, not so much.
Oh, I just purchased a book called Expressive Writing -Words that Heal by James Pennebaker. It is about "using expressive writing to overcome trauma and emotional upheavals, resolve issues, improve health, and build resilience"
They did studies/research regarding the writing about the trauma. I wanted to read it all the way through before starting the exercises. That's just me. You can just jump in and do the 4 day writing exercise. Anyway, I'm hoping it helps me deal with my own childhood trauma, which at 59, still has not been resolved. I get it.
Celia this is a centuries old dilemma.
I hadn't realized that I had at least a touch of procrastination until our daughter spoke the phrase, "If not now when?". (We had been discussing when we might get together, and I was expressing reasons why doing so didn't seem logical. ( ie: too expensive, not enough time, illness, etc. )
Her comment, "If not now when?" was like a smack up the back of the head I needed to adjust my thinking. That verbal revelation flipped my script as it were..... Yes, we did make a way to celebrate our special life events though it was only for what was a brief, but fabulous evening. (money, scheduling, health & logic took a back seat to the huge value of sharing even a short time together.)
Since that occasion when faced with a 'project' ( yes even for. say. simply doing dishes), I find myself asking "If not now when, If not me who?" Suddenly that mental voice saying 'you can delay the dishes until morning' gets overruled. I just do it ! Not having the dirty dishes facing me in the morning is a bravo moment.
And yes, "showing up on time" is not only a sign of respect for others, but is also a sign of respect for yourself because you have thought through the event, and have responsibly taken control and scheduled the fulfilment of the event so your own time is not squandered in delay, distractions, & panic. You actually can end up being the one relaxing with a drink awaiting the arrival of the other party. A delicious reward your mind never forgets.
Last of all I'll say, none of us can stand alone. We need each other whether that be in the form of friend, spouse, church family, associates, etc. Having a sounding board is paramount even if it comes to the point of needing medical/psychiatric help.
I do hope that maybe my little thoughts & experiences can be of help to you Celia.
Blessings
Bob
Your mother was doing the maternal 'feathering the nest'. I always knew when my friends were about to 'drop', because they went on cleaning fits.
Psychologist Jessica Taylor who is an expert on trauma said "Women and girls don’t benefit from this system of pathologising them, but everyone else does. Everyone. Systems. Families. The abuser. Governments. Professionals. Employers. Partners." I'll send you her handwritten note on X, in DM's. She's written a book, or books, and she is awesome.
The best info I have found on procrastination is by Zen Cryar Debrucke and Inner Guidance System (IGS). She says there are four (and only four reasons we procrastinate):
1. It does not need to happen at all.
2. It is someone else's to do.
3. The timing is not right for you to take action.
4. Your mind is making it more complicated than it needs to be [and maybe you need to chunk it down to a MUCH smaller task].
She explains her method for managing life and procrastination in a $5 course. Here it is: https://fearfreehuman.com/product/the-recreating-you-game-training/
Best $5 I ever spent! And I'm someone who reads A LOT OF SELF-DEVELOPMENT BOOKS AND ACTUALLY APPLIES THE INFO IN REAL LIFE! And my whole family now has language to talk about procrastination and our managing of trauma, triggers, etc.
Poetry is the discovery that thawing is continuous and perennial.
On lost continents, brain maps and writing writers:
1. Plato, in his book titled "Critias," refers to Atlantis. The semi-divine people there become corrupt because they have too much contact with mere humans, and then their Nation is lost. The search for political perfection is a trauma symptom, and it seems to consist in freezing people in place, with threats, symbols, impossible projects, dates, and strange coincidences, all made up. Same thing happened to John Calvin.
2. Daniel Defoe sought in writing the lost island of Atlantis. There he sent Crusoe, after many disasters like being enslaved by Moors.
3. Gracián, who tried and failed to leave the Jesuit order, staged his big book on the very isolated island of Saint Helena. There Critilo finds Andrenio, who grew up in a cave in that island, and knows nothing about the world. The castaway philosopher Critilo starts criticizing the world for the naïve Andrenio.
4. Robert Burton in his Anatomy of Melancholy writes about melancholy to escape melancholy. He often invents quotations of classical authors. To forge a citation of Aristotle or Plutarch is like fabricating an entire island in the middle of the ocean.
5. Borges invented a lot of real things, like maps of imaginary countries, published in scale 1:1.
6. Tolkien was also a map maker. His stories are nothing but a pretext for drawing maps.
7. Virginia Woolf didn't like war. She didn't like a lot of things, poor woman. I don't know why, but every time I think about maps, I think about Borges, and when I think about Borges I think about Virginia. Weird! Anyway, the story goes that two older brothers, George and Gerald, abused repeatedly Virginia and Vanessa, her sister, and perhaps the older sister Stella, who died young in 1897, of "influenza" or something, right after her honeymoon. Always a virus, never the narcs in power. George died in 1934 and Gerald died in 1937, and only when these two narcissistic abusers died was Virginia able to write about their deeds. I suspect the mother, Julia, died in 1895 of shame and furious silence. Obviously Virginia was not an anti-semite, but an anti-narcissist. Her husband, Leonard, was a jew and probably a narcissist. Fabian Socialism is nothing but the protection of malignant narcissists by their chronic victims.
8. Marina Tsvetaeva: “To the atheist, there is nothing except the earth and its organization.”
---
Back to the present. What a privilege for some people to not have much memory, nor the ability to connect dots. For that multitude of dummies out there, every time they do the dishes is an exciting new adventure full of possibilities. Those blessed fools, the poor in spirit, they are always efficient and reliable and know nothing about freezing.
I see the comedy and the tragedy in almost everything, every story. Laughter is misinterpreted as not taking the stories of other people seriously. Horror is misinterpreted as taking the stories of other people too seriously.
Due to all that, I always miss by just little, which is a lot. I like that my conclusion is not unique, but quite common.
Don't get paranoid, or add to the paranoia if you're already there. Honest...I just happened to be scrolling by, noticed your handle de-jour and thought I'd say hello.
Hello!
"8. Marina Tsvetaeva: 'To the atheist, there is nothing except the earth and its organization'.”
"No one denies God unless he has reasons for wanting Him not to exist." - St Augustine
"The fool says in his heart [not his head], there is no god. Their deeds are corrupt, depraved...." - Psalm 14.1
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Foolishness_for_Christ
Celia, i get the sense that all things hyper or hypo (hyper-punctuality as well as procrastination, which is basically its polar opposite) are trauma responses.
as just one mundane example, i learned the hard way, young, how utterly ridiculous it was to expect the nyc subway to run on time
became a dealbreaker in relationships (her: "we're not leaving an hour and a half early just to get to brooklyn." me: "oh yes we are")
likewise, chronic lateness might just be a cry for help
is procrastination a symptom of powerlessness? if whatever one does is ineffectual, then why do anything? if kindness and courage and empathy are irrelevant, as they most often are, then why be kind or brave or empathetic? my personal retort is: because that's how I define myself. if in the process I'm defying the strangulating zeitgeist, if indeed that's what it takes to remain sane in an insane world, then so be it. hurrah!
psychedelics may be the best treatment option for PTSD because, carefully administered, they can restore the default program we were blessed with at birth. Graham Hancock holds that there was at least one advanced ancient civilization that was a byproduct of shamanism and it was psychedelics which paved the way. maybe he's right, but I think there's plenty of evidence to support the notion that ETs intervened in the distant past, probably more than once. and when they departed, it seemed to our ancient ancestors that verily the gods had abandoned them.
by the way, there is persuasive evidence that the legendary Oracle at Delphi was under the influence:
Gemini: there is a highly prominent scientific theory that attributes the trance states of the Pythia (the high priestess at Delphi) to the inhalation of psychoactive substances—specifically, naturally occurring geological gases rather than traditional botanicals or fungi. For nearly a century, mainstream classical scholars dismissed the ancient accounts of toxic, prophetic vapors as mere myth or priestly fraud. However, a major interdisciplinary study vindicated those ancient descriptions, demonstrating a precise geological mechanism for the Oracle's altered states.
Damn right .
I have spent 40 years quizzically asking why 'Rite of Spring ' is the summa cum laude of western aesthetics . Retribution being the highest ethic .
(A young maiden dancing herself to death -ballet suggested by Roerich even exists .I consider Stravinsky an evil person .
Then to see the millienae of anthropology from Roerich's 3 Asian camel treks' observation )
procrastination is mind mulling plans of action as good or bad, helpful or harmful. do no harm - if in doubt, do not do it. procrastination is wise hesitation mixed with tangled blobs of stale guilt.
Dissociation! That's me!
Now it's in front of my face, I'm suddenly terrified.
Childhood trauma sticks inside our cells.
Even the writing about, raising the invoice, procrastinated on as the bills arrive, resonates at every level.
For you Celia 💐
Please keep going on these ideas, Celia. I welcome every idea to get out of freeze. Funny not funny how we can be so close with someone and they can cut so deeply. How many times can we learn that judging others is not helpful? And yet.
PS great YouTube on procrastination. I also saw this one, which I can definitely relate to:
https://youtu.be/rOt6tTCSrRA
About functional freeze.
...maybe even a continent. On this continent, we will find mercy, understanding, compassion...
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The simple truth of the cause of procrastination has to do with the dirty word "overwhelmed." Being overwhelmed and thence to disorganization thence to panic thence to confusion and loss of control tends to drive one to the desire to hide and leave it all behind. This can happen and does in the case of financial duress when one discovers they have not the capacity to make ends meet. One can be buried under confusion of forgetfulness for example by one who runs a business and is in control by his/her written reminders that list the sequential process for the next day to meet with others for work estimates, all listed on a pad. Imagine the misplacement and loss of that crucial reminder and the panic thereof that one cannot recall the half dozen agreements previously made but are now vague and lost.
Such a scenario can and does happen leaving the person lost in a feeling of desperation. Many have found themselves in that situation at one point or other.
There are those who understand but there are others with a knot in their face who will criticize, and have no ability to place themselves in the position of the panicked "victim."
I have been there myself and it creates huge angst as one wonders if clients will call back when and if the pre arranged meeting is/was scheduled. Therein lies the drama and angst.
Bill Gates’ FrankenTicks is part of the 24/7 flood the zone with fear porn. Which causes “procrastination paralysis”. Ticks for Tics.
I've scratched my head with anxiety many, many times wondering the true reason I procrastinate. I'm reading "Fawning" and finding out. All the stories of Ingrid's patients unearthed some trauma from childhood and pretty much came out the other side. I don't think there is a total healing, but a lot really helps. You might not be able to peg every single thing about yourself you find that is a head scratcher, but from reading this book I feel it is giving me a door to choose to go through. I'm not getting mad at myself anymore. Thank you AGAIN Celia for your relentless search for the truth of whatever the issue; this time you introduced another way to see ourselves.
Celia …serious question…what and who is/are neuro-normal? Are the 80% of those who took the jab neuro-normal and the 20% who didn’t are not? Maybe I have lived in a warped world but I don’t know a soul who doesn’t have a strain of procrastination of one form or another except my mother who was insufferable, there was NEVER so much as a dirty glass in the sink or did a single minute elapse between the last bite of food swallowed and the water running in the kitchen sink. My father NEVER made travel plans, even to Europe, until the very last minute. He was way more fun, so procrastination was much more interesting than being commanded to get up from the table before digestion had begun. Is procrastination really a divergent trait?
What causes procrastination? The same thing that causes any moral defect, i.e. our fallen human nature. It is a species of sloth, one of the "seven deadly sins": pride, envy, hatred, anger, avarice, gluttony, sloth.
I know of no better, more profoud or more eloquent reflection on this than from the great Oxford scholar John Henry Newman (1801-1890):
...The sight of the world is nothing else than the prophet's scroll, full of "lamentations, and mourning, and woe."
To consider the world in its length and breadth, its various history, the many races of man, their starts, their fortunes, their mutual alienation, their conflicts; and then their ways, habits, governments, forms of worship; their enterprises, their aimless courses, their random achievements and acquirements, the impotent conclusion of long-standing facts, the tokens so faint and broken of a superintending design, the blind evolution of what turn out to be great powers or truths, the progress of things, as if from unreasoning elements, not towards final causes, the greatness and littleness of man, his far-reaching aims, his short duration, the curtain hung over his futurity, the disappointments of life, the defeat of good, the success of evil, physical pain, mental anguish, the prevalence and intensity of sin, the pervading idolatries, the corruptions, the dreary hopeless irreligion, that condition of the whole race, so fearfully yet exactly described in the Apostle's words, "having no hope and without God in the world," —all this is a vision to dizzy and appal; and inflicts upon the mind the sense of a profound mystery, which is absolutely beyond human solution.
What shall be said to this heart-piercing, reason-bewildering fact? I can only answer, that either there is no Creator, or this living society of men is in a true sense discarded from His presence....And so I argue about the world;—if there be a God, since there is a God, the human race is implicated in some terrible aboriginal calamity. It is out of joint with the purposes of its Creator. This is a fact, a fact as true as the fact of its existence; and thus the doctrine of what is theologically called Original Sin becomes to me almost as certain as that the world exists, and as the existence of God.
And now, supposing it were the blessed and loving will of the Creator to interfere in this anarchical condition of things, what are we to suppose would be the methods which might be necessarily or naturally involved in His object of mercy? Since the world is in so abnormal a state, surely it would be no surprise to me, if the interposition were of necessity equally extraordinary—or what is called miraculous... what must be the face-to-face antagonist, by which to withstand and baffle the fierce energy of passion and the all-corroding, all-dissolving scepticism of the intellect in religious inquiries? .... I am not speaking here of right reason, but of reason as it acts in fact and concretely in fallen man. I know that even the unaided reason, when correctly exercised, leads to a belief in God, in the immortality of the soul, and in a future retribution; but I am considering it actually and historically; and in this point of view, I do not think I am wrong in saying that its tendency is towards a simple unbelief in matters of religion. No truth, however sacred, can stand against it, in the long run; and hence it is that in the pagan world, when our Lord came, the last traces of the religious knowledge of former times were all but disappearing from those portions of the world in which the intellect had been active and had had a career....
Supposing then it to be the Will of the Creator to interfere in human affairs, and to make provisions for retaining in the world a knowledge of Himself, so definite and distinct as to be proof against the energy of human scepticism, in such a case,—I am far from saying that there was no other way,—but there is nothing to surprise the mind, if He should think fit to introduce a power into the world, invested with the prerogative of infallibility in religious matters. Such a provision would be a direct, immediate, active, and prompt means of withstanding the difficulty; it would be an instrument suited to the need; and, when I find that this is the very claim of the Catholic Church*, not only do I feel no difficulty in admitting the idea, but there is a fitness in it, which recommends it to my mind. And thus I am brought to speak of the Church's infallibility, as a provision, adapted by the mercy of the Creator, to preserve religion in the world, and to restrain that freedom of thought, which of course in itself is one of the greatest of our natural gifts, and to rescue it from its own suicidal excesses.... I say, that a power, possessed of infallibility in religious teaching, is happily adapted to be a working instrument, in the course of human affairs, for smiting hard and throwing back the immense energy of the aggressive, capricious, untrustworthy intellect....John Henry Newman, Apologia Pro Vita Sua, Chapter 8: "General Answer to Mr Kingsley": newmanreader.org/works/apologia/part7.html
* What he says does not apply to the present Judeo-Masonic controlled Vatican & the "Vatican II" church, created after the overthrow of a rightly elected pope in 1958.
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Two hopefully easy questions:
1) When you wrote "...all we trauma moths flock in.", did you check to see if using "all of us" instead of "all we" would fit cleanly and not leave "in" as a "following-line widow"?
2) Did you wind up keeping the $200/250?
P.S. "The forest's fossil record" was remarkably good. Don't undersell your audience or yourself.