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I'm just trying to say I am WILLING to be rejected, hated, misunderstood castigated, behind my back, but NOT willing to explain myself anymore. Is that what W. Reich called "armoring?" Or is it maturity? I think it's clinical exhaustion.

People can even accuse me of thinking retroviruses are real or any other beastly positions. You can't win anyway.

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While I understand your position, I have been in a different one; never allowed to explain myself. It is this that has lead to the end of many friendships these past 2 and 1/2 years. These seem opposite, but I somehow feel they may in some way be connected.

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They won't let you explain, because you're "just wrong." There is no explaining your "just wrong" position/feelings/ideas, because they don't want to see you as a human with things that don't agree with their position/feelings/ideas. Because you're "just wrong." Period. (I've had these "friends," too.)

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Same here Celia, it might as well be clinical exhaustion. Big thank you for your generosity in sharing your precious memories of Richard. How lucky for you to have met him. And, like you I don't care about rejection, hate etc

and am not willing to explain myself.

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Thank you for sharing Richard with us, Celia. The picture of him with Lewis slayed me.

So many tender gems in here. The Emerson anecdote chilled me and will no doubt accompany my thoughts whenever I encounter his words.

His reflections on Vietnam reminded me of the searing guest piece I recently published by a recently departed Vietnam vet:

• “My War”: Missive from a Fallen Veteran (https://margaretannaalice.substack.com/p/my-war-missive-from-a-fallen-veteran)

I am sorry you have lost a 40-year-long friend, Celia—not to death, but to menticide, which is in some ways sadder. You are wise to protect your heart. They are the lost. We must grieve and let go until—if—they awaken from their lobotomized state.

For those of us who have escaped the mental contagion, let us not desert one another 🤗

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The fallen veteran’s testimony is heart wrenching. I regret that we don’t seem to have more than a few such overused descriptors in our language, but in any case, it was raw and unfiltered.

Wokeism, deadly unvaxxed, and other venal lies come from the somewhat elusive powers that be that are usefulidiotizing (there, a new term) way too many of us to bring about the utter destruction of humanity.

The war, more specifically, on women is starkly apparent. The clot shots seem to disproportionately harm women, at least anecdotally. My personal view, right or wrong, is that the motherly instinct is supposed to produce a more empathetic gender (we men sure need one).

I am greatly inspired by those women in the health freedom, such as CF, MAA, and all the others. It is very disturbing however to see so many women destroyed by toxic medical products, transgenderism, etc. Wokeism furthers that destruction: I saw a taped eulogy where a daughter ripped into her father at his own funeral for being cisgender and all the other buzzwords.

Then you see women who are on a par with the worst men like Kathy “concentration camps” Hochul, Jacinda

Arden, and others running alphabet agencies, and politicians.

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Thank you for your moving words, Ernie, and “usefulidiotizing” is brilliant!

Interesting points regarding women and both extremes of the spectrum. I previously named Christine Anderson the Bravest Politician in the World (https://margaretannaalice.substack.com/i/68654621/bravest-politician-in-the-world), and now Danielle Smith has earned equal rights to that title (https://boriquagato.substack.com/p/kitten-corner-a-good-start). Their contributions help offset the egregious evils committed by Jabcinda, Hochul, et al, and hopefully the latter will soon be deposed.

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Jabcinda - LOL. There are a few promising female politicians. Let’s hope they pan out for us. Thanks MAA.

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what lovely memories of your friend.

a friend is someone who likes you for who you are… no hurdles or hoops to jump, just relaxed companionship.

woke relationship is the opposite, requires cult conformity, it has nothing whatsoever to do with friendship.

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Former friend YESTERDAY(!), fully boosted in MA: "... I just assume you’re still not vaxed so I kept my distance. I have a new heart issue ... I do feel this slow down in the pandemic is largely due to all of us who have chosen to be vaccinated so, to be truthful, I am a bit disturbed by/disappointed that we vaxed folks have all played our part while others are reaping the benefit. Don’t mean to offend, just being truthful in my old age. "

"a new heart issue". No words...I wished her best with her heart issue, sent the Dutch parliament member's tweet about Pfizer's "speed of science" and wrote her off. Lost a whole day in shock. Realize she wants to blame someone, so I just stepped out of the way. Didn't need to defend my truths! Yes, exhausting. Thank you Celia for this lovely story about a wise, true friend.

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Thank you. Love Dr. Tenpenny! Need to silence NPR around here and so much would change :-) Dr. Christianne Northrup calls such shamers "energy vampires" and heartily endorses disconnecting. We need all the energy we can get right now!

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There is no escaping debt, but there is one who said, "My yoke is sweet, and my burden light." As I get older I've been thinking more and more about taking him up on that.

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Nov 19, 2022·edited Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

The hardest and saddest part of the last three years has been friends telling me, they no longer want to hear my voice. Sending an interview of Judy Mikovitz that I came across early on, when I was just beginning to stumble around in a world I’d never known much about, but was now in our face and could not be ignored, ended a lifelong relationship that began in infancy, in 1956. It feels irreparable. We are four months apart. Sharing a clip of Bobby Kennedy speaking in Berlin in 2020 that had me almost in tears? A weeks long silence, a subtle divide, and too soon another decades-long friendship evaporates, just like that. I’m not sure I will ever get beyond caring.

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Nov 19, 2022·edited Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Years ago, I read an article (that I kick myself for not keeping) that described what Hans Christian Andersen went through to get published his telling of "The Emperor's New Clothes."

As the story went, Andersen's original story had a realistic ending vs. a fairy tale one. The little boy points to the Emperor and declares the obvious -- the Emperor has no clothes. The crowd (the world) turns on the boy in outrage for his pointing out the truth...and beats him to death.

Publishers told Andersen that ending would never sell. He changed it to the version we know today.

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Thank you. Oscar Wilde said that if you’re going to tell people the truth, use humor, or they’ll kill you.

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𝑹𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕??? No truer words.

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Sorry for your loss.

Debt, like taxes and money itself is social engineering. It is a means to extract plasma and life force by the State in order to control and ultimately prematurely kill the debt-slave tax donkey. Debt and taxation goes hand in hand, by design, and the creation of fiat out of thin air facilitates this.

It reduces people to money obsessed cogs that in turn reinforce the usurious system, which in turn excises a good portion humanity (love) out of society as everything and everyone is seen through the lens of monetary units, or monetary value turning people primarily into commodities themselves.

Centrally planned and issues fiat from private banks is anything but free market capitalism, and in communism there is no god and the highest form of love is for the State. That's the same kind of "love" that woke leverages into mental slavery as programmed by the State, always framed in State violence.

Original Social Engineering Sin

https://www.2ndsmartestguyintheworld.com/p/original-social-engineering-sin

I think we're all friends here...

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Try “buying” your freedom from the US by relinquishing your citizenship. That will make one a believer of the truths you speak.

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I have friends that did that. I'm here to continue fighting, for now.

And I don't need anyone believing in anything that I do. You're very welcome.

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Did they recently or before the cost went from free to $450 or later when it went up to the current $2350? It is crazy. Much more difficult than just paying this amount. BTW, I am in Japan but am still a US Citizen. Becoming Japanese, if eligible, would in no way solve my issues, sadly.

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They did before fee went up, and they were all rich and offshored all of their money before starting the process.

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They are fortunate, unless they did so long ago. Then they may find their citizenship reactivate, the result of a court case. I hope the have their CLNs.

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Deep, empowering and highly thought provoking, Celia. Thank you very much!

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Thank you for this latest piece. You write from your heart, and it touches me profoundly. Your writing frequently elicits tears or laughter or a smile, but the soul is touched. You've done it again. It's fresh air in this disjointed world in which he find ourselves, to be connected, however loosely, with caring, sincere, loving people sharing their lives through words and pictures.

I have come to a realization that friends, since the Great Divide, are people who connect on a spiritual level. Those kind of friends talk and laugh and cry together about absolutely anything without fear, and the deeper and more profound the better. I won't settle for superficial anymore; they are too easily dismissive and disrespectful when there is a difference of opinion. The friends I have found are precious to me for they are few, but oh, what a blessing. And you, Celia Farber, are a blessing.

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Thank you!

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I'm at this point as well, I've given up explaining myself. You can't change the way people think anyway. 💜

Thank you for sharing Richard with us. I recall my co-worker calling me and asking me to sit down before telling me that my sister passed away. (My mom was too upset to call me to tell me, and at that moment someone was driving my mom home) Very thoughtful!

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Wow.

Beautiful story of friendship of two individuals.

Believe it or not, when I read Celia I cheer up.

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Beautiful, Celia. I love reading about your relationships and memories. I am always excited when I open my inbox in the morning and have one of your long articles to relish over coffee

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Celia this is so rich. I encourage you to dive into the world of Bitcoin. Your money friend pointed to the aspects of fiat currency that enshrine enalavement. Bitcoin is governed by math and is at

It’s essence a system of truth.

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*at its essence

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

Lovely essay, Celia, thank you.

It reminds me of a friend of mine who passed away last year. I had known him since I was 21 (I"m now 68). Met in a church in NYC. He went through everything alongside me for many years.

As a retired Brother Iiving in a retirement home I think he was required to get the shot. Quite soon after he was injected I got the message he was in icu with pneumonia and sepsis.

At 90 years old, and with comorbidities, I never thought he'd come out of it. But he did.

However, he never left rehab. His health, though not his spirit, declined and eventually he passed.

Many long long phone conversations over the years.

I wish I had been able to see him before he passed but there was no way I could without being injected, tested and masked.

I completely understand your position vis a vis willing to be rejected. In order not to lose my temper and my sanity I employ the old " Live and let live". I am too old (wise? ) to argue or preach. Discuss, yes, if someone is truly interested or on the same page.

I get what you mean about getting through it all but at what cost

And don't get me started on the woke thing.

They have just sucked the life out of life.

As for Fauci et al - hate the sin not the sinner. ?

Thanks again. By the way, I was telling a friend about you yesterday. She lives in Spain a good deal of the year. I asked her if she'd been to Andalusia and told her about your sons's wedding, the festivals, and the doors.

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You did? That's remarkable. Thank you Judith. I'm beyond sorry about your cherished friend. I didn't mention that they did not inject Richard in that place, there was that at least. This story about your friend breaks my heart. This is what we have to live with every day. Broken hearts, ready to get broken anew. Nobody cares how we feel. We're the outcasts. Imagine being one of the people on the right (correct) side of everything and everybody would thing your feelings mattered because you're a high status correctly indignant vaccinated woke person. But we have our joys, our lives, our memories, our true friends, our animals, our ability to express, and we have each other. I've been a very bad friend to a lot of people because of my post 2020 disassociation and fear of humans. I can't decide if I should expand and be less afraid of people or more of a turtle and try not to get hurt. Not getting hurt is not an option. I just get hurt. I mean traumatized. I have flashbacks of being condemned. The aids years. It was designed to really make us all do ourselves in. And some did.

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Celia, you are a light in the darkness. Thank you.

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Celia Farber

thank you Celia

I want to be Richard when I grow up.

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